The Little Boy who Likes Pink

My little brother is like obsessed with pink starburst! We have a whole bag full of starbursts, and he always digs his tiny hands into it chanting, "PINK! PINK! PINK!" but since he's only two he says pink with a hard "k" ending. It's quite cute ^ ^. I find it really funny that he likes pink. It's like the only color that he can really remember. The other colors like blue, red, yellow, etc. take him awhile to recognize. He also pronounces pink better than all the other colors. He pronounces yellow as wello
My brother is hilarious. I asked him to get me a red starburst to see if he knew his colors...and because I like the red ones xD. He comes to me with a pink one, trying to convince me that it's better. I was like "Nooo, that's pink. I want red." in my baby tone. He then shoves the pink starburst in my hands and says "Noooo, pink." I was forced to take it.

~ only tough boys like pink ...or so I've heard xD

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I'm SO happy and I thought you should know

WARNING! This entry may be very very long, and it's about my very fail, very futile love life (but i unexpectedly had a successful day, so it might not be so fail after all.) If you are not interested in my successful time in my love life then try reading it anyways, or just read some of my other entries xD.

That smiley up there, is an example of an understatement as to how big I was smiling today after certain events. Btw :) I have succeeded! Okay, for those of you who have read my last entry, you should know what the heck I'm talking about. But for those of you who didn't (you should start following me so I don't have to explain xD), my last entry was about how I don't like how things between me and my futile crush is going. So I was really pumped and was totally ready to start progressing things between us :). I saw him at my after school activities (musical theater). Today in mt (musical theater) we just talked about a trip we're taking. It's some big trip that's a way to celebrate our successful show of Annie Jr. My crush is going on the trip so I'm totally going to push my dad to let me go. The thing is that it's until 7:00 p.m. >.> I've never been out for that long with out my dad. I wonder how it will go. Anyways, my crush needed to go pick up his little sister at the bus stop that's like 2 blocks away from my school. It was funny because he was like "Um...Mr. W I need to go real quick to pick up my sister." And I was like "can I go with you?!" He laughed and was like "..sure...?" and started running. So I followed him ^ ^. He was like "You were serious?!" xD After we got out of the school building he was like "Can you run." ...can't everybody who can walk know how to run? xD Anyways I was like "yea..." and he was like "Can we run?" I, of course, wanted to be on his good side and was like "Ok." so we started running. He runs FAST!!! I couldn't keep up xD. We were waiting at the bus stop, and I wanted to start a conversation going. (remember! I'm trying to progress this stand still friendship) So I ask my most common and unique question that I ask every guy I like "What's your favorite part of the sky?" xD It's a weird question I know. But it can tell you a lot about a person if you think about it. He was like "Huh?" "You know the clouds, the stars, the blueness of it all." "The stars." I like the clouds ^ ^;; and so have all my past crushes, so this was new. I was like "why?" "Because they seem so close, but they're so far away." "So are the clouds. They look close but are far away." "But stars are farther away. Space is just so cool!" See, that question can starts a real nice conversation ^ ^. (Use the question with your crush if you want, tell me if it worked for you!) "Is that why you want to be an astrophysicist?" I asked. "o.o how did you know...?!" Yea, it must seem odd for a person to know something you never told them.lol "Because I went to the arista ceremony." (the arista ceremony was this thing where the people in it said what they wanted to be when they grew up.) He was like "oh yea." Then I stated, "Astrophysics, the branch of astronomy that has to do with the physics of the universe-" and he cut me off there "You actually looked it up!?!" xD...I guess that does seem scary, especially since I memorized the basic definition. I had to think up of an excuse as to why I looked it up xD so my thoughts were: "damn it! think! think think! You can't say it's because you like him and want to be knowledgeable about what he likes!" So I told him, "...Um ..well at the arista ceremony, I heard things like veterinary, doctor, and lawyer. I've never heard of the term astrophysicist before." "Yea, I wanted to be unique. *smiles*" I was totally shouting "Yes! He bought it!" in my head. However, him wanting to be an astrophysicist is only my motivation to searching it up. I was telling the truth about it being different from what the others said. Anyways, as we're waiting at this bus stop, his MOM comes! It's kind of a big thing meeting the parent of the person you like. She gave me a "omg who's that girl with my son" look xD.  K. was like "um..yea.. this is my mom :)" I was like "Hi! :) *acting as friendly as possible*" So then K. was all like "Mooom, can I please go back to musical theater?!" guess he didn't need to pick up his sister since his mom was there. The weird part was that he was leaning on his mom's shoulder, and was not really begging, but..hm.. what do you call it? Well it was cute. He was using like this baby voice ^ ^. It was something I've never seem him do before. Anyways, afterwards we head back to mt, and we see people walking home. It was a group of guys from mt and they were laughing so weirdly O.o. When we got to the auditorium (where mt is held), no one was there. When it's empty you can make echoing sounds. So I lamely shouted "Echo!" xD I'm such a child. We start heading to a nearby elementary park because we could xD And we thought our other friends would be there. On our way, I used my super vision and saw that our friends were ahead of us. What makes my vision so "super" is that they were really really far away. Anyways, we run like hell to catch up with them. My friend, P. (internet safety reasons is preventing me from using my friend's full name), was like "moments." when she saw me. She's basically saying "aww~ you got to spend time with him." Anyways, we walk to the park, do fun stuff, hand out. xD that's the condensed version. We played manhunt. When it was time to hide, I was totally following with him and hiding with him! He noticed too >.> and I couldn't come up with something normal to him that would make him less suspicious. It was 4:00 and I had to leave, but I asked for a time extension ^ ^. I got another hour. K. had to go too, but I was like "Why don't you get a time extension like me?" I wanted to spend as much time with him as possible!! But he didn't bring his phone, so I let him use mine ^ ^. I joked about me having his phone number in my call history xD. Which freaked him out a bit, but it's okay. Did I tell you that K. knows I'm creepy/perverted? Well he knows, but he's unusually okay with it. Probably because I'm creepy/perverted but not to a really super serious nutso extent xD more of a joker kind. Anyways, he used my phone and got to stay until 5 as well ^ ^! Afterwards me and him rejoined our friends and played telephone. It was fun whispering in his ear, and him whispering in mine ^ ^. Ew.. that might sound weird xD but hey I can't say that I didn't enjoy. When it reached 5 o' clock we started walking home together!! K. lives in an apartment building right next to the school! So we walk in the same direction because I live 5 blocks away from the school. Anyways, it was a nice walk~ I asked him questions. I was like "Do you think I'm weird?" "No." This surprised me. I thought he was lying. "Really? Then maybe a creep?" "No not really." I laughed " A pervert?" I totally thought he would say yes. But he said "No, you're actually pretty normal. Just...unique." Gee that's a laugh. What a nice way to say mentally insane. Then he adds "I've definitely never met a girl like you." "Is that good or bad?" xD of course I'd get suspicious if someone said that. "Good." ^ ^ now I was happy. Then we pass by my school, and there were a lot of people there hanging out. "Wow there's a lot of people here." I said. "I won't see many people I know, only the small few that's going to my school." (he's going to a different school next year. I won't tell you if it's college or high school because again of the internet safety rules. No way am I going to let people know how old I am. I'm a year younger then him though, so I won't be able to see him after this year is over TT-TT!! But then again I know where he lives *creepy smile*) What he said was totally off topic, and not what I was talking about xD but I went along with it anyways. "Yea...but hey maybe I'll get into *beeep (sorry I'm censoring the school's name. > < too many hints are no good.)* :) ....if I'm smart enough >.>.. (he's going to one of those "smart" people schools. you know the ones that are really hard to get into. the one he's going to is the second best, which is pretty impressive. Haha ^ ^ I like a nerd...I'm one too but whatever xD)" "No. You're really smart." Just that made me happy :) but he kept going. "You're even smarter then me." Really happy now :) but a little confused. How was I smarter than someone who's older than me? He probably meant smarter then him when he was in my grade. Anyways he kept going ^ ^, "I think by the time you reach my grade (that's when you take the test) you'll know enough to be able to get into *beeep*." (basically the beep was the name of the school ranked first.) I was thinking, "wow! he really thinks that? I feel so happy that he thinks so highly of me ^ ^!" Sadly, he eventually reached his apartment building, and it was time to say farewell. He was heading towards the door when he said "See you later." I waved and said "Bye." In a very fail squeaky/sad baby voice. Then he stopped and said "Don't say bye!" I was like "huh?..." "Bye is a very bad word. It feels like you're leaving." ( I think he meant the leave forever type leave. because leaving as in just leaving the place you're at wouldn't make sense in what he said.) *cries tears of joy* Is he saying he doesn't want me to leave?! Or does he not like the idea of me leaving!?! ...Okay so maybe it's just his matter of opinion on the word and I'm looking to deep in what he was saying, but hey I like to look at the glass half full ;) ~
On my way home, I was smiling like a total idiot from ear to ear. I got weird looks from people, so I tried to make a less toothy smile. But I couldn't! My mouth kept opening so my teeth were showing. I went totally crazy! Giggling like a loopy girl. I was just really happy :) my day was so successful. Maybe, my futile crush isn't so futile after all...       (How much you want to bet that I'll see him at school on Monday, and complain about how it's futile again? xD) .....DAMN!!!! THIS IS LOOOONG!!!! O.O sry about that ^ ^;;

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Sleepy =.=

Today I was so sleepy during class > <
Good thing we were watching a movie or else I would've been in sooo much trouble! TT^TT I go to sleep early, but how come I can never stay awake?!  Sigh~ I haven't really been in the "learning" mood lately. All the chaos and drama in school has been getting to my head lately. I just feel so out of it. Plus, it seems to be getting harder and harder to talk to my friends lately. My futile crush hasn't been working out lately either... I don't get to see him that often anymore, so I'm really sad about that. TT^TT My tutoring classes have ended too, so I only get to see him on Tuesdays and Fridays! ...Sigh~ it's like Tamaki's problem with Haruhi. He only got to spend club time with the person he liked too. (I'm talking about something from ouran high school host club anime). Except I can't barge into his class and take him away like Tamaki would for Haruhi xD. I don't think my status with my crush will change anyways, so I guess there's no point in trying anymore...but I will not give up! It's not progressing because I'm just not trying hard enough! Yeah! I can't wait for Friday tomorrow! Hee hee hee ^ ^ I'm going to try my best :D So wish me luck. Gotta go to bed now so tomorrow can come faster.

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Book 2 of the ELA

TT^TT *sob sob sob* I ...I think I failed!!!! *sobs some more* TT^TT It's all because of the stupid essay!!! I hate writing essays >.> And when we were sharing about what we wrote in class, everyone was saying all these things that made SENSE. But I wrote a bunch of stupid baloney because I didn't know what to write > < !!! We had to compare and contrast two stories. I didn't know any of the differences so I just wrote baloney! And for the similarities! Oh, don't even get me started. I wrote stuff that was correct, but I wrote it in such a plain fashion, it'll definitely not get me a 4. Everyone used big words, but I was in such a rush, I couldn't think of anything!!! DAMN IT!!! DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!! ...*exhales...inhales...exhales* okay. I'm fine now. Sorry ^ ^;; kind of went crazy there. I just can't yell, so I felt the need to capitalize the letters. I'm just so damn stupid, it's sad. Why am I even in the stupid advanced class?!?! Sigh~ if I go to summer school, I wouldn't be surprised >.> ...and my dad joked around saying he'll just let me repeat a grade :( that's not funny! Anyways, I hope I don't fail... My friend actually started crying after the test just because she didn't finish the conclusion on the test and one short answer question. But she's an EPIC writer, and my English teacher even said she'll still get an EPIC grade even though she didn't finish. ...>.> which makes me really jealous. So after I realize how badly I failed on the ELA, I stopped listening to what the other's wrote on their test. I just felt worse and worse about my writing with every response TT^TT. I started reading a really good book (Demonglass) to help myself ignore the people and keep myself from feeling bad. My teacher then started complaining about how she couldn't understand how we could talk while others were talking and not pay attention. And the way she put it she seemed to be talking about just the people who weren't paying attention. So I was like, "> < I really don't want to pay attention because I'm going to fail anyways, and I don't need people to keep reminding me!" But of course my teacher wouldn't understand that...and I would never tell her that >.>... Plus my teacher would be all like "Why would you think you failed!? Tell me!" and I would be like ">//////< uh...um...well..you see..I" and it just wouldn't go too well. Sigh~ this sucks. I hate this feeling of failure!!! And I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I FAILED OR NOT!!!! Damn...this really sucks.


Do you ever get bad thoughts after you finish a test? Especially an important test?

Disappointment

I had that big ELA test today. :) I think I did pretty good on it. I still have to do book 2 tomorrow though >.< which really sucks. Anyways, since today was so tiring and boring, I was totally pumped to go to after school activities. I was going to get to see my crush!! :D I haven't talked to him since...yesterday. But that wasn't enough!!! So when he didn't come I was ....so sad TT^TT I felt like dying! Let me start from the beginning. It came to the end of the school day, and before after school activities I have about 50 minutes. Anyways, I asked J., one of his friends, where the heck was he. And he said "Oh, he left early." TT^TT I SPENT A FRIGGIN' HOUR CIRCLING MY STUPID SCHOOL FOR MY CRUSH AND HE WASN'T THERE!!!! I'm a total idiot > < !! So I felt pretty out of it for the rest of the day. I had no more motivation to go to after school anymore. D: I was very depressed. J. knows that someone in my class likes my crush because my friend and I told him. It's a long story. We made a whole bunch of jokes about different dares he had to do. Which includes eating a leaf or hitting on an elderly person. xD Anyways, he didn't do any of the dares but we kind of annoyed him, so my friend (who likes him) felt bad and told him someone liked my crush (me) but she didn't tell him who. So today when my crush wasn't here, J. was like "Aw. I know you're sad that K.(the first letter of my crush's name) isn't here P.(my friend's 1st letter) *evil smile*." The funny part is, P. and I totally guessed that J. was going to think that P. liked K. because they're both Indians. And then after J. said that me and P. started cracking up and we were like "Ha! We so totally knew you were going to say that! Ha ha" and we lamely high fived each other xD. Then as a comeback he was like "Well, um, that was only my stereotypical guess." P. likes J. and I like K. so it's very weird xD. Anyways, my entertainment from J.'s fail stereotypical comment died a soon death, so I remembered that K. was gone TT^TT. So I started "crying" and complaining that I was going to die. So J. did his weird yet really cute (yes I think he's cute, but I'm not attracted to him. Plus I would never steal my friend's guy ^ ^) evil smile, and he was like "Oh, so you like K." and I was like "owo..*remembers that it has to be kept a secret and does sudden expression change in split second*...-.- how'd you come up with that? I was talking about how I was going to die because of the ELA test." But what I was really thinking was "Few~ nice save..." But he didn't buy it because later on in the day he was like "You like K.~" -.-;; ....damn, so he's smarter than I thought. I mean yeah, he's in the advanced eighth grade class, but he's still kind of dense >.>
Anyways, I hope I get a good grade on the ELA.
But I really hope K. goes to after school tutoring tomorrow. He didn't come today because of the stupid ELA test tomorrow, so he went home early to study. TT^TT see tests only bring bad things. But tomorrow is after school tutoring, so he has to come! Plus we had to pay for it. So he's probably going to come tomorrow! ^ ^ That thought makes me happy. Today's after school was musical theater. Yes, I'm in musical theater even though I suck at singing! I like to act though. Acting is fun. But I don't really see it as a career choice for me. It's just something I like to do. I want to become a robotic engineer ^ ^ ....so me and K. both want to become scientist. Hm..we'd make a rich couple. lol xD
Ah ha~ can't wait until tomorrow! (:

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So Much Work

Waaaahhh!!! TT~TT *sob sob*
I think I failed my math test! It was on quadratic equations and I wasn't able to answer the last question and it's worth 15 points. > < I got stuck and didn't know what to do. My friend was studying with me the day before and after the test she was like "See I told you we should have studied it more." And I was like "We didn't study this! You were telling me about some other super hard thing!" > < It was so frustrating. Anyways, the highest score I can get without those 15 points is 85! A friggin' 85!! That's less than 90! Barely a passing grade!! Damn. Why didn't I borrow that math book with all the practice questions?!?!  > < I got too cocky. I'm really depressed no...>.> sigh~ I wonder what my dad will say. He'll probably give me a really disappointed look and long lesson on how to do quadratic equations. TT^TT why can't I understand stupid quadratics?!
Anyways, tomorrow I have the stupid ELA test. I have to do the ELA test the day after tomorrow too. Book 1 and book 2 are done on separate days. I wonder why. Can't we just get it done and over with in one day? And after that I have another math test on Thursday. Ugh! So much studying. I think I should do some practice stuff for the ELA tomorrow. Maybe after this blog. No, wait I got stupid homework too!!! -.- damn.
And then there's also my science project being due on Monday the 9. I have the state math test on Tuesday and Wednesday as well. I hate testing >.> mostly because you have to study. I'd rather be watching anime or reading manga! I'd actually exercise instead of do a test. And that's saying something because I dislike exercising very very very much.  Oh well, it's just apart of life and so I got to deal with it -__- unfortunately.
Plus on top of all the studying I have to do for school, I also have to study up on stuff for my crush.
The guy I like wants to be an astrophysicist, and I have no idea what that is. My dad said something to me about it, but I'm not sure if he's correct. So I have to go study about that later. I did a little research this morning, according to Wikipedia, astrophysics is the branch of astronomy that has to do with the physics of the universe. Wait that's just based on memory. Let me check if I'm correct. Yup, that's what it says in Wikipedia. Ugh! That's what's so frustrating about me. I have such great memory about the guy I like, but I suck when it comes to normal things. > < I'm weird like that. Also the guy I like is Hindu, so I need to study the Hindu religion as well. I know that I'm Asian and he's Indian, but I think he's awesome. So for those of you who are against it, go talk to someone who cares about your racist opinions :P. Anyways, I don't know how my dad would accept it if anything were to happen in the future between me and my crush (probably not, but still). I think he'd except. Because the other day when we were leaving from the park, we saw two people getting married. The girl was Asian and the guy was Indian. (wow so ironic). Anyways, my aunt (who sadly left today) said "Oh my god, she's marrying an Indian guy." And I suddenly got offensive (which hard to do. Im not really easily offended) and went into defense mode, "What's wrong with marrying an Indian guy?" My aunt was like "Parents aren't usually okay with it." was her answer. Then I turned to my dad and was like "Would you care if the guy I married was not Chinese?" and he looked at me through the review mirror, "As long as he treats you right." Was what he said. That was an unexpected answer. Anyways, I'm happy because then I'd get approval because my crush is a really kind person ^ ^.
Lately, I've been kind of worried about my crush though because he has really big bags underneath his eyes. So I was worried about whether or not he's been sleeping well. :( I get have him ruining his health. Then after school today, I saw him ^ ^ we started walking home together. I started telling him about how I didn't think I did too well on the quadratics test, and somehow that led to the ELA. He was like "You know how I study for the ELA?" and was like "How?" And he pulled out some kind of bottle and was like "With drugs." Obviously it was a joke so I started laughing. ( I thought it was some kind of candy bottle.) But then he was like "No seriously." And he pulled out the bottle again so I could have a better look. (I was so worried. I was like DRUGS? O.O) It was just one of those 5 hour energy things. I let out the breath I didn't know I was holding and relaxed. "Oh." I said. Everything made sense after that. He's probably been taking that so he can study late and still have enough energy for school. ^ ^ that would explain his sleepy expression. I just hope he stops after all the testing. It's still not very good for him > < !

He's a big boy, I guess he can take care of himself. But I still worry! Sigh~ I guess I just have to trust that he's smart enough to know what's good for him or not. I know he smart though ^ ^ because he's going to a good school next year, and his grades are good. Plus he's in the advance class.

Sigh~ now I got to go do homework and study. No time for blogging right now TT^TT

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Yesterday with My Aunt

Yesterday was pretty fun :D
My aunt demanded that we go to the mall and some place with some kind of ice dessert. Italian Ice, I think that's what she called it. Before we went to the mall, we went to my house and rested for awhile. I was eating a snack and sat down when my aunt said "Oh my god! You got a big hole in your butt." And I was like "....what? o.o" She pointed to my butt and was like "In your jeans, there's a hole!" and I looked down at my jeans. There was a GIANT friggin' hole in my jeans! It went like half way around my leg. My dad and sister started cracking up. My aunt was like "Didn't you feel like some kind of breeze or anything?" "I felt nothing! How the hell did I get a friggin' hole in my jeans!?!" It was so stupid xD. Before this little incident I went to go eat at a dim sum restaurant (I said so in my last entry). I wonder if I got my hole there. If I did, that would have been embarrassing. Now that I think about it, I did get a few funny looks from some of the elderly Chinese woman there >.> This one lady at the table next to me was staring at me as I sat down with a funny smile. I was like "what's her problem?" xD but I think I know now. Lolz I didn't really like those jeans anyways. My dad is keeping them so we can hang it on the wall and make some kind of wall pockets or something xD. Anyways, me only having 2 pairs of jeans left made going to the mall an even better idea. When we went to a store (Gap I think) my dad and I went to the jeans section, while my aunt went to go get clothes for her children. I suck when it comes to buying clothes because my dad always did it for me, but my dad knows nothing about girl's clothing sizes. So when we went to the jean section and saw stuff like 24/0a and 26/2L. And me and my dad was like "WTF!?! O.o what do these numbers mean and why the hell are there letters?!" We had no idea what the heck the sizes stood for. It was like you had to be some kind of high level spy that's good with codes or something! So we called my aunt over to help us because she's a girl who has been buying her own clothes for quite sometime now. She comes over and looks at us as if we're stupid xD. She goes on saying something about how L = long and r = regular. When she was talking about what the numbers mean, I had no idea what the heck she was mumbling about. I think the 24 in 24/0r or the 26 in 26/2L represents the waist and the 2 or 0 represents the length. I'm not sure though! Sigh~ why is everything so complicated. And the most annoying part is that, yea they make stupid codes for clothing sizes but that there's also (yea there's more to the annoyingness of it all) different styles. There's like sexy boot or perfect boot or long and lean. And they all fit differently. I remember we got different styles in the same size but some were too long or some were too loose. My aunt made me model the stuff for her, and she was so loud in the fitting room. Everyone was looking at her funny, which caused them to look at me. > < it was so embarrassing. In the end I bought two pairs of jeans after trying on about 7 different styles and sizes. We spent like 2 hours in that store. After that I was so tired. Yes, I know I'm a girl, and should be used to shopping for hours. But I rarely go shopping. I just buy everything online. It's so much easier ^ ^;;.  We spent like another 3 hours there. That's 5 hours of shopping I could have spent on watching anime TT^TT. Afterwards we went to that Italian ice place. It was pretty good. I got strawberry banana flavor. My dad got pina colada (i think that's how you spell it). My aunt started complaining to my dad (she's the younger sister and was the baby in the family. so she speaks her mind a lot) about how he should have gotten a more "unique" flavor like cantaloupe because most places doesn't normally have those kinds of flavors or something. But my dad was like "I'll eat what I want to eat :P" xD my dad is funny. My aunt was like "Hmph >3< well you're stupid." Lolz I watched these two fight all day like how two siblings usually do. On our way to the mall they spent the whole time arguing about who's car was better. My aunt was like "Town and Country isn't as good as Toyota. I have a Toyota." Blah blah blah.. And my dad was like "You're so Chinese. Chinese people get Toyota." xD I was like "huh?" what does race have anything to do with what car you like? Maybe he ran out of comebacks. But I don't get what that's suppose to do because we are Chinese xD. My dad likes to be different so maybe he was trying to say "You're like everybody else." I don't know. But it was funny watching them bicker. It was over stupid stuff. My dad was like saying stuff like "Town and Country isn't as expensive as Toyota and you get better stuff." And my aunt was like "No" and so on. xD It was hilarious. Now I know how my dad feels whenever me and my sister fights over stupid stuff. We didn't get hope until 11:30 pm yesterday. Which is really late for us. We usually come home by like 7 xD. My family doesn't get out to often. We're all otakus. xD even my dad. He'd rather stay home and watch the new Naruto episode then go out and find a girlfriend. Lolz. Anyways, yesterday was fun and I liked it :D