That Strage Parent

My dad is quite the odd parent if I do say so myself.

Lately, I haven't been studying because I've found myself too caught up in the excitement of League of Legends. LOL. Sounds kind of lame, but it's a really fun game in my defense XD. It's come to the point where he's put parental control on my internet access so that it gets cut off at midnight.... or 11:59 to be specific. Gosh. I feel like my dad is starting to troll me xD;;.

Anyways, he doesn't just flat out tell me "Hey, you're being a stupid kid. Stop it or you'll be punished like hell."

No, instead the man goes out into the rain to grab a smoke. During his time out, he finds an old regents biology exam book, and brings it home. I hear him walk into the room, and say "Hey, you." Next thing I know, I have a small, wet book being flung at me! Good thing I have reflexes o3o... And to explain himself, my father goes, "This is what you should be doing. This is an example of some kid who's doing the right thing; who has the will to put effort into their life."

It's a strange method, but it really got the point across. I mean, my dad really knows how to hit the right spots for me. He knows I don't like competition or knowing that there's someone better than me. That's why I guess showing me this book, which probably comes from some kid living right next door to me, really makes me wanna go study, so I can at least beat this kid. Haha. As long as I beat someone, IM HAPPY. xD. This kid is pretty smart though, so I gots my work cut out for me ;A;.

No, but like, I don't know why my dad is this upset with me. My overall grade average is 95.5, and rising. I have 90s and above in all my classes (a 100 in Latin class). I'm improving. I'm actually working harder because of the fact that I'm playing games. If my overal grade average drops below 90 even once my dad will take away my allowance. I need that for my cake cravings ;A;.

Harr, BUT. I do admit, I should be studying for regents. It's almost time, scarily enough ;A;. I WILL STARTT. And I mark this officially. (cuz everything is better when it's official Cx). //determined. (watch it only last for like a week though o3o)

Suicide...

My friend has been talking about doing suicide quite often these days....it scares me...a lot. (let's call him Kashu) It's hard for me to tell if he's joking or serious at times. I'm not sure what to do. I worry for him. He's my friend, of course I worry about him. I desperately want to help him, but what am I supposed to say or do in this kind of scenario? At first my friends and I took it as him joking. I mean people exaggerates about this kind of thing sometimes. Trying to cheer him up thinking he was just a little bit sad, we said things like "Why? Suicide is obviously bad. Oh, but I once read a quote that went something like "Suicide is like telling god, 'You can't fire me! I quite!'". We all laughed at it, even Kashu-kun. It was quite funny at the time, since the quote is rather amusing. However, Kashu-kun has brought it up a couple of times now... He's always saying things like "I just want to end my life now." or "I'm seriously thinking about suicide!" Of course he tries to say it in a joking matter, so no one gets upset or begins to fret over it, but sometimes I just...I don't know. Something is troubling him...and that troubles me. Sigh~ I swear I worry too much. I'm gonna gain wrinkles this way xP. I think I'm over reacting a bit, but...you never know what people are truly feeling.
Anyways, from what I have been told, Kashu-kun's mom has a lot of expectations for him about school. Him and I are both in the honors class, so we are expected to get good grades and study hard. From what Kashu-kun has said, his mom really expects him to get 100s on every single test (which is very difficult since we're learning things a couple grades higher than we're supposed to), and has him study 'till the night's end. We all have expectations put upon us, but Kashu-kun's mom seems scary from what I've heard ^ ^;;. Exaggerations Kashu-kun might have made, but still, I feel kind of bad for him. I've talked to my dad about this problem (yesh, I share this kind of stuff w/ my parent ^ ^;;), and he's said that Kashu-kun is getting the feeling of expectations and parental pressure mixed up (or something like that...). My dad explained that expectations are like responsibilities that you have to try and full fill (or at least I think that's what he meant). I mean parents will be parents right? It's normal for them to want their child to do well, some more than others.
Hmm...this doesn't seem like much of a reason to seriously cause you to think of suicide. But nerds have it rough ^ ^;; ...
Nonetheless, Kashu-kun should realize the consequence of suicide, and stop joking about it. Sure, some people think that suicide is the easy way out, and everything just ends there. Sigh~ but it doesn't. Think about it, your parents have like, what?, 30-ish years left? You going to let them suffer for those 30 years, just so that you didn't? Quite a cowardly thing suicide is.
Life only gets worse before it gets better. That doesn't make much sense...but trust me. You just have to wait a bit. Good things come to those who wait.
I wonder...how I can help Kashu-kun...

Bleh :V gosh, this is too depressing. It's quite different from what I usually write about. Kashu-kun has just been worrying me a bit for a few days now...
Here's a website that kind of makes fun of the topic of suicide, but it does point out some good things: the ten minute suicide guide
you should read it if you're thinking about suicide...or if you just want a good laugh :3

...i dont think i made much sense in this entry today o.o ....but this is what i know and how i feel, so whatever ;P