Well A Few Things Happened... :3

On a dark summer evening, when the clouds were absent and the sun was high, I was wondering very deeply in my closet about why the hell it's suddenly summer and dark when the sun is up and im in this dark confined space. yea.. :3

Yo ho ho xD I'm quite high today. LOL very hyperrr~. So sorry if I make no sense ! because I probably wont for this post ..or maybe I will. Not really sure. In a weird mood XD.

Since the last time I posted,  quite a bit happened. Hmm..where to start first~. Ah Wednesday was fun :) ..well It was but then I felt terrible afterwards. Nyu-san is scary.

PRANK CALL GONE WRONG

well it turned out right, but ended terrible.

Me and Choco-chan finishes after school activities at the same time on Wednesdays, so we walked home together~. We pass by Nyu-san's house on our way home. So we decided to prank call her :3. It seemed like a good idea at first ^ ^;; but... Yea, so I called her pretending to be crying. I think I did pretty well ^^ (spent one year in the theater club :3). I was like "Nyu-san ! Choco-chan and I was crossing the street, and a stupid guy was speeding and ran a red light. And Choco-chan got ran over !!" but of course I said it with a lot of stuttering and fake sobs and it was rushed. It was so cool though! Me and Choco-chan hiding behind her car. We saw Nyu-san just dash right out her door, and started running towards where I told her we were. She was already like 15 feet away from me before I realized she even came out the door. I tried calling her name and ran after her. But she was so focused on trying to get to us that she didn't hear me. When she finally did, she turned around and clobbered me with a hug (well it was more of a sling of her arm around my shoulders), and she started laughing realized it was a prank call. But I think she was laughing out of relief of our safety too :). My friends...who I'll call Angel and Bicky.. was at  Nyu-san's house and ran out too. I feel so bad for Choco-chan because they all three started hitting/kicking her (gently of course) out of anger for tricking them. It's funny that they were worried for her, and didn't want her hurt. But once they saw she was perfectly fine, they started hurting her. People are weird like that :|
I felt so terrible after the prank call though because apparently Nyu-san has had actually cases where people she was closed to has been ran over by car. I had no idea D: and I feel so bad about it.
I'm so sorry, Nyu-san.

So ! The lesson from this is never prank call anybody ever again <3. LOL jk...well it is mean to prank call someone ^ ^;. True lesson is never prank call someone about serious things like death :L

Hmm..let me see...what else happened?

OH ! I remember. Today, at school, there was a "pre-valentine's day" dance. It was okay :)

LOL I CANT DANCE FOR LIFE

Nobody at my school dances ever actually dance. Basically it's just a bunch of people put into the gym that all just sit around. There are those few people who dance, but it's usually those dirty dancing people xP.

I was dancing because I'm cool like that :D. LOL but like I said I suck at dancing. Can't get that whole moving the hips things right orz. I was told I was doing pretty okay, but I believe that was just people being nice xP. LOL I found it funny that one of my classmates told me I looked cute while dancing xD it was so random, and I think I was pretty fail :P. Haha but none of my friends were dancing

And damnnnn my hips hurt D; *rubs meh hips*. ... WAITTTTTT~ no I mean my waist. LOL yea I don't think I've ever told you guys this, but I am an idiot who can't remember the human anatomy correctly

Anyways, I love my friends <3. I love how me and them share common views <3 (but we also bicker about different opinions too xD). Everyday while walking home with them, we always rant like hell together. It's good stress relief :'D. LOL we usually stop at the corner of where we have to part from each other, and stand there ranting for about an hour. Ranting is funnn~ <3.

Besides all this normal stuffu, I also have poetry stuff to share. It's required for each student at my school to submit one poem for this poetry contest my school has. The select three winners, and they all get cash prizes (first prize gets $100 <3). They choose about 50 good poems out of the few hundred or so poems, and put it into a book. LOL anyways, back to the point, since I'm an over achiever :'D (not really), I submitted two poems XD.

And I feel like sharing them with you people :3

Private Eyes

All day you smile and laugh

Trying to make everyone not worry

Caring about others. Never yourself.

But your eyes tell it all

A thousand words they speak

Through your eyes to the soul

I can see a scarred lil’ girl

Your eyes tell it all

The secrets those divine eyes hold

Something dark and cold

Tells the pain brought by memories

Yet holds some things still a mystery.

Exotic and beautiful

Like the sky’s tears

Deep and bold

Like a cat in the night

Intense and awake

Like a blazing torch

Your eyes tell it all

Yearning for attention

Yearning for appreciation

Just wants love

The Lily of the Valley

To me, like little bells.
Pure as white can be.
Always together,
Close in a bundle.
As one, they hold onto life’s rope.

Growing together.

Been that way forever.

Having fun

Soaking in the sun.

But when old Father Time grows older

and Fate’s winds grow stronger,

They begin to wilt brown with change.

No longer pure as one.

All different in the sun.

The bells begin to fall

One by one.

and they take their own path.

Swaying where the wind takes them.

Separated from their friends.

Never looking back.

So yeaa~ I wonder if one of them will be a winner :3.

LOL other than this, I don't think I have anything else to say.

I'm happy it's finally the weekend though. School can be a real killer ^ ^;

Crying Ain't So Bad ?

Is it weird that I sort of semi-like crying?
I don't know how to explain why very well... It's just, usually I am a happy person. . . I'm not sure if I'm happy for myself or... for others. Do I try to look strong so others won't worry? or am I strong on my own? I don't really know the answer to that. This happy attitude didn't really start until fifth~sixth grade to be honest. Why? Well, hm... can you keep a secret? LOL probably not, but I guess I'll tell you anyways. A lot of people for some reason believes I don't know the meaning of sadness or pain. Probably because I act so happy all the time. Those people are unfortunately wrong... When I was little.. well let's just say I didn't have the best childhood a person could have. And when I finally got out of the bad situation I was in, I couldn't talk about it. No, it's more like I didn't want to talk about it. To make people not ask, I became "happy." Making people think I'm okay, bottling things up, acting happy; I've become good at it. Eventually, I've fooled myself into really thinking I am. It's been this way for a long time. Don't get me wrong, I've come to learn how to be happy. When I laugh with my friends at school or give someone a warm smile, it's certainly not fake (well..maybe sometimes. depends). But because I bury my pain so deep into my heart that I don't even recognize it anymore, I've come to be fascinated by the act of crying. I try so hard not to that when I actually do cry, I don't try to wipe the tears off my cheeks in a hurry. I don't try to stop myself. It's weird. I'm strange. Crazy. I know. But it let's me know that I'm human. that I have emotions, and I'm glad I do. Nothing  recent has really caused me to cry for real though. But for like books, or t.v. shows, and etc. I've cried out of empathy. I'm too empathetic that it happens often (my dad finds it funny and very amazing at the same time >__>). I don't know though. Some people say there's not point in crying. Crying is just useless. It doesn't do anything. I'd have to disagree with that though. Crying let's me move on. When I cry, I get all the sadness and pain out. So afterwards, I don't regret anything, and it helps clear my mind.
I like screaming out of rage too... but that's a story for another time xD.
I'll leave this post short because it's midnight x___x and I need to seriously sleep. I've only been surviving through school with like only 5 hours of sleep. I'm going to die if I don't get at least eight hours tonight xP.

ps. gomen ne~ this post is... slightly depressing ^ ^;;. I've just.. I guess bottled up so much in my life time thus far, that I just need to get some of it out~. I mean, why have a blog if I can't say what I feel whenever the hell I want to?

pss. to friends: please don't worry about me ^ ^;;. I haven't gone into depression or anything. There's nothing wrong with me. See *smiles* :D I'm fine. No asking me 'bout this later~ xP.
to Gleek-kun: I mean it when I say don't ask me about this later =___= it's an order~! :|

It's Tuesday and Saturday :D !! ...uh wait, huh? xD

Okay, guess what? :D Today is ...*drum roll* .. Tuesday !! \(^o^)/

Oh? o.O You say you already know this? LOL of course you do~. But even though it's Tuesday, I am going to tell you about Saturday ^___^. Isn't that exciting? Haha xD Okay maybe exciting isn't the right word, but I shall continue to talk nonetheless :P

Okay, Saturday was a fun day for me :D. I had a weird day...well, weird doesn't even begin to describe what Saturday was. You see, I had spent last Saturday with Luka-chan, Rin-chan, and Katrina-chan. They all had come to my house. We were rehearsing for a skit we have created for Spanish class.

>_________> I feel so bad for my friends. The first thing that happens when they walk into the door is that my two little demons monsters brothers had started shooting them ! They took out their little nerf guns and pow pow POW!
TT___TT they are so mean. The bullets of course don't hurt, but it can be quite terrifying if the first thing you see is some orange cylindrical object was flying towards your face ! It's just not right.
Sigh. and it gets worse. Once I took the guns away, they resorted to punching them. TT^TT my friends were harassed. Luckily, my little sister doesn't give a damn about my friends and just played on her computer the whole time. One less pest to worry about :D.

LOL so for the first hour or so they were over, we just talked and talked and talked. I don't even remember what we were talking about. No body had eaten lunch, so my dad had ordered pizza. Thus, for the second hour they were here, we were eating. =_________= so. much. time. gone. We watched One Piece 8D and drank coke while we ate Pizza. Oh ho ho~ I think it was fun. If it didn't cost us so much time =____=".

Then afterwards, we got all our shit together, and started rehearsing. It was hard OTL.
All of us (except Luka-chan xD) memorized our lines. But actually preforming them was just horrid. All our actions were awkward xD and like not normal. We were basically goofing off the whole time. L-l-luka-chan was so crazy. She attacked me ! several times too. Luka-chan is the waitress (we are preforming a restaurant skit), so she carries a pen and what not. *sniffles* a-and she took that stupid pen and started to stab me with it TT^TT. Lukcily, she's not crazy, and she didn't actually stab me with it. But it was scary Dx I have this intense fear of sharp objects being pointed at me. Like I will freak out if scissors or knives and apparently pens/sharp pencils are pointed/directed towards me. Sigh. It's a terrible fear because people like to purposely attack me T^T.

Anyways~, I'm glad we got the basic priority accomplished :D. We got the general movements done ^___^. Yay!
But the stupid skit is due Tuesday OTL. Damn, we're not ready. We've only had one practice session. I try to reschedule another practice day, but everyone is busy. I think.. we're going to be winging the skit during school. Farewell to my good grade TT^TT. ...sigh. I guess I'ma just take a leap of faith here. Hopefully, we can get it right... but I'm scared Dx

Arguing With My Dad Sucks

LOL OHMIGOSH IM SO SORRY !!! I DIDNT POST A CHRISTMAS POST DX.
BLAME MY DAD THOUGH!!! He was so mad at me TT^TT. Supposedly I'm on the computer too much.

He was all pissed off, and was like "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU DO ON THE COMPUTER ALL DAY!??!"
Oviously I told him the truth. "I WAS WORKING ON MY DAMN SPANISH PROJECT!!"
He didn't believe me TT^TT. "YOU WERE WORKING ON IT THE WHOLE DAY!?"
"YES I WAS!! I HAVE PROOF TOO! GO LOOK. ALL MY WORK IS THERE." we were literally shouting at each other.
"I DON'T HAVE TO LOOK. I KNOW YOU COULDN'T HAVE BEEN DOING THAT ALL DAY!"
"OF COURSE IT WASN'T THE WHOLE DAY. THE OTHER HALF I WAS TAKING A NAP, STUPID!"
"STILL! WHAT ABOUT ALL THE OTHER DAYS?! I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN BE ON FOR SO LONG!"
in my head i was thinking, what the helll?! You're on it all day too (we have our own computers). So what do you mean you don't know how someone can be on all day?! But what I said to him was, "I'VE TOLD YOU THIS BEFORE! You know I blog, do my homework, check my emails, and stuff. What the hell do you think I do?!"
"I DONT KNOW! BUT ITS NOT NORMAL FOR YOU TO BE ON FOR SO LONG!"
at this point I just got pissed off, and stopped replying to him. I just kept nodding my head, and saying "Okay." to whatever he was telling me. Sometimes reasoning with my dad is pointless.

TT^TT my dad and I hardly ever fight, so it was sad. On Christmas day too Dx what a bummer.
I honestly was working on my stupid Spanish project the whole day though (talked to Banana-kun a bit, but that's not the point xD). I have to create a stupid Spanish menu written all in Spanish. My group members (*cough cough* you know who you are.) didn't really help too much ^ ^;;. I mean, I did ask them to help collect information on the food, and they did. But it wasn't much help. Why? Oh well because what they gave me was a link to a website. That's great help right? They did their work right? Wrong.
What they were supposed to do was give me the exact name and link to the food. But no. I had to search for every damn thing myself. Then after finding all the crap, I had to translate the things into Spanish too, and translate the descriptions for it and all that. Sigh~ what a pain in the ass.
So basically what I did that took me all day was

-find a picture for the menu cover and back cover (which took me forever)
-find the different foods I needed for the menu
-write descriptions for each food
-translate everything into spanish.
-design the damn menu

I swear that's what I did all day. It doesn't sound like much, but that's what I was busy doing.

The annoying part about this project is that my friends were supposed to help. When I stated this to them they were like "I did help! What the hell is it that you're doing?! Why don't you do anything?!" -________-" sigh. what a pain in the ass they can be sometimes. But whatever. I did the work already, so I don't really give a damn anymore.

Anyways, fights with my dad doesn't last very long. My dad just yells his thoughts off, and I just nod my head. The next day, he's calmed down, and tries to reason with me again in a more proper manner :T.
In the morning, he had to use my computer, and he saw my Spanish project. He was like "....so you were working on it...."
And I was like "Yeah! I told you so. I did all this and that yesterday. It took me so long because I had to translate every damn thing into Spanish, and had to research for all the food and whatnot. I mean what the hell do you think I was doing?!"

By the look on my dad's face, I could tell that he felt stupid and bad for yelling at me.
So of course he did what he always does, he pretended like nothing happened and laughed. My dad is annoying like that. Never apologizes. It kind of annoys me, but that's just how he is.

Sigh~ so I might not blog very much this week. Gotta stay off the computer for a few days for my dad to forget about this problem he has with me and my computer :T

Friends are Fun. Evil Sixth Graders are Not.

LOL I remember Luka-chan told me to write about various things, but I forgot what they were xDD

Hm~  OH WAIT! I remember xDDD oh crap. I definitely remember. (wish i didn't xD)
Sigh~ where to begin with this??  Well I had another interesting lunch period xDD.

^ ^;;...more...perverted things happened today XD

Okay, so I had just sat down at the lunch table (I had gone somewhere, and had arrived after everyone was seated). Guess what the first thing Rin-chan told me ^^;;.....

"Did you know that Sebastian finger f*beeeped* a woman?!"

The Sebastian spoken of in this is the one from Black Butler (phantomhive?).
Sigh -__________- I was so disturbed!!! I mean I am perverted, but like WTF?!?! What kind of damn conversation starter is that?!? Gosh, only my friends :V I swear they'll kill my ears like this one day.
I remember yesterday Rin-chan and Luka-chan kept going on and on about how Sebastian raped a nun or something. My friends are too obsessed with sex or something :V. It's kinda of gross. But I for some reason love 'em anyways xD.
I was like "OH MY GOD!! WTF WOMAN?!?!" I had accidently shouted it ^ ^;; and attracted unnecessary attention. It was slightly embarrassing (but not that much). My mind was on projects, tests, and what I'd be doing at work later. Thus, when I randomly heard her say that to me I was just so surprised. My brain wasn't ready for that xDD.

 I forgot how the next topic started but, I started looking through my hand in the position like the picture on the left. Then, Rin-chan was like "LOL You're looking through an ass hole!" and I was like "WTF?" As you can see, Rin-chan says the weirdest things xDD. It's kind of childish, but the "okay hand sign" can mean asshole. The three fingers are "a. s. s." and the circle you make with your thumb and index finger would be the hole. Sigh~ and then we had a whole rant about how its not possible for you to look through an ass hole. Than we talked about how Garra from Naruto is able to because he has like the ability to remove his eyeball or something like that. ^^;; our conversation was so disturbing.

Also! What was annoying during my lunch period was about how stupid Nyu-san was being xD. I swear that woman is always a step behind! I remember joking about how she was my husband (has to do w/ meh whole harem thing xD). Then later we started talking about seeing through the ass hole thing. However, even though we moved topics, Nyu-san was like "Wait!" *pause* "I am not your husband!"
*facepalm* it was so stupid xDDD.

When my friends and I went to go line up for our lunch, we saw some guy flexing his muscle. It was so gross xDDD. There was like three huge ass lumps on his arm!! and his friend started poking it. Everything was just so damn awkward xDD.

hmmm...well~ since it's like late, my mind is totally drawing a blank about what other stuff we were talking about :P. So sorry xP sucks for you~
Oh! And my friends are mean >~

Anyways, after school job was annoying again :P. Stupid 6th grader that I had to go pick up was late. I ended up standing out in the cold for half an hour. Then when she came out, she said she forgot a load of stuff, and I ended up waiting another half hour. We were late to the official place by half an hour. xPP.
While waiting for the sixth grader though, I was talking to X-chan :D. We were laughing so much xD. I really have no idea what we were talking about though. lolol. It's funny how I can laugh life crazy until my stomach hurts, but have no clue about what's so funny :P

Anyways, the stupid sixth grader that was late totally snapped today! Supposedly she got mad at the other kids because they were making noise. She was yelling, and screaming; basically just causing a bunch of annoying ruckus. That darn girl actually threatened to smack them too. You can't do that to children! And she even tried threatening me! I was like "Girl, let's get one thing straight. I am older than you. Meaning, I'm in charge." and she was like "My mom is older than you! I'll just tell her how mean you are to me." gosh the nerve of that girl. "You're mom isn't here right now, is she? So I don't care. Right now, you cannot act like this. It is improper!" she has no respect whatsoever
Boss-lady talked to her mom. I am realllyyy pissed off at that sixth grader, but I have to deal with her. Which totally sucks >______<.

LOL but I got paid today :D :D. put it in my bank though xD. Haha, a lot of people think I'm crazy for saving it and not spending it. I think I am too, but I try to convince myself that it's better to save than spend xD.
hmm~ but I swear I don't get paid enough to deal with those annoying kids :V.

And after work, I came home. ate dinner. and so on~. I'm supposed to be working on my projects right now xD. But I really dont feel like it. They're due on Monday. Maybe, I'll do a bit before I sleep tonight. I don't know :P

ps. I think my blog posts are getting a bit perverted since I keep having retarded moments with my friends involving pervy things. LOL I'll try and include less inappropriate things xDD don't want to scar your minds.

I Think I Did Good!

I FINISHED!!

Yea I finally took that damn exam I was (somewhat) studying my bum off for!

I finished~~ hahaha yay~~!!

Now I am free from my darn dad's complaining. I can do whatever I want without worrying about time.

I am happy.

I did much better than I thought I would on the test!! :D :D So I am pretty happy.

Plus I just had red bull earlier, so I'm kinda hyper at the moment xD

Wa hahahaa~~

The real test was much easier than the practice tests I took!! So I think I did well. :D I hope I did well. I'm pretty sure I did well xD.

I can't believe I had to wait outside for a whole 2 hours before the test! It was so damn cold too!! Plus there was rain!! My friend didn't dress warm enough, so I lent her one of my jackets (I was wearing like three xD). Even though I was wearing two jackets it was still cold! I was jumping up and down, spinning in circles, and clinging onto my friends in order to stay warm. I must have looked like a total idiot xD lol. Those two hours were fun though I guess. I got to talk with my friends for awhile and just laugh. It helped reduce the stress a bit. I don't remember what the hell we were talking about for two hours though xD.

When we finally got inside though, we were separated T^T. But we all had to climb to the fifth floor. I was totally fine, but once I reached the fourth floor my legs suddenly felt tired. The last step to get up to the fifth was so difficult! I don't know why, but my leg just wouldn't lift itself up xD.

Luckily, one of my friends from school was in the same room as me :D. I'll call him Davy xD like davy jones from spongebob (haha idk why i picked this name though xD). Davy sat in front of me during the test.

My proctor was incredibly stupid and mediocre though!!

She forgot to put her name, date, and room number on the chalk board. And there was this guy who had to film the faces of everyone in the room for some reason. So when he noticed the name was missing, he stopped and was like "Put your name on the board." The lady did. He filmed the room, and then said "Oh wait you have to put the date on the board." Filmed again, "Oh wait you have to put the room number on the board." I wasted like 6 minutes of my life watching him film the stupid faces of the people in the room like 7 times!

Also, it was so unfair!! The proctor was mean to me >~<.
It was like she had something against my pencil case!
She pointed to it and was like "What is that?!?"
I was like "...a pencil case..." I can't believe she had to ask what it was ^ ^;;.
"Well keep it open! Don't close it!"
"W-why...? o.O"
"Because I don't know if you can have that. And you might cheat!"

The only thing that pisses me off about her making such a comment is that there were like five other people with pencil cases out on their desks next to me, and I was the only one receiving crap about it!

The proctor lady screwed up so many times in the instructions too! So we ended up starting late, and it was all so retarded.

Sigh~ just my luck to be the one stuck with the mediocre proctor. All my friends got nice ones xD.

My proctor thought that me and Davy were siblings ^ ^;;. That was weird. xD Haha if Davy was my brother I don't think I'd mind. He's really funny. Luka-chan and I kept pestering him with questions, and he got so frustrated that he just randomly shouted "I'M A VIRGIN!" and we all started cracking up xD. It was just so random and funny.

Davy went to the bathroom so many times during the test though! He was so nervous during the test that he kept getting up to go to the bathroom, and drink water. Supposedly doing that made him feel better.

When I came out of the building, it was snowing! I love snow. It's so pretty~~ <33
Except I hate how it makes everything so cold! xD

Haha okay, well before this gets too long, I'm going to stop talking xD

but yea~ I hope I get a good score on the test >w< *crosses fingers*