you know.... i kinda miss the days without League of Legends and without a boyfriend -- where all I did was watch movies and homework all day. I was SO much more productive. lol.

but at the same time, I like my life now too.... so i don't know about this feeling of nostalgia toward my old self... i just don't know. hm.

Everything is Better Now! Yipee!

I should've updated about this sooner. lol.
BUT WE ARE GOOD NOW. like for a week now. XD
I'm still upset that he didn't come see me on my anniversary. But like, the day has passed, and so will the anger.

However, if he doesn't bring me flowers the next time he comes over to my house, I'ma kill him. LOL.

Anyways, cute conversation of the night:

me: good night. I love you c:
him: I love you more! more than bacon and eggs!
me:
woah.
woah.
woah.
MORE THAN BACON AND EGGS?
him: well maybe not, but pretty much on the same level!
me: GOOD. because I thought you were going insane.
him: XD good night

lol. yea, we're that kind of couple... XD
the only thing we fight over on a daily basis is food.


(pssst. but here's the secret. he totes loves me more than bacon and eggs. LOL)

Huzzah to Crappy Anniversaries *insert sad smile and shoulder shrug

Last night was probably the worst night out of my sixteen years of living. I'm not even being dramatic. Lol I'm a pretty happy person, so I have actually never really had a bad night. I feel like if there were gods, I had just got my ass smited. It was as if the fates set me on that path, and I tried everything to think it was otherwise.

My friend was going to see her boyfriend Friday, but it ended up going pretty badly for her because she was unable to go. She was looking forward to the day for the whole week; her excitement building up and growing. Only for that excitement to collapse all around her into bitter sadness, as he caused for her to not go. She tried to talk to me about it, but I couldn't see the point of being so upset. I think I was kind of harsh even because to be honest, I found it to be irrational. I didn't understand.

Somewhat coincidentally, I was seeing my boyfriend Saturday (today) as I stated earlier it's our anniversary today. However... last night, he tells me "Hey, I didn't start my homework. Can't go tomorrow". Just thinking of it infuriates me!  Who the hell goes on a skii trip for three days, play League of Legends the next few days, and then goes to a late night church party, but has the audacity to casually be like 'oh, i can't go to see you on our anniversary because i have bad organization and planning'. Bam. I was smited. It's like karma for not treating my friend with more sincerity ;A;. I planned for two weeks and got all excited. I feel like a fool. I started to cry the moment he started telling me he couldn't go. I had this bitter feeling he wouldn't before, but I wanted to have faith he would come. I feel like with his 'bad planning' he never really planned on going anyways or at least didn't place as much importance on it. I don't know, I'm sixteen and wild. I couldn't really believe I'd stick with ONE guy for a whole year. I mean especially having a family where my aunt tells me things like "Dat a boy for the school year, dump him in the summer to have some free time, and get a new boyfriend next school year" or my dad who tells me about his many girlfriends in high school. So for me, liking a guy for a whole year straight is a pretty big deal. I think I really love this boy or as close as teenage emotions can get to love! So my excitement crashed around me into bitter sadness as well. smited.

Now I'm watching chick flicks and wandering why I'm so damn loyal to this boy.
boys are stupid. i feel stupid. this is stupid.

It was a really bad night. I kind of wanted to break up with him right then and there. I've been kind of wanting to for a few days now. Thinking my feelings aren't enough to power this relationship. My actions are strong. His are half baked; feeling like he treats as a "close" friend but not a girlfriend.
I wouldn't say we fought. We're mature enough to talk it out. He calls for a break. It was like he didn't even wanted to fight to keep me. Flat out "Let's take a break" using the excuse that he wants best for me and whatnot.

I feel that... the reason this feels tough on me is that it's kind of happened to me before... kind of... in a vague sense. Boy I like rejects me on Valentine's day. LOL. life. I don't know, I'm actually still really good friends with said boy XD. Besides that though, now as it afternoon/evening (when all this BS break stuff happened at like 2 in the morning), he tells me he doesn't want a break. what is wrong with boys? T^T. I told him I wanted a break now >:T
I don't know. Maybe a few days without each other, we can learn to appreciate each other again?
He initially said a week, I changed it to two days with the recent decision of him not wanting it. LOL. two days can work? ;w;. I don't know, I don't want a break but my woman instincts tell me it's needed :c I don't know. I just don't want him to think he can easily just run back to me Dx because then this problem will just happen again.

I feel like I will either get bitter or my "cool" won't last and just love him more x___x;;.

-why do i post these personal things-

Update On... Well, My Life!

Haven't posted in eons. Lots to share. So here I go!

Extra Curricular Life
I've been mostly spending my time with my new blog JTUD (Journey To the Unknown Destination). Please read and go check it out! :D I'm working really hard! lol
I have to say, working with my mentor is really exciting! I get to work at a place called the FlatIron School. It's a really awesome place!  My mentor, Sara J Chipps, is really nice and awesome! (subscribe to her KittieBots!! ) She also introduces me to her coworkers, and they're awesome too. lool. Everything there is really cool. They have funky chairs and white-board tables and giant computers and projectors.
The Subway next door is my savior because I always find myself rushing out the door to get to the place (it's an hour travel time haha). However, I tried going to someplace across the street today. It was super yummy and the service was nice too! ...except, I think the server tried hitting on me LOL. (cuz I'm just so beautiful. Just kidding! XD hahaa...). Then on my way back to the building, this pamphlet distributor guy came up to me, and was like "Do you wanna tour the statue of liberty" and I'm like "No thank you". Then he wouldn't leave me alone LOL Started asking me if I worked around the area, and I really didn't want to explain my whole mentor-apprenticeship thing. It's really none of his business anyway LOL so I just said "Yeaa.....(lets go with that lol)". Then he asked me out to lunch. ((THE SINGLE BE THIRSTY. LOL. I told my single friend that, and he got upset with me XD. idk. I'm sorry)) I kindly declined the pamphlet guy, and ran into my building. hahaa....... is it just me, or is it really uncomfortable to be hit on? Not trying to show off or anything, but idk I'm young and it makes me nervous Dx. Anyways, my Intel project is going really well! Meeting all these different kinds of people and having the experience of these travels are amazing. The freedom ;w;. The hopes of the future. The memories.

Current Love Life
This Saturday (Feb 22) is my one year anniversary with my boyfriend!!
We're just going to hang out at my house and watch movies :)
I really do love him ^____^ or whatever you want to call this warm, fuzzy feeling in me that makes me just wanna run through a field of flowers screaming for joy.
I mean it does get rough between us (I mean it has been a year after all). We just get sick of each other sometimes, but we usually figure it out in the end :)
He's really the best! Deals with all my female moody troubles and loves me despite all flaws. He doesn't try to fix me, and that's what I love the most. (lol... well, he is a super tryhard in the fixing dept. when it comes to League of Legends though.... but boys will be boys XD). I mean there are things I like and don't like, but that's normal in everyone. My biggest problem is always thinking I'm not good enough. I don't know. Despite how confident I am, whenever it comes to opening myself up, I'm scared the one I love won't accept what's inside :c ...yea, deep stuff, but... it's how I feel.
On a more happier note, haha, I'm reallyyy excited to see him Saturday! It's mid-winter break right now, so I haven't seen him in FOREVER (*cough. cue in that one person to say "it's only been 7 days..."). Honestly, I'm just so addicted to the happiness he brings me that even a weekend apart makes me die from missing him. ♥

School Life
LOL. Like I don't even want to talk about this. I'm doing pretty okay, I guess. My only grade in the 80s is AP Human Geography (but that's because I have the crappiest memory in this world), but it's only like an 88-89ish. just need that 0.5 on my 89 to get that 90 ;w; plsplspls.On my midtermss, I think someone replaced my brain for the whole midterms week because all of them were in the 80s. I don't know why, but when it comes to test, my brain shuts off and gets substituted by a dummy. EXCEPT MY ENGLISH WAS A 98. omg. English is just my favorite most loved subject in the world ♥♥♥.

I feel like I'm going to die in Junior year. I'm hoping to take AP Java, AP US history, AP Psychology, and Intel.

Life in General
I feel poor .___.
Spending money to take train to mentor. Spending money to buy clothes (i think i hav an addiction). Spending money to buy birthday gifts. Spending money to buy food. Spending money on cake (i totes hav an addiction). Spending money on things I want in general.
Money is too big of a part in life LOL.

I'm facing fashion bipolar-ness. I can't choose between punky tomboy or cutie-pie girly as my style. I find myself constantly switching between the two. what is identity? what is style? LOL. My ripped jeans and rockin' black vest or my pink glasses and lace-y shirts. Haha #TeenageGirl.

I LEARNED TO CROCHET. it's so amazing. I make hats. I make scarves as gifts. I make couple scarves for my love and I. ♥ It's such a fun hobby. IM SO SAD THOUGH. I found this perfect yarn store. And as I finally found her, turns out, she's going out of business by the end of this February. fate is cruel ;A;. I bought like a pound of yarn for $10. that's amazing.

LoL - Romanov and Sasha

LOL. THIS IS WHAT I DO WITH MY FREETIME. WUT? XD

I'm Sasha. Boyfriend is Romanov.
hardcore game roleplay. XD

idk.... XD i feel stupid. lol.

League of Legends is killing my time. haha.

The Programming World Greets Me

So, after years and years of my dad trying to convince me to start programming, I've finally decided to start. He's a computer programmer for a living, and sees immense benefit for me to start getting into it. mainly the positive factors being the numerous new opportunities it provides and undiscovered regions it contains.

I'm learning C# so far. The "C# Fundamentals: Development for Absolute Beginners" on Microsoft Virtual Academy is really helping me get there. haha. Easy step-by-step from the ground up videos beautifully set up for the public to watch. I love the internet! XD Hoping to later begin to learn basic application building from there.

This is something I'm really serious about doing though! Haha, unlike before when I said I'd inspiringly learn the piano or violin or something like that. I'm one hard to motivate. xD //shhh. The determination is set because I'm taking a class basically for Intel STS at my school (the class is called Physical Science Research, but we hopefully lead into Intel. lol).

I haven't been blogging much, but maybe I'll start talking about my programming travels. haha.

So far, I've started on the first two videos of the C# Fundamentals (hopefully I'll get done with more tonight though >3<...). AND IT'S SO FRUSTTRATING. LOL. The second video starts to actually begin the coding stuff of C#, by teaching to first work with the Notepad to make "Hello World" pop up. I followed everything the guy said, and it didn't work for some reason. I don't know why, and I became enraged. I'm going to try until it works! My dad tried to make me feel better by saying using Notepad is harder than using an actual program thing (don't know terms yet, so I'll be saying "thing" a lot in the beginning xD...). BUT I DONT CARE. If someone else can do it, I want to as well! lol plus, school computers have Notepad, so I want to be able to figure it out. I have access to a computer during like three periods of the day. haha. Not only am I taking a Physical Science Research course, but a computer science one as well. (and chemistry. why the fawk am I taking three sciences as a sophomore? idk. I'm crazy lol). Anyways, tonight I'm going to try again.

I tried doing it on the Visual Studio (this program thing from Microsoft) as well, but it turned out I got the web edition when I was supposed to get the desktop version. (ehehh ^^;;). so I got frustrated with that too, and didn't make much progress. LOL I thought I was just dumb, and programming didn't like me because I couldn't make it do the simplest thing of saying "Hello World". sigh.

I'm going to figure it out tonight, and post some more ;w;. because I want it to say Hello to meeeee.

Easy to Win. Hard to Keep.

My heart will instantly swoon for any guy for any one of the reasons below:

1. Laughs at my jokes.
2. Compliments me in anything (appearance, wits, ability, etc.)
3. Pretends that he cares when I ramble on (about things like my love for bakery goods).
4. Has nice, warm, big hugs!
5. Can smolder like Flynn Rider from Tangled. XD LOL.
6. Makes me laugh three times in one sentence.
7. Dresses stylishly. B-)
8. Brings me into daring, spontaneous situations (that doesn't kill me and are fun).
9. Spams corny lines at me.
10. Attempts to catch fuzzies on the street. ♥
11. Loves children.
12. Can match my witty, sassy remarks. But still lets me win.
13. Has gorgeous hair ;w;
14. Has green eyes
15. Is positive and outgoing :D

LOL. Nairb has like 10 of the 15 :) ....unsure about number 5. so its 10 or 11. XD. But that's more than 60%, so that's why he's my boyfriend~. (66%, but shhh). hehee.

Buuut, although I fall in love easily, it's really super duper difficult for me to stay in love with someone. particularly boys. LOL I can lovee any guurl forevs. Only reason why I'd stop is if she backstabbed me or took my last cookie. It's hard for me to continuously love a guy for a long time is because one little thing can make me wanna just drop them like nothing. It could be because I got bored~ or something about them totally went against my principles or I found an annoying trait I just can't stand. I can fall for you easy, and I can stand back up easy.

Keeping Emiko goes as follows:

1. Surprise me. Be spontaneous. Become too predictable, and it's an O-U-T.
2. Keep my confidence level up. LOL Make me feel like shit, and I'm out the door.
3. Don't be too much smarter than me. Don't be too much dumber than me.
4. Work like you have to win me over everyday. LOL I like feeling special. xD
5. Be as loyal as I am to you :O
6. Always compete to love me more than I do you.
7. Pay attention. Listen. Remember what I tell you. I feel like I'm talking to bricks if you forget.
8. Talk to me when I'm mad. Talk to me when you think I might be mad (because I probably am).

I'm pretty sure there's more, but I can't think of any.

I've only had 2 (official) relationships so far. Second one is going pretty awesome. Dun wanna say how many Nairb has on the "ways to keep me" list, but he's doing a great job at it. I've learned a few rules along the way though.

•  Cut off date is two months. Plenty of time to get to know someone. Feeling half-assed at two months? Then it's not worth my time.
• Wait at least two weeks before kissing the guy :o because kissing anywhere in between that time, the relationship is totally going to be physical base. I personally want something meaningful. a mix of passion and compassion.
• If he loves saying your name all the time, whenever he can, then he's gonna be special.

This is all in my opinion, of course.
I still don't know much because not many of my friends have experienced relationships. It's all information gathered from my own experience. lol. disclaimer.

Movie Credits

I'm one of those weird people who like reading the ending movie credits. Mostly because I like seeing all the different names people have. Specifically the last names because I don't know many last names. I like watching the credits for a few minutes or so and finding my favorite last name. I like looking for ones that I think are funny or cool. hard to pronounce or figuring out their ethnic origin.

I think I like looking at the names because it helps coming up with characters for stories. I always have trouble with the name part of writing.

I have yet to find a friend who shares this same interest. Haha. I don't know why, but it makes me feel kind of lonely. Because I'll watch a movie with a friend, share my favorite, and watch them just walk away. Plus, the theater is dark and playing the ending music, so it adds to the lonely effect.

It's All About the Mush Today

OH MI GOOODNESS.
TODAY. AUGUST 22, 2013. MARKS SIX MONTHS OF DATING NAIRB. ;w;

like woahh. I'm actually quite proud of myself since I didn't think I was the type to settle down for so long XD. hehe.

I haven't talked much about our relationship lately (which is surprising since I totally kiss-and-tell), but that's because I have Rinny to talk it out with so my blog got outta the loop XD. For six months though, I got to share why I love this boy so much!

It'd be hard to put why I love him in a few words or paragraphs. I love basically almost everything about him! Hehe. "Almost" because I must admit, he does have his flaws. Like he tends to ramble a lot, in ways where he says all the wrong things and sometimes upsets me. he likes to sing in the middle of our conversations. and Nairb falls asleep way too soon during late night conversations.

But as these flaws do frustrate me at times, I can see the brighter side of it as well.
He rambles because he's nervous around me. constantly trying. adorable. great when he actually finds the right words.
He's a really great singer. LOL. I can always continue what I was saying after the entertainment xD. because his voice is so soft and sweet and MUCH better than mine LOL.
And google tells me that people fall asleep in mid conversation in late night talks because they feel so comforted by you that they fall asleep XD. hahaaa.

Nah. that was supposed to sound adoring and everything. but it didn't come off that way, huh?

Anyways, all jokes and flaws aside, there are sosoo many reasons why this relationship has last this long and continues to strive. through thick and thin and all the mess. Because when I'm with him it's like the world disappears. All I want is to hear him talk to me, have his arms around me, and see his smile. We could be sitting in the boys clothing department in Target, and still make it the most romantic place in the world XD. It's all about the feeels.

OH! besides the feels, there's the fact that he's very stubborn. persistent. and tries hard. at everything. I love that about him. I could be upset about something and not willing to share, but he'll get it out of me if it's the last thing he does. lol. Nairb is the kind of guy who will push himself to carry heavy me bridal style down the street and to the movie theaters despite it being quite the rigorous workout. hahaa XD. I think that's amazing. He laughs at all my jokes, challenges my thoughts, and thinks of me as his one and only. Doesn't get overly jealous, but jealous enough. Wants nothing but my happiness, and puts my feelings first (most of the time. all of the time?). The boy even stops in the middle of walking to catch a fuzzy (those little cotton stuff that floats in the air)! It's all the little things. and all the big things. That added up, makes for the most amazing guy ever. Nairb.

If you saw Nairb and I, you'd instantly see how we're a good couple. Haha. And I'm not just saying that from opinion. I've been told so. xD
I can sit here all day naming all the reasons why I've come to love Nairb. all the little moments we've shared that'd make you go "aww" and have your hearts feeling all hopeful and loving.
But I have to go play Tetris with my family. LOL.

Dream Wedding

My friend has been talking about what she wants to do with her life in the future. Not about what she wants to do and those kind of things. Haha. Things like how she's going to raise her kids, and how many she wants. So it got me thinking about that kind of stuff too. Before kids though, first comes marriage of course. And I must say, boy, do I have my dream wedding planned out! LOL.

My wedding dress is going to be white, but with a hint of green somewhere. Not really sure if the green is going to be fringed at the bottom, a ribbon around my waist, or sparkles, but there will be green somewhere. Haha. Dress will probably be strapless, with the rippling ruffles at the bottom. I don't want it to be puffy though. I want an amazingly long train. My veil thickly covers my face, and has the pretty doily pattern things XD. I want my hair half up and half down. I think showing my face too much emphasizes its flaws :P (like the roundness, my giant forehead, etc)
Besides my dress aesthetics though, I want to be wedded at the Disneyland. The ceremony at the Sleeping Beauty Castle Forecourt at Disneyland Park. The reception at the Sleeping Beauty Pavilion. Now, don't think I'm some sleeping beauty fanatic (but my favorite princess is actually Aurora tbh. LOL). It just so happens that out of the things Disney offers, those are what I want ;w;. //don't judge. I've wanted to get married at Disneyland ever since I was a little girl. The idea struck me when I saw a couple do so on the television. It just seemed like the most magical place to have such a magical moment at. I've been to Disneyland a bajillion times, so it's not like I have an unfulfilled Disney complex. haha. I just love Disney.
Bubbles shall escape the skies as I walk down the isle while I carry a bouquet of my favorite flowers, lilies of the valley. My maid of honor.... maybe I'll have 10. Too many amazing friends ;w;. BUT. I was thinking about having a male m.o.h. because I don't think I'll be able to single out a female without feeling guilty for the rest of my female friends T^T. Plus, they're all competitive. I'm not going to pick my sister. LOL. she's going to forget to do everything. So bad to have multiple best friends I guess (orz). I'm going to have about a dozen or two of bridesmaids. haha. I don't know what my bridesmaids will be wearing though o3o..
And this has nothing to do with how Disney owns Star Wars, but I want to cut my cake with a light saber; which is also T.V. inspired. I want the glowy, whooshing sounds and everything. I don't expect it to be an actual laser sword though. Haha, I just want a glowy, whooshing knife? LOL. I haven't worked out all the kinks, but I'm sure there's a way!
I was thinking about including elephants, but I'm kind of unsure now XD. not quite positive of how it'll work. I'm hoping that I don't have to wear heels. Wedding dresses are like 50lbs, and I can barely walk in heels with my normal weight on the tiny pencils. It's totally okay to wear like flats or sneakers, right? Nobody can see my feet under the dress anyway. LOL.

FAQs
1. What if your husband doesn't want this kind of wedding?
WELL THEN. He's going to have a problem. LOL.
I mean, a girl has her dream wedding, and not every girl gets to live it. I'm willing to compromise. But if he's really the one, that perfect guy who I want to spend the rest of my life with, then I think he'd want to get married at Disneyland like I do ;w;. AT THE VERY LEAST, I want to cut my cake with a light saber-like thing. C:
2. Isn't this idea expensive? How will you afford it?.
UM. I'm not planning on getting married until I'm like in my 30s. So hopefully, I'll have a nice job and money :'D. and a husband with a nice job and money. mhm. hopefully.
3. What if he's not a Disney fanatic like you?
You don't have to like Disney to think it's a beautiful place to be married at ;w; it's sooo beautiful. PLUS WHO DOESNT LIKE DISNEY?

P.S.
you know... just thinking...but wouldn't it be kinda funny if I came down the isle swinging from a vine/rope thing from the ceiling like Tarzan? XD and somehow land perfectly in front of the alter. It'd also be cool is the priest was Mickey Mouse. XDD. hahaa.


I'm not crazy :o

Only in New York?

I love riding the subway.
New York has one of the largest, I think.
Some don't like riding public transport, but I love it. Some of my best stories come from the time I spend on the subway.

For instance, today, I saw the beast and the beauty of the subway.

On my way to school, it was majorly crowded on the train this morning. I hadn't had the best morning since I woke up late. Didn't even get to wash my face or brush my hair. Felt kind of gross. But I was looking forward to my trip on the subway because I wanted to read Fifty Shades of Grey. I just started it. When I got to the subway, I was met with a throng of people in every cart. Luckily, I was somehow able to squeeze myself into one of the carts. In the crowd, there was a big, square cart about average four people wide right dead center. Taking up so much space. A black lady (no racism in the word "black" >.< it's just easier to type) was sitting there, stated her possession of the massive cart by placing her hand on the corner. I wasn't bothered by the cart though because people have the bring their stuff one way or another. To my displeasure though, after a couple of stops, the black lady suddenly gets up, throws her bag on the seat, and starts yelling. "What is wrong with you? Don't touch me!" The subway begins to get so crowded that I assume this korean lady accidently touched the black lady on her way onto the train. The two get into an argument. The black lady goes on accusing the Korean lady of touching her, while the Korean lady denies it. Eventually, it heats up into a racist argument. The black lady goes on to call the Korean lady a foreigner, tells her to "Go back to China!", and that she has no manners. The Korean lady is angry, but doesn't know what to say. Her only defense is, "I'm Korea!" Her English isn't so good, but that's how I know she was Korean. The black lady ignores her statement, and continues to insult the Chinese race, thinking it'd insult the Korean lady...
"Get your green card, and go back to China, you foreigner!"
"Chinese people are so rude and impolite. so dirty! [ruining all the toilets]!"
"Talk English! You don't even know nothing about English!"
"Jesus Christ is the true God! Buddha is the false god!"
"My people built up America. You don't belong here. I was born in America. This is my country! Foreigner!"
It was a continuous string of these statements from the black lady. She continued to ramble throughout the whole train ride. The Korean lady just laughed at her, shook her head, and continued her own business. Knowing it was a fight not worth fighting.

Now, I'd like to first state that... it don't tell a Korean person to go back to China. >___> If you're going to insult a person, at least do it right. Also... Buddha isn't necessarily a god.... he's a person worshipped for being able to reach enlightenment. So he can't be a false god, if he isn't thought of as a god in the beginning(?)
I can't believe she'd make fun of the Korean lady's English when, although choppy, she still made somewhat grammatical sense, whereas the black lady was talking in improper English and spoke with so many double negatives ^^;;....
Her people built up America... but Asians built the railroads and make the majority of products used in America >____>. so I think everyone deserves a little credit here? ^^;.
If the Korean lady was seen to be rude (for accidently touching someone and defending herself from verbal attacks), then the black lady was mean! Insulting someone's race (a race in which half the people of the train was) and yelling in the morning. ALSO, she disrupted my reading ;A;. I re-read the same paragraph like eight times because I couldn't concentrate T^T.

Finally, the train reaches my stop, and I'm able to get off.  I transfer onto the next train. This young and light-blonde lady gets onto the train in a tight fit. She explains that she absolutely has to get onto the train as she attempts to kindly  (or as kindly as you can) push people into the train. Her dark mascara contrasting against her pale, white skin. As she's struggling to get her stuff together, I hear this dark colored man (Hispanic, black, or brown. I didn't get a good look at him) say "Hey, I know you from somewhere." The two of them talk. And eventually, I learn that they're both dancers. In their young mid-twenties most likely. You hear them trade stories, knowledge, and experiences. Their passion was thick in the air while they spoke of their attempts to make what they love into their career. You can even see a bit of chemistry going on between them. or at least a blossoming friendship.

And that's why I think New York is a curious, wonderful place. There's so many different kinds of people. You'll see so many different kinds of things each day. I mean I do at least every time I go to school. It's like mini-dramas in each train :o

Review(ish): Internship Movie

Watched the movie the Internship. starring Vince Vaughn and Owen Wilson.
It's starts off with these two salesmen losing their jobs. They find themselves in a summer internship program with Google. The internship program is filled with brilliant young adolescents, all with skills in technology and things of the sort. However, these two men are of a quite older audience, and have trouble connecting with the other interns as there is a clash of old and new. The movie continues to show their struggle, and how they attempt to overcome them.

In my opinion, it was pretty good ^o^.
I mean how much you enjoy the movie probably depends on your sense of humor. I watched it with Narib and Chouchou. For me, there were some parts that I couldn't stop laughing at! But these same parts didn't even crack a smile on Chouchou. Vice versa happened as well. Chouchou would sometimes be rocking in the movie theater seat bursting, and I didn't feel as though the same part was that funny. At those times, I was just laughing at how funny his reaction was XD. It's good to watch it with friends, you kind of get to know them. Nairb and I laughed at the same things.

For the characters, I really liked the female character in the movie. She was so COOL. >w<. All the inters were these very smart kids who had all these crazy skills, but they either had problems or were super snobby. But the girl intern was very relatable for me! She talked about cosplay, anime, fanfiction, made a yaoi-ish reference, and even mentioned hentai. Like I don't read hentai, but I find it incredibly funny that they mentioned it XD. It was just like OMGS~ seeing her. I mean, usually this kind of character in a movie would be a geeky-boy into comic books. This time it was a girl into anime and fanfiction with cool shoes >w<.

The lesson of the movie was pretty straightforward. Everyone has their own skills and things that make them special. Don't give up on a dream, no matter how unlikely it may seem. Try your best and stick to what you believe in. I found 'don't be an asshole" to be a very strongly expressed lesson XD.

Inspired thought into me as it talked about how many kids these days can have the best education and still not be guaranteed a job. I wonder what I'm going to do... :P

Overall, I liked it. The plot was able to surprise me. It seemed predictable at first, but they have a few tricks up their sleeves. And it really causes you to get attached to the characters, and the events in the movie. I enjoyed it :)

(Spoiler) Favorite part is when the Asian guy gets drunk. looked like he was about to go super saiyan XD.

Just Write Happy Things!

 

Carry around a pen and a packet of sticky notes.
When you're bored waiting for the bus, or have nothing better to do, just leave a sticky note where someone can find it. Share a happy quote, or phrase, or anything. Just make it positive!
The idea is knowing that you possibly brightened someone's day.

:)

Sitting on the subway ride home. I love it when I hold his hand. feel him close around my fingers with a slight squeeze. as if he fears of losing me if he doesn't. and then I rest my head on his shoulder. he rests his head on mine. he squeezes my hand again.

It is in this moment that I feel like dying.
because every other moment seems to pale in comparison.
But then I live, anticipating the next moment.

Living in the same city. Still two hours apart. Stuck on my end. Sigh.

I Love His Laugh

I love it when my boyfriend laughs at my jokes. LOL.

I mean, a lot of people laugh at my jokes (because I'm SO funny :P), but I feel so accomplished when I make my boyfriend laugh XD. idky, I'm weird. shh. Plus, I love hearing him laugh and smile. It's like the picture of happiness ;w;. music to my ears. the feels of love. XD. idk.. don't question me!


So I've decided to make that a new requirement for boyfriend worthiness. He has to understand my sense of humor XD. my very cracked up, awful sense of humor. LOL.


AND ALSO. I've been busy with studying and homework and life and nonsense, so I haven't posted anything like LEGIT these days. but I shall get around to it as school is amoslt overrr. YESHH. //tears of joy.
I have a lot to share, since I got them summer plans Cx.

The Skill In This Post. ♥

MY DRAWING SKILS HAVE IMPROVEDD. UMPH. SO HAPPY.

lol. let's just say this improvement is due to the amount of boredom school provides me xD.

The first picture is of random doodles.
Second picture is reference based drawing of Vi from League of Legends.

Dad got new laser printer. Unplugged old printer. Old printer had scanner. Bunch of junk blocking plug to old printer. wasn't able to scan picture of Vi ;A;.

I'm bragging here. But shhhh. I have rights? XD

RE: Operation Change the World~

When I was in middle school, I found this cool idea on how to "change" the world in my own small little way. (original post about it here: http://emikosday.blogspot.com/2012/04/operation-change-world.html ). Basically, I got these little index cards that remind people that "the world isn't as bad as you think. Smile," and I posted it around the place.

It wasn't too successful in middle school though because I started with like 90, and I have like 70 left o3o. That's because my middle school didn't really allow it >___< and I wasn't allowed out to the extent that I could post it around public places D;

HOWEVER. I'm in high school now, and I'm thinking about trying it once more. I see people post this kind of stuff around my high school too, so I know I have the legits ability ^o^.

If you wanna partake in this for your schools, here's the photo that you can save and print out.
I know one of the commenters on the original post wants it, so perhaps others do too? >w<. It's for a good cause~.

A while back, I also created this other thing that my middle school guidance counselor allowed me to post up. I thought it was pretty cool, so I'll share it too ^_____^.

A lot of people took one of the little slips. Mostly females. Haha. But I was passing by the guidance room when I saw someone take it, and it made them smile. That's the purpose of this. To cause a change, no matter how small it may seem!

So I'm thinking about starting up this operation again. C:

Everyday is an Event to Love (Now)

I love calendars. Being a visual learner, it really helps to see what kind of events are coming up, and be able to imagine how close they are to coming. I love checking off each day. On a school week, counting the days until Friday or Saturday. Checking off the days, waiting for something big to happen. Always waiting for any day but today. I like to print out a customized calendar for each month. I have this special place on my wall where I place my calendars. I've had one since September of seventh grade. It became like a day-diary kind of thing.

This tradition though... died since last February. February of 2013. I've been meaning to get back at it, but never really felt as motivated as before. stopped feeling the need to make it. and I've always wondered why.

Today, I figured it out.

It'll sound corny (aka this is a warning), but I think it has to do with Nairb.
February was the month we got together (ps. so we've been together for three months now! yesterday, the 22nd, was the official month-a-versary day ♥).
And... my theory is, maybe I stopped making calendars because I had something more to look forward to then checking off another day on a calendar. I have seeing Nairb to look forward to.

Conceited... ish?

You know, sometimes, I feel pretty conceited.
I'll look in the mirror or at a picture of myself, and be like "Umph. That's one sexy chick. *wink."
But I'm not conceited enough to think I'm the sexiest chick out there.
And when I realize that I'm not the best, I get upset.

LOL. then I look in the mirror again, and I'm like "Umph. That's one sexy chick. *wink." XD.