It Feels Good to Read

I promised I'd blog by today.

but... >_____> I'm unbearably busy with that whole "becoming a better person" thing. It's more work than I thought at first xD;;. It should've been obvious that this wouldn't be easy, but I suppose I have a real bad habit of not thinking things through enough ^ ^;. Anyways, I've been doing good for the start of May (the time I'm supposed to start). I sort of gave up on the photoshop thing. I'm going to wait until the summer since photoshop takes up a lot of time apparently, and time is something I don't' have ;A;. But no worries! I have been learning new vocabulary... and guess what? //snicker snicker x3 I've been ....*drum roll plz~* ..reading!! ^3^ aren't you proud? Haha, I may ramble on about what a nerd I can be sometimes, but I really don't read as much as I should. The other day I went to the library with Choco-chan. And let me tell you this, it felt pretty darn good to go into a library again since I haven't done so in about a year.

shhh... I'm about to tell you a secret here now. Three or so years back, before I came to New York, I... *looks around cautiously* was a studious bookworm. LOL xD hard to believe, eh? None of meh friends can believe it so, either. I mean, I am the lazy one of the group who finds breathing to be a chore in itself, let alone the work it takes to read!

Something happened since three years back 'till now. I don't know what, but I just couldn't find the time to read. When I was young and living back in the suburban area, I had nothing to do but read. You need a car in order to go somewhere, and I wasn't old enough to go on my own, let alone drive. So what does a young lil' girl do when she has nothing else to do? read, of course xD. I'm not going to say anything crazy like "books where the adventures I wasn't allowed to experience as a kid." But what I will say is that it feels good to read; like really read for my own pleasure, and not for some school assignment xP. Made me feel smarter than the other lil' kiddies at my school xD. I get to learn stuff that schools don't always teach you. Reading about other people's experiences makes me feel like I'm experience them too. It's like I learned the same life lesson as the characters did in the story. Maybe I only learned a quarter of the intended lesson, but that's good enough for me. As long as I learn something, ne? xD. Haha, reading is m~a~g~i~c~a~l~ 8D *rainbow affect*.

Anyways, when I went to the library with Choco-chan, it was fun! :D or at least as fun as it can get at a library xD. I grabbed about six fat books off the shelf, all of which I want to read very much! LOL I must've annoyed Choco-chan a lot though xD. She reads a whole lot, and was suggesting books to me. But you see, I have this weird issue. I never read books that people suggest to me. I don't know why o___o. Like if you were to hand me a book, saying something like, "Emiko, you should read ___(instert foreign book name here)__. It's a really cool book :D." I'll be like "uh...sure. //secretly puts book back." ^ ^;; it's not that I don't trust other people's opinions. It's just a book looks so much more unappealing once someone suggests it to you. I guess I like feeling as if I'm the first to explore the book (even though I know some other random stranger probably did before me). Don't ask me why. It's just how things are xD.

Haha, but anyways, reading books will help me to become a smarter, better person. With this thought, I am going to read all the books I got at the library in a timely fashion. Usually, I get lazy, and take like three weeks to read one book. This time, I'm planning on reading two books in one weekend ^ ^. So I should finish all six books in a total of three weeks :). Choco-chan said she'll reward me with my favorite snack (that only she owns xD) if I can complete this task :D //is highly motivated!! Rin-chan doesn't believe I can do it ;A;. She has no faith in me whatsoever. Which makes me very sad D': ...and all the more determined to prove her wrong! XD. LOL I dunno why, but out of all the people in my group, I love annoying her most. She's just so much fun to pick on ^3^.

How I'm going to work exercising into my schedule is still a mystery, but I'll work it out somehow! XD. Haha, but in general, I've been more active in gym, and whatnot as well :D. And cutting back on the number of snacks I eat XD. LOL so I'm working hard ^ ^. Hopefully, I can achieve my goal :)

Happy Halloween!!

Happy Halloween people~~~!!!!

Haha I didn't go trick or treating. I'm apparently too old for that xD. I had to work today too. I can't believe the stupid driver that drops everyone off at my work didn't come today. I ended up having to walk like 30 blocks tonight! That totally sucked. My feet were dying. When I came home I was dragged back out because my family had just gotten done trick or treating, and we were going out to eat. Sigh~ so now I'm really tired xD.

Despite not going out to trick or treat, I have actually been able to obtain a significant amount of candy.
Pari-chan let me eat a crap load of her candy corn xD so much so that I am now sick to the stomach of candy corn. lol.

I LOVE LUKA-CHAN TOO THOUGH!!! <333~~~
THAT EPIC WOMAN GAVE ME SOUR GUMMY WORMS~~~!!!! :D :D :D
*is enjoying a yummy piece right now* fufufufufu~~
Haha I don't think I've mentioned this before, but sour gummy worms are my favorite candy of all time. It is absolutely delicious, tasty, and sweet. I just love eating them. I don't know why. The flavoring is really good, but not anything special. But I love them. And Luka-chan loves me enough to get me some. I was so happy because I haven't eaten gummy worms in like forever xD. Haha so a special love shout to Luka-chan~! (even though she doesn't read my blog xD)

LOL So here are some really low quality pictures that I took with my NEW camera. haha no more crappy camera for me). However, since I don't know how to work my new camera, the pictures still come out crappy xD.
Anyways, this is of the handmade bag Luka-chan made for me to put my candy in. She made like a couple of these for everyone in my group of friends.
But the message she wrote on it was so mean TT^TT.
The first words I read is "You hoe-baggy woman!" xDD LOL it's tough love I tell ya! She also talks about how she loves meh (haha I knew it!). It's also L.'s (from death note) birthday today! So she mostly gave us candy because of L.'s birthday, and not for the purpose of Halloween xD.

Sigh~ well anyways, I got to go. My stupid mean science teacher gave me homework TT^TT. LOL but science teacher is so cool. He dressed up as a mad scientist today. It was hilarious xD.

Haha well anyways, I hope y'all have a fun Halloween. Go steal candy from your siblings (or jack 'em from random people off the street) ;D. And have a nice scary night~ throwing eggs at people's houses or watching scary movies or whatever the heck it is you do. xD haha *hopes you people have the common sense to not actually do what I say here*

A Trip to Rin-chan's House~

Today, I went to go and visit my lovely friend, Rin-chan. It was more of a homework visit. Rin-chan doesn't have the books that we need to finish the English homework. Thus, I went over to her house so we could work on it together. ^ ^;; except I only had half of the books we needed, and Rin-chan thought it was very stupid of me to not have all of the books. But it's not my fault xD. I thought she said we only needed two certain books, and I did. Good thing is that we were able to finish the homework anyways :D. With a little help from Nyu-san, and the internet ^ ^;;. It was so much fun going to Rin-chan's house though. I love going there because I get yummy free food ^w^. Yea, I'm a freeloader~ ;D. Lolz, but besides the free food, I liked going there because it's fun hanging out with Rin-chan. ^ ^ We have like telepathic powers, and understand what one another means when we say stupid stuff, so there's no need for annoying explanation. Anyways, we had lots of laughter and snacking involved in my visit ^ ^. When we called Nu-san, we put her on speaker phone. It was funny because she sounded like a guy, and we couldn't understand a single word she said xD. I don't like calling Nyu-san for homework help because she always gives me weird and vague answers. 

For example:

I'll ask her "What is the theme of blank story?"  <--story not really called "blank" xD

She'll respond as "Poverty." 

I'll be like "How was poverty related?" 

Nyu-san would then reply "It just is." 

Which in return makes me ask "...but how?" 

"They had no money." She'll then say.

And I'll be like " >.O but what does that have to do with the theme/life lesson of the story?"

Eventually, Nyu-san would get annoyed at my "stupid" questions, and redirect me to someone else who she believes could help me. Nyu-san is a very weird lady, who likes to beat around the bush. Anyways, since Nyu-san is so bad at helping with homework, me and Rin-chan went onto the incredibly helpful internet for answers :D. But unfortunately all the websites that tell you answers like "what is the conflict" or "what is the theme" for books cost money in order for you to see the complete answers. TT~TT so we had make stuff up from vague text online. I mean we're supposed to be doing this ourselves, but we're lazy :P. Rofl xD jk. I mean we can't come up with the answers ourselves very easily (because the book we had to read was stupid and difficult). However, with the help of the vague websites and the work of two awesome minds, we were able to come up with the answers. So we actually finished some work like we were supposed to :D. But mostly because I was able to keep us on track...>.> well it was more of a group effort xD. We had to remind each other continuously. Ah ha xD it was fun goofing off with her though. I've been cooped up in my house for so long that I forgot what it was like to socialize with other people other then my family ^ ^;;. We laughed at all sorts of things like trains, teddy bears, hiding knives in layers of fat, and etc.

Exia-Near came along for the visit as well :D. He got to meet all of Rin-chan's excellently house trained stuff animals ^w^~. Um..I don't know any of their names, so I can't really tell you who they are. But they have nice personalities.... for um stuff animals that is xD.

Read from right to left like in manga

 Exia-Near had a nice one on one conversation with Rin-chan's Hello Kitty ^ ^. . . . well maybe it was that nice of a conversation. lol xD. Exia-Near needs to learn not to say such offensive things ^ ^;;. I guess I didn't train him properly. Well, he does only get to associate with his family as well. His family is my group of stuff animals xD.

[for those of you who cannot read the text in the speech bubble clearly, it says
Exia-Near: *looks at Hello Kitty* And I thought I was the big one... O_O
Hello Kitty: *angry* Excuse me?! >:( 
~end of conversation~]
Um..^ ^;; idk if you can understand the joke but I shall explain.
Exia in the anime he comes from is this really huge robot thing, so since Hello Kitty is "larger" then him, he says that thought aloud. And Hello Kitty is offended because she feels like he's calling her fat.

So at 5:23 p.m. I left for home, and started walking with the feeling of a happy afternoon left in the air. (that sentence made no sense, but just go with it xD). When halfway home (I live a block away from Rin-chan), my phone started ringing -truthfully I was hoping it was K.- it was Rin-chan. I picked up my phone and said the normal greeting of "Hello?" And Rin-chan was going on about how I forgot my pencils. So I turned around to go back to her house. However, I heard a door open and close nearby, and turned to the noise out of habit. To my surprise it was a very cute boy walking out of his house ^ ^~. I watched him walk off to some unknown land, while Rin-chan went on about something (I kind of unconsciously tuned her out). But sigh~ my heart is already taken by K. ;) ~ ..Which reminds me, I gotta go check my inbox to see if he replied to my email. Hm..I'll do that later. Ah > < sorry for getting off topic. xD Anyways, after staring at the cute boy walk away, I meet up with Rin-chan at the front of her apartment building. When I got there she handed me my pencils. And, shockingly she only handed me one pencil. . .  I was like: -____- <-- yea I had that expression on xD. It was just one little pencil, and she called me for that xD. Oh, well. It's the thought that counts, right? ^ ^. Lolz, xD I told her about the cute boy, and we joke about the idea of me going out with him and the idea of a "boy next door" kind of thing. But the guy looked slightly older then me by like 2~3 years xD. Which isn't much, but still. And I feel kind of bad now ^ ^;;. I have this feeling that I'm like cheating on K. for looking at other guys. . . hm. . .but it's not like I'm really serious about the person, so it's okay right? Gah! >~< Idk. Oh well. Nothing is gonna happen because of it, so whatever.

^ ^ So to conclude this entry, I'll say.... SEE YA LATERS!! :D ~       (or is it "blog to ya laters"? xD)

Studying

Okay, I have a problem. It's bad. This is bad. TT.TT and I can't stop it.
I can't study for more then half an hour without starting to get drowsy afterwards!!! HALF AN HOUR!!
TT~TT I just can't stay awake. It's like I start out all determined, but then the words start to blur and my eyes begin to close themselves; my  motivation disappears D: and I fall asleep. But I somehow luckily never end up falling/drooling on my book. I don't drool much, but even the slightest bit of it can ruin the book.
Sigh~ I really have no clue how to solve this problem. It happens with book that I'm actually interested with too. Like, I'm reading this book called Stolen by Lucy Christopher, but I can only read for about 30 minutes before I start to get sleepy. This book is pretty good too. TT.TT Am I cursed?! So I've developed a schedule, where I only study a subject for about 30 minutes before switching to something else.
If it continues like this though >.> I have a really bad feeling about my chances on that important test I've mentioned a couple of times.
Not only have I been falling asleep from books, I've been getting distracted lately. I can't keep focus. :(
When I start to get bored, I fantasize or think about more fun things that I would rather be doing. TT^T so everything ends up rather unsuccessful.
....Well to tell you the truth >.> this is my first day getting into my studying schedule. Perhaps, I just have to get used to the schedule; give it a couple of days I guess.
Sigh~ why do I have to have reading assignments? Personally, I like math better. I finished my math homework in half a day without getting bored. Math is just so much easier for me too. >.> However it's opposite for some of my friends. Rin-chan likes English better. She's pretty good at it too. Math is her least favorite subject. Me and and Rin-chan are very different xD, but we surprisingly think alike often too (like we have the same opinions on people and stuff).
Anyways, back to my problem. I need to find a way to stay awake while studying.
I could try and use clothing pins to keep my eyelids open like they did in the manga Yankee-kun to Megane-chan. xD that sounds painful though...and I don't have clothes pins. xD lol fail.
What do you do when you're having trouble with studying? Any suggestions would be helpful ^ ^