trust is so fragile

Trust. It's something that's given to a person, and over time it grows. It grows into this beautiful thing that allows you to have confidence in another person; allows you to depend on them every once in awhile. Trust is important for humans to coexist peacefully with one another. People put a lot of trust in another. At times, it may seem like that trust will never be lost. But in reality, just the tiniest thing can make someone lose their trust. No matter what the intention of the person was, no matter how small the even. If someone did something to betray another's trust than that trust will never be the same as it was before. You can gain the trust back, but the person won't trust you fully. It could take years to gain someone's trust, but only a few seconds to destroy it.

Sigh...even knowing all that, I still managed to somehow lose the trust of someone, someone close and important to me. And all for the stupidest thing. That person was my dad. Since we have a daughter, father relationship, it wasn't too difficult to patch things up. ...I still feel terribly bad and ashamed though. My dad is real good at stuffing a person with extreme guilt. What I did to lose his trust in me is too stupid to share, so I won't go into detail on that. I'll just say I broke a rule I shouldn't have.

Anyways, things are still uneasy with my dad and I. There's this stressful aura between us. I used to talk to him so easily, but now, it's kind of scary to talk to him ;A; which sucks since I live with the guy. It's the trust people, the trust. Don't ever do anything to break it. Bad things will happen.

My dad is the kind that doesn't like to talk about the event until he's tortured me enough. LOL not like whip and chains kind of torture though xD that'd be scary. More like, he'll bring it up whenever he can. For instance, if he's talking to my sister about some lecture, he'll randomly look at me with the sternest look I'll ever know O^O. He will remind me of it constantly. LOL well, now that I think about it, it's normal for him to do that because he doesn't want me to forget what I did wrong. But sigh, it's killing me inside >o<. I don't do good with guilt D; it makes me feel awful. And my dad knows this well xP. Then, when he thinks I've suffered enough, he'll give me a long ass lecture about what happened. Eventually, he'll start branching off the lecture into different topics, and I'll just be dying there.

Anyways, besides the emotional punishment, my dad is also punishing me how parents normally do. They take away something that you love ;A; which is cruel in my opinion. He said he'll block all of my internet, but the websites I list. Meaning I can list whatever websites I have most dear to me, and then he'll block everything that I don't name. So I spent like an hour or so decided what websites I can't live without (btw there was no limit to the amount of websites I can name). It was so hard, so I named basically everything in my favorites list xD. When I emailed the list to my dad, he looked at it, and laughed. At that point, I felt scared O^O. "Now pick three," he told me. I thought he meant that I could only pick three websites for me to go on. However, I was in luck. He meant for me to remove three websites from the list. I was like "NOOOO~!" After going through all the websites, and trying to pick the most important, how could I pick three to remove? :O //panick. Then I thought, "Ah ha!" This is actually where I got lucky though. Since I named practically everything under the sun, I had a lot of stupid websites I could pick to remove and not go on.

But still... my dad said there's a total of five steps to my punishment >___>...what I described was just the first two. The thing about my dad is that he's totally unpredictable O^O. I've known the guy for fourteen years, and I still don't have a good handle of how he thinks. LOL so I'm shaking in my boots right now.

Anyways, the point of this post wasn't to complain about my punishment. It was to tell you people one special thing that you should all remember.
"Just because you think you can get away with it, doesn't make it right."
Therefore, don't do anything wrong just because you think no one will find out. Because it does not justify your wrong doing. Don't ruin a person's trust in you. It's an awful thing to do.

well, i got to go do science homework now. bye byes~.
wish meh the best of luck ^ ^;;