Worried About High School O^O

You know, I love being young :)
When I was little, starting from elementary to around the middle of sixth grade, I wanted to grow up as soon as possible. Life seemed so boring. LOL because when you're a kid, you can't go out. You're stuck listening to your parents. And my entire life was go to school, come home, do homework, and repeat :P. For some reason, I always thought that when I got to high school, everything would be fun. I think this type of thinking was influenced by the number of movies I've watched over the years xD. I dunno why, but high school movies always seems so funny :3. However, now that I am actually going to high school soon, I'm scared as hell O^O;;... like I'm not ready >____< *flails arms wildly in panic*.

Well, not really scared... just super super nervous. Everyone will be so old there O^O... older people are scary (but some older guys tend to be kinda cute 8D)... and everyone will be smarter, and I'll be so short compared to the majority of the people. Gahh~ I like being an 8th grader. I have seniority over the little kiddies >w<. Ah hahaha~ yea no =3=. Rude lil' 6th and 7th graders are a pain in the ass. They stand in the hallways, their fat butts blocking my path. I just feel like screaming, "Move your idiotic butts out of my way, dammit!" but obviously, in reality, I scream, "Move your idiotic butts out of my way, dammit!" xD Yea, I have no shame~. *cough, uh where was I~? Oh right, so since I'll be the freshman, it'll be so scary O^O. I dunno why, but just the thought of high school makes me quiver in my boots. I'm going to a real nerdy school, Bronx Science, so I'm sure no one is going to beat me up or something. I mean, there might be the occasional weirdo who'll attack me with a shitload of math problems, but I can handle that :3 ...unless it's something hard like "1+1". Yes! That's hard. I always get tricked on that >____>. I mean obviously it equals two, right? But whenever someone asks, I'll always say "Window!" Yea, I hang out with too many weirdos that shrank my brain xP.

Er...what was my point again? Ah, yea, I don't wanna go to high school. I wanna stay youngg~. Being my age is fun ^3^. Why? Because I get to go out and be all cool BUT I also don't have to do any chores or anything because I'm still young-ish. 8D. I do chores at least once a week... but I heard that I have to do chores like everyday when I get older. EVERYDAY O^O. Realizing this, I think I just died a little inside >__>. LAWL naw xD I'm just kidding. Well, I mean, I do have to do more chores and stuff when I'm older, but it won't be that bad xD. Anyways, I'm happy with how old I am because being young is cool ;D. I don't have to worry about making money, just how to spend it 8D. lolol jk xD. And, I just love hanging out with my friends and laughing my ass off 24/7 <3.

Not saying that I won't be able to do that in high school. I'm just saying that going to high school means I won't be able to laugh with meh friends 24/7. It'll be like 12/7 ;A; //dies. Sigh.

LOL but yea... it's hard to explain this strange mish mosh going all around in me right now.

There's like some crazy tornado of sappy emotions, nervousness, stress, happy stuff, fear, worry, and some other things that I don't really know how to name.

happy stuff because despite all the scary attributes of high school, I still think it'll be fun as hell ^____^. just don't know what fun stuff i'll get to do yet xD;;.

AHHH ! :O I just realized something. When I got to high school, I'll be able to start fresh.
Hmmm... I wonder what kind of person I should be at high school.

I can continue to be my creepy perverted self 8D.
or I can try to be normal. like stop my habit of having to pinch little kiddies's cheeks like a pedo, and attacking people with hugs, and spazzing over shonene ai moments <3.
or I can be the ultra-nerd :D. focus on studies with 100% effort >w<;;.
or I can be that cold-quiet-nerd. lolol the kind that sits there reading all the time, acting too cool to talk to anyone. xD that's the kind of person my dad was. He'd sit there, and act all cool when deep down he was an otaku-geek x3.

LOL I think... I'll ..hm.. most people would say, "just be yourself."
but you got to admit, it might not be safe for a person like to "just be myself" in this world. I mean, my stupidity is VERY contagious. I just might possibly turn my nerdy school into one full of crazies ^3^. Ah ha~, so I suppose I'll just do what I do for everything in life. I'll wing it ^___^. I'll go into high school, and morph into whoever the hell I feel like being :D. Yea, it's worked for me so far ;)

Haha~ well, I had just gone through a very fun week, in which I am too lazy to write about right now, so I want to relax. And by relaxing, I mean, I'ma go watch some dramas. >w< kyaa~ I love dramas. <3

so ciaosu~ ;D


ps. sorry for the weird post todayy~. just felt like ranting about high school since my dad was talking to me about it today. i swear, he's more freaked out about it than I am though xD. it's like the only thing on his mind, and he's researching into every known resource. It's kinda funny in a way :3.