The Little Idiosyncrasies

So I decided to fuck memoirs and trying to find my "niche" for now. LOL.
I'll get around to it...eventually.

I haven't posted in a while (mostly too busy playing League of Legends and doing homework :P)

I'm currently slightly sick right now, feeling better though, and need to finish geometry homework (graphing on line paper ftw! :'D). So for now, I'll share a little piece to catch you up.

Life with mah boyfriend is going wonderfully~. ^o^. I can't wait to see him everday, and I try to see him as much as possible (since we don't have any classes together :c ). I feel like I'm growing slightly clingy, but like.... I can't help it? >__<.
And no, we haven't kissed yet~ :P (everybody always asks us this .___. ). Hopefully, this will change soon >D. LOL. But it's okay too~. I know this one couple who has been dating for like a yearr~, and hasn't kissed yet Cx. It's kinda sweet, but crazy at the same time o3o.
Nairb is really amazing though. He wants to see and accept both the good and bad parts about me. And everyday his actions show me that he'll really love me through thick and thin. But even though I know this, I'm having trouble with showing him the little idiosyncrasies of myself. It's like, with a friend, I can be retarded as hell. It's because I don't give a damn about what they think of me. For Nairb though, I want him to always think I'm..in a sense... perfect, or as close as I can be to perfect.

I'm a very confident person... but only because I know all my good qualities, and I know how to show them off. With being able to always appear as this great person, you get kind of confident. But, that means I hide all my imperfections, the things I'm self conscious of.
Like, I don't wear pony tails in public... because it shows off my face, and makes it look chubby :c. Plus, the back of my neck is very red and stupid looking. Aint nobody wants to see that :P. I think my ears look weird too :T
I never show my feet to the public~ (wearing socks to a friend's house) because I think my feet look weird. My toes are oddly long and thin o3o.
I don't let people look at my hands up close either. I have a lot of imperfections to hide :c

I don't just show you my imperfections just because you tell me you won't judge me. It's like, I know you'll secretly judge me anyway o-o. A few close friends like Luka, Rin, and Choco have been able to see some of my imperfectionss. There comes a point when I can trust a person not to judge, but that comes with a lot of trust.

I don't know when it'll come to the point where I'll trust Nairb enough to show him the bad of me.

OH! By the way, I think I'm growing a cheek fetish xD;. I just can't help, but pinch, rub, carress people's cheeks~. I know how all my friend's cheeks feel. My favorite though is, of course, Nairb's cheeks >w<. Like omgs~. They're just like... idk. they feel magical :O.