HNY 2013 !!

Found this picture, and thought the characters sorta looked like Setsuna and Graham. //shot.

Yayy~!! It's the beginning of another year! \(^o^)/.

 .....well, I suppose for New Year, I should say something like super inspiring and motivational... but to be honest, I really quite suck at doing that. ^ ^;;.

All I can say is.. try to be better than last year! Work to improve yourself :). In my opinion, you don't really need resolutions and plans and whatnot (especially if you're not going to follow through w/ them). As long as you're not going backwards, everything will be fine =w=b.

However, I still have a resolutions/goals that I would like to keep in mind as I'm trying to not go backwards :'D. This year, I hope to learn how to play Bink's Sake on the violin (and possibly piano) over the summer //One Piece FTW~!! And I wanna have an ah-maz-ingg~~ body/figure/look by attempting at exercising/eating right.
Also, mastering the art of walking in heels would be nice too //shot.

LOL. I gave up trying to learn an instrument because I really have no patience for that XD;;. So knowing at least one song on an instrument is sufficient enough =w=b. Plus, it'd be fun to play that song on the subway, and get extra cash >D. lol. Not like I have anything better to do on the subway xD. one-two hour commute ;A;.

Harr, well, that's all I have to share at the moment. Hope you all have a great new year. Let's all go forward and achieve greatness! >w<.

The Lucky Ducky I Am!

A couple of my friends from middle school and I got together today to hang out for the holiday break. The beautiful thing is that everyone seems to haven't change in the slightest. Well, X-chan seems to have gotten a little bit "too cool for us". Haha, but all is well xD. We traded gifts, ate froyo, and had a tone of fun. What I found to be quite fun though was that I was like a whole two inches taller than everyone :'D. LOL. Sadly not because I miraculously grew over night, but because I wore the new boots my daddy got me for Christmas >w< !! Kyaaa~ I love them. They're ah-maz-ing~!  I mean the heel is like a whole friggin' 3 inches high (and I have declared them to be little devils T~T), but I still love 'em!

http://www.6pm.com/michael-antonio-malone-taupe?zfcTest=mat%3A1

I wore them out today, and was having a ton of fun. How I felt on the way home though was a whole other story though! My toes felt the slow torture. Gradually, my walking pace became slower to make up for the pain and I was totally being left behind. //boohu. When I finally got the chance to stop, I switched out my boots for a pair of nice comfortable sneakers that I kept in my bag (in case of emergency foot pain and whatnot xP). I placed my boots into a red plastic bag, and tied it to the side of my bag. Being the "smart" one I am, I double knotted it, so it doesn't fall. However, when I got back home....... my boots were missing >___>. FUU** !! Of course, being the crazy bastard that I am, I decided that I wasn't going to just say "Oh fucking well. That's too bad." No. Like hell I would say that xP. Instead, I forced my dad to get into his car and help me find my boots even though it was raining/snowing/hailing. Not to mention it was dark and we were both in our pajamas. My dad is nice though. He was like "I doubt you'll find it! It's not very likely" also insert some phrases of "You're so stupid!" and "I taught you better!" Haha, but that's not what makes him nice... xD;;. LOL. It's that despite thinking I'm a complete idiot, he tossed on his coat and gave me the chance to find it. Of course, throughout the entire time, he was whining like a baby and complaining about how he'd rather buy another pair than go through with the work of finding it XDD. We drove around. My face glued to the window, trying to look for any sign of my boots. All I could think of was "look for the red plastic bag. red plastic bag." I tried to convince my dad (and myself) that although it was dark, the redness of the bag and the small help of the street lights will be enough to spot it. We couldn't find it though! I was so frustrated. All my dad could do was say "It's okay. The price dropped more, so now it's only $15!" (lol, oh dad xD). And as I was about to give up hope, at the very last moment, in my perifpheral vision, I saw it. A small lump of red on the edge of the sidewalk. I shouted in excitement as a glimmer of hope sprung within me as I hopped out of my car (after it stopped ofc) and dashed toward it. I bent down to pick it up, lifted the flaps of the bag, and in the dim light of the night, .... it ended up being full of garbage.



LOL Just kidding! Inside were my boots!! TTwTT. You wouldn't believe how happy I was!! My boots are now in my possession once again. Soaked, but still beautiful ;w;. Haha, my dad couldn't believe that I acutually found it. He wouldn't stop laughing xD.

Life is like a Bowl of Ice Cream

 

Life is like a bowl of ice cream. I'm the bowl. My experiences the ice cream (preferably vanilla ♥). And all the beautiful friends I have would be the toppings on top that make it all the better (like sprinkles and caramel syrup >w<).

And so, as you can see, today's post will be about my friends (again).

I'm going to start off with my two junior friends. Eui-chan and Natty-kun.
Now, Natty imo is really quite cute, and a super nice-guy kinda person. I love talking to him, and seeing him in general. Compared to my other guy friends, he's quite a refreshing sight to see... because all of my guy friends are arrogant and love to fight with me (is it my fault that I'm skilled in the art of insulting? xD). I'm quite sick of them at times xP. But I don't like Natty. Too quiet for me, and we don't have much in common :P.
I think my friend Eui thinks I like him though, which is really quite bothersome D; She's the kinda friend who likes to play cupid. Her and Natty are good friends, and I feel like she's trying to convince him into dating me or something. I really appreciate her effort. But she's shooting bows at people who just don't match. xP. And she's convinced my friend, BB, that I like him too. I know this because BB keeps making fun D;
For now though, I'ma just pretrend like I'm oblivious to all of this. LOL. Hopefully, they'll drop it soon xD.

But even with all this drama, I still haven't forgotten my friends from middle school :'D.
For the winter break, I've set up a gathering. I can't wait for it. Super superr excited!! >w<. I went to go shopping for presents yesterday, and I'm glad I still know them so well. I can go "spot shopping" which is something Choco-chan came up with. It's where you can go shopping without an aim, look at something, and just know what's perfect Cx. I also love how a lot of stores around me have free gift wrapping. Makes my life so much easier :'D //can't wrap for life. With school and everything, I haven't been able to go out in FOREVER. I forgot how tiring shopping can be, but I miss it so much >w< //girly ftw.

BB showed me to this little mall nearby, and it has this cute little shop that I've fallen in love with!! They had G-gundam models!! ;w; I almost went beserk. If they accepted credit card, I would've probably lost control and bought it (even though the one I wanted costs $100). Grr- why do models have to be so damn expensive TT^TT //sob. It was like a Morning Glory combined with Anime Castle. It was amazing~ ;w;.

Anyways, speaking of Gundam, I found a friend who also thinks Setsuna is friggin' sexy >w< !! And one who also shares my love for Kat-Tun!! And one who likes to give out candy like mehh!! And another who enjoys watching CommunityChannel as much as I do !!

So the ice cream is beautiful with all its glorious toppings ;w;.

The Gems

The sound of morning music awakes me from peaceful slumber. Great determination removes me from the soft covers of dreams. With the help of an energy boaster (coffee xD), I prepare myself to go to school. On the way there, what a journey it is! The people I see. The troubles I face. Surprises meet me around every corner. And a surprise I also am for the other travelers like me. At school I am, ten minutes 'till the bell. Up the mountainous stairs (uhg!). But what awaits me are gems with smiles so great :'). Ding. Ding. Ding. Classes begin, and another tired day I suffer through. I can't wait to go home. But those moments with my gems makes me want to start the cycle again. ♥

All that's major in my life right now is high school, so that's what I'll talk about. lol. Everyday, I feel myself growing, becoming mature, and experiencing life. It's kinda freaky, but I enjoy it though. The ride on the subway every morning and afternoon. My teachers and classes. The activities and opportunities. I especially like the environment. Everyone there is amazing (well, for the most part :P).
I always get a good feeling whenever I climb those three flights of killer stairs knowing that I'll see my friends waiting for me near my classroom. And when I do arrive, all five/six of them smile at my appearance at the same time and greet me. I feel so special ;w;. lol it's really a sight to see a bunch of people smile at once xD.
I feel like I can relate to the people in Bronx Science really easily. A quarter of them are anime fans. Another quarter are geeks (either whovians or potterheads or both). And the third are both anime fans and geeks!  the last quarter are the borning bunch who just study xD. I'm friends with one of that last quarter, but she's cool, so she's excused :P.
My teachers are great... although I sleep in like half my classes >___>. And it upsets my friend that I never get caught. LOL. But don't worry folks! My grades are beautiful ^__^. ... except in biology. //sob. I suck in that class. I want to blame my teacher though. She talks to fast, writes scribble on the board, and can't spell for life. I swear, I'm probably studying inncorrect notes right now! I don't have it that bad though. There's some teachers who have heavy accents and speak in their native tongue at random moments; confusing everyone. xD.
The subway rides to school and back are always fun. I mean who doesn't love being squished into small spaces and surrounded by brutal New Yorkers? xP. Haha, nah, most of the time everything is alright. I get to enjoy free entertainment, people watching, thinking time, and great views (of cuties on the train ♥).
In my thinking time, I commonly only like to think of my happy moments though. And so, I end up smiling like an awkward idiot on the train xD. Haha, but New Yorkers are like trained to ignore weirdos, so I'm safe =w=b. Those happy thoughts could be total killer though! One time, I was happily reminicing in a memory I had of my little brother, and I started crying! My dad told me that with my in high school, I'll be spending less time with my little siblings and family. When I thought about missing out on the growth of my siblings and the events with my family, I started to tear up a bit ;A;. //stupid female hormones xP.

Despite all the new friends I'm making, I find myself deeply missing my friends from middle school too. I'm glad that I still see a few in my high school. And sometimes, I get to see Pari-chan on the subway in the morning :D !! I talk to Rin-chan too. I miss Luka-chan the most though since I don't really see or talk to her anymore. I miss her pink hair and wild personality. ;A;.

So high school has its ups and downs. A lot of the time, it feels like I'm mostly experiencing the "downs", but on those days when things are better, everything seems a little more worth it :)

i'm just really annoyed right now

The rain had finally stopped. For awhile there, I was beginning to worry. The rain came down with no end. It was as if the sky's heart was broken, and the tears wouldn't stop! It sent it's anger down upon the Earth in the form of hurricane Sandy. The storm crashed about wildly and wrecked homes like a crazed bull on a rampage. The terror has yet to end too! The power lines are down, and people are panicking about.

But somehow, I've made it out alright so far. Perhaps a few trees had tipped over here and there, incapable of holding its ground any longer and feeling the need to hug the Earth one last time. The streets are flooded, and the wind is chilled. But I'm alright, alive and well. Haven't left the house once as I listened to the storm beckon me away with its constant banging of my window. It's strong winds howled. My sister flinching at every sound. If Sandy had stayed any longer, I'm sure it would've driven our sanity to the point of desertion!

Luckily, the power is intact, and school is cancelled until Monday. I hadn't taken this opportunity to blog a bit more 'till now though. I've been working on homework, reading manga, and listening to the sexy voices of Kat-Tun. Oh, sweet sweet Kazuya ♥. What a joy it was  ^u^.

I've been feeling kind of aimless though. I've reached one of those points in life where I find myself lost .___. like idk what's the point to what I'm doing anymore.... No, wait, that's not the right way to explain it. I'm lost in the sense that I know my destination, but I don't know which path to take to get there. Of course, I want a future where I'll be rich and happy 8D.... but I'm told that I need high grades and good schooling. Yet, I'm also told that such things aren't necessarily needed. Then, there's my dad blabbering on about how I should learn java, and a whole bunch of other computer stuff. And I'm just sitting here wishing I could become a manga editor ;w; (I've been reading too much Bakuman lately xD).

LOL I'm not serious about the manga editor thing. Sigh. I'm thinking about becoming a psychologist or a write or an engineer. I need a passion though! To be honest, I don't have a passion. I'm not super indulged into reading, or photography, or computers, or music, or art, or anything really!

My dad constantly tells me "Learn Java, photoshop, illustrator, Ubutu, windows, programming." It's just constant computers, computers, computers. Plus, I also have like ecosystems, and Hinduism, Confucianism, and dirty dozen grammar skills just bouncing off the walls of my mind all the time.

It's come to the point that I'm so overwhelmed that I'm calm! You know what I mean? It's like if the water is hot enough, it'll feel cold. Have you ever felt that? Turned the water so hot that when you put your hand under, it'll feel cold for a few seconds. ...If you haven't, I'm not saying you should. LOL the afteraffects hurt like hell XD.

Anyways, what I'm saying here is that I don't know where to go. I've liked my schedule of sleep, school, homework, eat, sleep, and then repeat. With the next few days off, I've had time to do more. Except, all I find myself doing is homework (my social studies teacher posts homework ahead of time, so I'm doing that). I feel like I should be reading non-fiction (which I'm really weak in) or learning Java or doing something.

My life isn't just grades, but I don't know what else to do besides focus on that! That's why I feel like I'm going to fail in life because all I can do is get good grades. Grades are important, but they don't mean everything. If that's all I'm good at though, then I consider myself a failure no matter how high the grades are. TT______________TT.

I need a passion... but I can't find it. I hear that's what makes people successful. They can often turn their passion into money, and it would be fun too since they're doing what they love. But how can I live that kind of dream if I don't have a passion?? UGH ! This whole thing is just pissing me off =___=.

My dad is dead set in his belief that Java will be my forever passion or some crap like that, but I really find no interest in it at all! I think it's the fact that he pushes me so hard that I don't want to do it. I have this feeling that I'm just going to utterly fail at it, and disappoint him. Passion or not, that won't be fun! So I've settled on just not doing it at all... which isn't a very good solution either.


I dont know. I'm just frustrated, and writing it all out hasn't really helped me come to a solution. That upsets me :V

An Individual or an Ordinary?

A few days ago, my English teacher was talking about whether we felt we were an individual or a follower. I personally would say that I’m more of an “individual”. LOL. Then again, would it be follower like of me to say so? Everyone wants to be an individual, and most thinks they are. Haha! Makes you think, eh?

And with this, I wrote on my paper, “I’m both” which is like a totally legit answer =w=b. It’s all a matter of opinion ^^. I’m both because sometimes I am out of the norm. I think outside of the box (and see that this box of mine is green with electric pink stripes 8D). I laugh louder than most. I dance in the hallways (even without music). And I like to wiggle my eyebrows in every expression I make. I’m just weird OuO. Howeverrr, I’m also not weird an individual too 8D (yes, it’s true).  I mean, I wear shirts and pants like you or anyone else! I fall in love, and feel sadness, and like chocolate just the same. I try to be smart, and become rich.

So what am I? An individual or an ordinary?

Oh! Speaking of being out-of-the-ordinary, I finally took pictures of my locker! Now, you can see it in all its awesomeness 8D. I’ve gotten like several comments for it. LOL it’s actually how I’ve made a few friends too XD. It’s filled with pictures of Hitman Reborn. Fans, or just anime-fans in general, always comment on it. I totally love how most anime fans in my school are so crazy and outgoing, and just love to talk about their love with other fans 8D. It’s fun! I feel so welcomed knowing that there’s other weirdoes like me ;w;.

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The red thing you see at the top of inside my locker is used as a shelf :D. It’s supposed to be one of those fold-out shelves that you put on the bottom of your locker. However, since I have a top locker, I have like a few extra inches at the top (it’s inclined slightly at the top instead of flat). I put the shelf on the hooks that’s for my jacket. Ahahaa, I put so much stuff on my shelf. LOL. I have a pencil case filled with stuff like a staples for my stapler, white out, sharpener, paper clips, and etc. I have an extra set of clothes, and emergency book (just in case I get bored out of my mind during my free periods), and my goggles for biology class.

That ugly, barf green thing you see in there is my book bag. However, I shove that in my locker in the morning, and put the stuff I need for the first half of the day into a much cuter, smaller bag 8D. That way, I don’t have this huge heavy thing on my back.

AND GUESS WHAT? MY BEAR STICKER GOT STOLEN TT______TT. I went to my locker one day, and ka blam, it was gone! My sticker of the girl is harder to get off though, so no one has touched it yet :’D.

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