Simply Complicated

Today. Today was a day. Just a plain day, no different from any other day. The world got a bit bigger, maybe better. I grew a little smarter. Probably learned a bunch of stuff without even realizing it. Not as in 1+1, but like life experiences. I rolled up my sleeves, and got working. I was cleaning today. It's been awhile :P. My smile brightened. The clean feeling was nice. And I started thinking about my life. The image of normalcy, simplicity with its routinely ways. It's contently satisfying. And I keep thinking. What am I so happy about... most people feel a need for excitement, drama. In all honesty, I wish I could escape drama, but it seems to follow me unintentionally... >__>. Bound to my ways, problems are like shackles of burden. Oh God, what to do about it? :T

I did the dishes and wiped the table. Thought about this and that. It made me kind of sad. So I tore my mind away from those thoughts, and fiddled with the TV. It wouldn't work for some reason. I realized I was running. Running away from what bothered me deep down. Sigh. I've run far enough to not worry about it anymore. But I think I've ran a little too far, and reached the north pole or something because I feel a bit numb inside. Dunno how to explain it, but I haven't been able to get hyped up about something in awhile. I've lost my motivation to do things. It's complicated.

Somehow, I'm happy though. Despite all the weird emotions going on inside me, life is pretty nice. When I was little, life wasn't like this. I used to never know what would happen the next day, or where I would be. Everything was filled with uncertainty, always changing. Nothing was stable. It was terrible. Now though, it's different. I live in a cozy lil' place in NY. I go to school, have fun with friends, and come home. The next day is the same. A fun day to me is taking the whole family out to Carvel or maybe a quick trip to the park. Something simple like that can make me happy.

Some people would count going to five star restaurants or on a cruise trip as something luxurious and fun. But sometimes simple things aren't so bad either.

Those weird emotions I was talking about are probably just normal teen stuff. ...well semi-normal stuff because nothing involving me is ever normal xD. Sigh, but even so, it's not that great of me to ignore the issue. I do that a lot. Whatever makes me upset is quickly tossed away, sent to the darkest corner of my heart. I don't like thinking about it. I don't like things involving it. Like I said earlier, I run away from whatever dare threatens my happy-self. I suppose it's how I stay so "optimistic". But it's still not a good way to handle the bad things in life. ^ ^;; if I treat all problems in life like this, than I'll never learn anything from them.

But I don't wanna deal with the sad stuff ;A; because it'll make me sad. (redundant, but true :P). Sigh. What a dilemma, ne? :T

Worried About High School O^O

You know, I love being young :)
When I was little, starting from elementary to around the middle of sixth grade, I wanted to grow up as soon as possible. Life seemed so boring. LOL because when you're a kid, you can't go out. You're stuck listening to your parents. And my entire life was go to school, come home, do homework, and repeat :P. For some reason, I always thought that when I got to high school, everything would be fun. I think this type of thinking was influenced by the number of movies I've watched over the years xD. I dunno why, but high school movies always seems so funny :3. However, now that I am actually going to high school soon, I'm scared as hell O^O;;... like I'm not ready >____< *flails arms wildly in panic*.

Well, not really scared... just super super nervous. Everyone will be so old there O^O... older people are scary (but some older guys tend to be kinda cute 8D)... and everyone will be smarter, and I'll be so short compared to the majority of the people. Gahh~ I like being an 8th grader. I have seniority over the little kiddies >w<. Ah hahaha~ yea no =3=. Rude lil' 6th and 7th graders are a pain in the ass. They stand in the hallways, their fat butts blocking my path. I just feel like screaming, "Move your idiotic butts out of my way, dammit!" but obviously, in reality, I scream, "Move your idiotic butts out of my way, dammit!" xD Yea, I have no shame~. *cough, uh where was I~? Oh right, so since I'll be the freshman, it'll be so scary O^O. I dunno why, but just the thought of high school makes me quiver in my boots. I'm going to a real nerdy school, Bronx Science, so I'm sure no one is going to beat me up or something. I mean, there might be the occasional weirdo who'll attack me with a shitload of math problems, but I can handle that :3 ...unless it's something hard like "1+1". Yes! That's hard. I always get tricked on that >____>. I mean obviously it equals two, right? But whenever someone asks, I'll always say "Window!" Yea, I hang out with too many weirdos that shrank my brain xP.

Er...what was my point again? Ah, yea, I don't wanna go to high school. I wanna stay youngg~. Being my age is fun ^3^. Why? Because I get to go out and be all cool BUT I also don't have to do any chores or anything because I'm still young-ish. 8D. I do chores at least once a week... but I heard that I have to do chores like everyday when I get older. EVERYDAY O^O. Realizing this, I think I just died a little inside >__>. LAWL naw xD I'm just kidding. Well, I mean, I do have to do more chores and stuff when I'm older, but it won't be that bad xD. Anyways, I'm happy with how old I am because being young is cool ;D. I don't have to worry about making money, just how to spend it 8D. lolol jk xD. And, I just love hanging out with my friends and laughing my ass off 24/7 <3.

Not saying that I won't be able to do that in high school. I'm just saying that going to high school means I won't be able to laugh with meh friends 24/7. It'll be like 12/7 ;A; //dies. Sigh.

LOL but yea... it's hard to explain this strange mish mosh going all around in me right now.

There's like some crazy tornado of sappy emotions, nervousness, stress, happy stuff, fear, worry, and some other things that I don't really know how to name.

happy stuff because despite all the scary attributes of high school, I still think it'll be fun as hell ^____^. just don't know what fun stuff i'll get to do yet xD;;.

AHHH ! :O I just realized something. When I got to high school, I'll be able to start fresh.
Hmmm... I wonder what kind of person I should be at high school.

I can continue to be my creepy perverted self 8D.
or I can try to be normal. like stop my habit of having to pinch little kiddies's cheeks like a pedo, and attacking people with hugs, and spazzing over shonene ai moments <3.
or I can be the ultra-nerd :D. focus on studies with 100% effort >w<;;.
or I can be that cold-quiet-nerd. lolol the kind that sits there reading all the time, acting too cool to talk to anyone. xD that's the kind of person my dad was. He'd sit there, and act all cool when deep down he was an otaku-geek x3.

LOL I think... I'll ..hm.. most people would say, "just be yourself."
but you got to admit, it might not be safe for a person like to "just be myself" in this world. I mean, my stupidity is VERY contagious. I just might possibly turn my nerdy school into one full of crazies ^3^. Ah ha~, so I suppose I'll just do what I do for everything in life. I'll wing it ^___^. I'll go into high school, and morph into whoever the hell I feel like being :D. Yea, it's worked for me so far ;)

Haha~ well, I had just gone through a very fun week, in which I am too lazy to write about right now, so I want to relax. And by relaxing, I mean, I'ma go watch some dramas. >w< kyaa~ I love dramas. <3

so ciaosu~ ;D


ps. sorry for the weird post todayy~. just felt like ranting about high school since my dad was talking to me about it today. i swear, he's more freaked out about it than I am though xD. it's like the only thing on his mind, and he's researching into every known resource. It's kinda funny in a way :3.

Keep Calm and Carry On

I'm not the most perfect person out there. It is the most obvious thing here, in my opinion. Perhaps it is even more obvious on my blog, since I do tend to show more of my idiocy here. However, the crazy people I have come to know in real life, may have a rather different opinion. My close friends know me for the idiot I am :) ..except, others, like my classmates, see me to be smart, brilliant.


I've had a few people tell me, "Oh, you get such good grades," or "You're so talented. so smart."


Honestly folks, I ain't got an ounce of talent in me. LOL I remember I asked one of the people "How am I talented?" They answered with silence. I admit I am slightly book smart. Good enough to have the majority of my grades as 90s. But that's about it. I'm not especially smart like Choco-chan or Luka-chan. Out of all my friends, I'm the slowest.


But you know what? That doesn't matter. What matters is the end result. I may be the slowest. I may be the kind of person who has to read a passage more than once or even twice to understand it. It may take me three hours longer to finish my homework than the other. But how should that matter? The point is, even though I have to try harder to get the same grade as that smart person, but at least I can leave satisfied knowing that I know at least as much as that person.


You see, what I'm trying to say is that nobody out there is perfect, despite what you may think. There might be a few out there who seem pretty darn close to being perfect. However, they weren't born that way. It takes actual work. Yes, people. You have to work to become so great. Trust me, I don't like the idea of actually putting effort into doing something as much as the next guy, but it's what you gotta do.


Recently, I've had a friend (I won't state who) that has been depressed for awhile. He feels as though he isn't smart. He feels as though he has no friends. This guy thinks there's no point to life. That he needs to be punished, and yadda yadda. Such stories has been heard, so I'll just continue with other details. My friend has self harmed himself. He tortures himself with own cruel, untrue words each and every day. He's talked about seriously committing suicide.


It's hard to understand why he does this to himself. It's hard for me to know how he feels. As his friend or even just as another human being who knows emotions and pain, it hurts to see him treat himself this.


For me, if I felt that I wasn't smart, I would study. That's the logically thing to do. But sometimes, it's hard to study if you just don't understand. It's hard. But you know, nobody exactly said life was easy. 


I was once told to "Keep calm and carry on." It's normal to feel upset over a bad test grade or something of the sort, but to take it to such an extreme level as to physically punish yourself is not the best route to take. Learn from your mistakes. (In this case, just study more, dammit! xD.) But also learn how to carry on with life. One test doesn't decide everything. At my age, there's a whole life ahead of my friend. There is time to change things, to heal. There will be second chances, use them wisely. In my opinion though, my friend should stop watching so much TV, and start studying more. That is only common sense =3=b.


However, I couldn't get this idea through my friend, so I took measures into my own hands >____>... Yup, I contacted the guidance councilor xD;;. I know it may have been embarrassing for him, since talking to an adult official isn't always the most fun thing to do >___>. So I can understand why his first reaction to me after his talk with the councilor was "I hate you." But it was for his own safety. These days, even the slightest threat of suicide should be brought to attention. I can't stand all these deaths lately. They're killing my heart, and causing it to shrivel up into a disgusting raisin xP.


Anyways, my overall point is to learn that it's okay to be upset. Just don't think it's the end of the world because it's not.
I mean I'm not perfect, neither is anyone else in this world. It's okay to not be perfect. Good grades, friends, and all that is desired. But good grades and friends are something you have to earn.
In my opinion, time spent on having fun is much better spent in studying if you feel grades are that big of a deal.
Making friends isn't that hard. But if you really want to keep your friends than I suggest you not pester them all the time with the stupid questions like "you're not my friend, are you?" or "you hate me, don't you?"


Like seriously?! I hate it when people do that. It's obvious that a person is your friend if they bother to talk to you or hang out with you. Sometimes they might seem distance or something of the sort, but if you they talk to you, it's safe to assume that they're your friends. Unless they talk to you really bitchily or trash talk about you behind your back. That's when it's obvious they're not your friends.
Asking questions like "Do you hate me?" all the time, when they say no, will only cause them to hate you.


So my advice is to not ask them such stupid questions, and carry on with normal conversion. Don't feel so timid, and be confident in your friends! If you don't show that you believe in them, than they won't believe in you as a friend.


Er- this may not be what you specifically may be dealing with if you feel that you have no friends. I am just explaining a certain situation in which I have experienced.




Anyways, I hope my friend will feel better about himself through counciling. I feel good about myself for notifying an adult. A lot of people never do. A lot of people always think, "Perhaps, I can think I can help him. Maybe I can fix things on my own." However, as a friend maybe we can, but it's still better to make an adult aware of the situation. After cooling down a bit, my friend stopped saying he hated me, and actually called me a good friend. But for some reason he seemed a bit sarcastic when saying it >____>. Either way, it's okay. I may or may not have helped him, but I'm glad I at least tried to.




"Keep calm, and carry on."


:)

I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDNT POST ANYTHING ON FRIDAY OR SATURDAY

I'm so sorry ;A; please don't kill me. But the truth is, I was very very lazy and tired, so I didn't blog. I was in a really lousy mood the last two days, and I just didn't feel like writing anything. I don't know why I was in such an unpleasant mood since many good things happened, but I was.

Anyways, since I just couldn't bare the thought of an entire weekend without blogging, I decided to get my lazy butt up, and started blogging. To make up for the lack of blogging, I'm going to post up three new posts ! (not including this one ^3^). Yes, you heard me right. After this post, you should scroll down, and read three more new posts. The second one is kind of depressing, so you're allowed to skip it if you want :P.

Again though, I'm terribly sorry for my lazy behavior. Please, forgive me. And have fun reading xD

Please Support Kamiojay and Jessa ^3^

Listen to my words. You shall follow what I say. Okay? I'm about to give you command. Follow it, alright? Now, what you are going to do right now is really easy.

What I want you to do is....
Click the link below, and listen to Kamiojay's videos~ :D
http://www.youtube.com/user/kamiojay/videos

Ah haa~~. yea, see, I told you it'd be a simple command? xD

You know that camera I gave X-chan for her birthday? Well guess, what, she actually used it to make youtube videos \(^o^)/  !! //happy~~ <33. Yup yup. Kamiojay = X-chan. LOL so now you must go and check out her videos!!

I particularly like all of them, if you were to ask me xD.

But this one was really nice. ^3^ mostly because it was dedicated to me~ <3. ...>__> well truthfully, it was dedicated to all the people who got her a gift for her birthday. LOL either way, you should watch it anyways.

Song 2 You (acoustic cover) by X-chan ~ <333

Her voice is just so soft and angelic. I love it ! >w<. It's X-chan playing the acoustic guitar as well by the way. She can also play the violin, trumpet, and drums as well. Isn't she the coolest? >w<.

and while we're on a musical note, I hope none of you forget to vote Hatsune Miku as the singer for the olympics. if you don't, i'll be very sad :< you don't want a sad Emiko.

Oh, and while I'm sharing things about my friends. Jessa-chan got herself a blog as well!! :D
http://jessasrandomness.blogspot.com/
You should go check it out!

Yesh, please share support and love for my friends. ^_________^

If you actually take the time to visit Jessa's blog or listen to X-chan's videos, please comment below! Tell me what you think about them :D.

trust is so fragile

Trust. It's something that's given to a person, and over time it grows. It grows into this beautiful thing that allows you to have confidence in another person; allows you to depend on them every once in awhile. Trust is important for humans to coexist peacefully with one another. People put a lot of trust in another. At times, it may seem like that trust will never be lost. But in reality, just the tiniest thing can make someone lose their trust. No matter what the intention of the person was, no matter how small the even. If someone did something to betray another's trust than that trust will never be the same as it was before. You can gain the trust back, but the person won't trust you fully. It could take years to gain someone's trust, but only a few seconds to destroy it.

Sigh...even knowing all that, I still managed to somehow lose the trust of someone, someone close and important to me. And all for the stupidest thing. That person was my dad. Since we have a daughter, father relationship, it wasn't too difficult to patch things up. ...I still feel terribly bad and ashamed though. My dad is real good at stuffing a person with extreme guilt. What I did to lose his trust in me is too stupid to share, so I won't go into detail on that. I'll just say I broke a rule I shouldn't have.

Anyways, things are still uneasy with my dad and I. There's this stressful aura between us. I used to talk to him so easily, but now, it's kind of scary to talk to him ;A; which sucks since I live with the guy. It's the trust people, the trust. Don't ever do anything to break it. Bad things will happen.

My dad is the kind that doesn't like to talk about the event until he's tortured me enough. LOL not like whip and chains kind of torture though xD that'd be scary. More like, he'll bring it up whenever he can. For instance, if he's talking to my sister about some lecture, he'll randomly look at me with the sternest look I'll ever know O^O. He will remind me of it constantly. LOL well, now that I think about it, it's normal for him to do that because he doesn't want me to forget what I did wrong. But sigh, it's killing me inside >o<. I don't do good with guilt D; it makes me feel awful. And my dad knows this well xP. Then, when he thinks I've suffered enough, he'll give me a long ass lecture about what happened. Eventually, he'll start branching off the lecture into different topics, and I'll just be dying there.

Anyways, besides the emotional punishment, my dad is also punishing me how parents normally do. They take away something that you love ;A; which is cruel in my opinion. He said he'll block all of my internet, but the websites I list. Meaning I can list whatever websites I have most dear to me, and then he'll block everything that I don't name. So I spent like an hour or so decided what websites I can't live without (btw there was no limit to the amount of websites I can name). It was so hard, so I named basically everything in my favorites list xD. When I emailed the list to my dad, he looked at it, and laughed. At that point, I felt scared O^O. "Now pick three," he told me. I thought he meant that I could only pick three websites for me to go on. However, I was in luck. He meant for me to remove three websites from the list. I was like "NOOOO~!" After going through all the websites, and trying to pick the most important, how could I pick three to remove? :O //panick. Then I thought, "Ah ha!" This is actually where I got lucky though. Since I named practically everything under the sun, I had a lot of stupid websites I could pick to remove and not go on.

But still... my dad said there's a total of five steps to my punishment >___>...what I described was just the first two. The thing about my dad is that he's totally unpredictable O^O. I've known the guy for fourteen years, and I still don't have a good handle of how he thinks. LOL so I'm shaking in my boots right now.

Anyways, the point of this post wasn't to complain about my punishment. It was to tell you people one special thing that you should all remember.
"Just because you think you can get away with it, doesn't make it right."
Therefore, don't do anything wrong just because you think no one will find out. Because it does not justify your wrong doing. Don't ruin a person's trust in you. It's an awful thing to do.

well, i got to go do science homework now. bye byes~.
wish meh the best of luck ^ ^;;

Go Go Luka-chan! (^3^)v

I'm tired as hell. My arms and back and thighs are soar as hell. I don't feel like using my brain at all. However, here I am with my fingers are typing away on the keyboard as I think. Today was busy. I did a lot, and yet nothing at all :>

My morning started out with me trying to drag myself out of bed. I couldn't move at all when I woke up. My arms and back was just dying as I laid there. I'm finally watching the drama One Pound Gospel. Kamenashi Kazuya stars in it >w<

Then my afternoon was spent hanging out with Luka-chan <333333. We went to go hang out at a bakery near her house. We wanted to go eat curry bunsss~ (black butler reference <3). B-but the stupid bakery ran out ;___; //sobsob. So we bought some pretty looking cakes, and ate them. ...so much calories though ;_____; //sobs more. LOL the original plan was to go to that bakery I went with Rin-chan last week. I was going to show Luka-chan the hot guy :D. but that bakery was too far from her house xP. Eventually, we got bored, and went to the hot guy's bakery anyways. However, our luck sucks, and he wasn't there T^T //sobs a river. Anyways, my reasoning for going to Luka-chan's house though was that we had to design a T-shirt for my school. Hee hee ^w^. We came up with something pretty funny. I can't wait to show everyone at school x3.

Luka-chan and I didn't do much, but I had fun. LOL all we did was walk up and down the streets of NYC, and look at random stuffu~. Nothing interesting. Luka-chan did ask me a bunch of "would you rather" questions. xD and if you knew us two, you'd start cracking up. It is always so dangerous whenever Luka-chan and I play that game together x3. Ah ha~ but Luka-chan promised to play a clean game of "would you rather", and asked me a bunch of Black Butler themed questions. The hardest one for me to answer was the "If you had to pick, would you rather choose to eat Ciel or Alois." LOL XD I tend to look down upon cannibalism, so it was hard. But also because Ciel and Alois are both so cute ;A; and I can't eat a kid since kids have so much life in them and whatnot. (ah haa ciel and alois are only like a year younger than me though xD). She also asked me weird questions like "Who would you rather yuri with, elizabeth or madame red?" That one was difficult too xD. LOL I picked Elizabeth :3. LOLOL BTW ! Remember this was a would rather question; meaning I'm not a yuri fan (but I am a yoai/shonen ai fan ^3^), and I was forced to pick one out of the two. I picked Elizabeth  because Madame Red is too old for me xD. Plus, my inner pedo wanted to choose Elizabeth xD. jk jk jk~.

Anyways, after I came home from Luka-chan's house, I took a nap. Then I went to go eat dinner.

the end~ (^3^)v

ps. retarded post title, but i don't really care at this point xD

can't wait a week without complaing

I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR TODAY SINCE YESTERDAY <3
LOL ....no, not really. Just kidding. I've been waiting for today since...last week :) ..I'm serious!

I've been waiting because today is... the spring equinox!! *excited cheers*.  ...LOL Nah, just kidding. I ain't that big of a nerd :3. ...wait a second >____> the spring equinox was yesterday.... ///fail xD;;

But seriously folks, I've been waiting for this day since it is... my role model's birthdayyy~~. No, not Choco-chan's birthday. That passed ;). This very special day is X-chan's birthday! \(^o^)/ !!

yea, sorry for so many dots, and fail suspense >___>. sorry this intro is kinda stupid too... ^ ^;;

Anyways, let's continue!

I've been waiting for today to come because I'm the type of dumbass who buys the gift like a week earlier when I know I can't wait the whole week without whining 24/7 =3=b. But seriously, how can anyone live while knowing they have a really cool gift at their home, all wrapped up and pretty, without wanting to give it to them early?! I mean, I sure as hell can't. I'll put the gift in my closet or something, so it's out of sight. However, every time I pass by that stupid closet, I think about it O^O. Then I'm like "Aw, gosh, why can't it be their birthday already? D; " LOL yea, I always get super badass gifts (or at least I think I do xD), so I can't wait to see the person's happy face light up when I give them the gift. Mhm, that's right, I get high off of other people's happiness =w=b. I'm also the kind of weirdo who immediately wraps the gift in something cool once I come home from buying it ^____^;;. Yea, birthdays are fun, except for the whole spending shit loads of money on other people part xD.

*cough. Back to the point! Today is X-chan's birthday :D. It was so much fun, and I got to hug her like ten million times. >w< wahh~ *does the happy dance~* I'm the lucky ducky who got a hug from her role model. ...>__> well she hugged everyone... BUT GAWSH, LET ME HAVE MY HAPPY MOMENT! xD. Ah haa~ the advantage of having your role model as someone you know is that you get to actually interact with them :'D. Unlike my favorite female celebrity, Selena Gomez, who I unfortunately can't hug because she's famous and whatnot ;A; ... .plus, there's the fact that I don't know where she lives, and I'm too lazy to google it XD;;. And yesh, I like Selena Gomez ! So deal with it. ...well, you also gotta count the fact that I'm a nerd, and don't know many celebrities, so don't judge me xP ! But still, Selena Gomez is bad ass~ :3.

Gah, I lost the point of this again ;A; ... My point was that I was going to talk about X-chan's birthday. right. It was a lot of fun. Yesh yesh, X-chan got a lot of gifts because people love her (but not as much as meh. eh heh heh... 8D). But seriously, it was kinda funny. X-chan loves Sonic, so everyone got her sonic stuff. Luka-chan and I both chipped in to get her a sonic bobble head.... when described like that, it doesn't sound cool. But the bobble head was very epic, I assure you! Anyways, the fact that it was a bobble head isn't what was cool. Two other people gave her other sonic character bobble heads by coincidence. So she had like a whole set of sonic bubble heads. LOL fate has its magic sometimes <3.

Anyways, even though I shared in getting a gift for X-chan with Lucka-chan, I, for some reason, also got her a second gift. Hmm....which is weird since people don't normally give one person two gifts..... um, but let's just say 'X-chan is just cool like that!' and we'll end the two gift topic with that because that's my only excuse xD;;...

LOL Anyways, the second gift I got her was a camera ^_____^. Yea, X-chan is this really amazingly talented person (which is the reason why she's one of my role models x3). And one of her many talents would be that she has a great voice. She has one of the most wonderful voices I've ever heard OwO. Now, mind you, I have listened to very few people's voices compared to the average teenager, but trust me when I say X-chan's voice is incredible! And because of this, many people have been telling her to post videos on youtube. She said she would, but hasn't. I found this odd, and thought of it suspiciously. Some people just thought she didn't have time, and kept bugging her. My theory is that she didn't have her own camera to use for such purposes, and thus, haven't posted a video. ...or maybe she just didn't have enough motivation, or her camera sucks or something of the sort. LOL So I got her a camera ... :)

By the way, all of you should go vote HATSUNE MIKU to be the one to perform at the 2012 London Olympics. If she doesn't get to perform at the Olympics, I will be so very sad ;______;. I mean remember people, Miku is the person my entire internet appearance was based on. I mean without her, who knows what my online self would look like? xD

LOL but seriously, Hatsune Miku can be simply described as awesome! She is a symbol of our advancement in technology. A performance by her in a world wide event like the Olympics will inspire people everywhere in every kind of way.

Go vote for her here: http://www.the-top-tens.com/lists/singers-perform-london-olympics-opening-ceremonies.asp
^Click the link, and vote for HATSUNE MIKU.

I don't care if you like Super Junior more, or BigBang more, or whatever else is there. Vote for HATSUNE MIKU!!


Other than this.... I don't think I have anything else to tell you people >_____>. Yea, meh life is boring, so the most exciting thing that happens is like someone's birthday or something :P.

grr...it's 9 o' clock at night, I gotta start my homework T^T. so this'll be the end of today's post. don't miss me too much xP.

ciaosu~ ;D

Oh, She's so Screwed

LOL I AM SMART <3

My lazy of a bum sister never does anything! Today is laundry day, and of course, my dad was like "Emiko, let's go!" Don't get me wrong, I love doing the laundry as much as the next person, but sometimes it gets a little boring/tiring xP. I didn't feel like going today. Between my sister and I though, I'm the only one who is actually expected to go. Instead of protesting, and being all "Ugh! Do I have to?" I jumped up out of my seat, and said "Yay! I'm ready! Let's go!" I was smiling, and acting all excited.  LOL anyone ever heard of 'reverse psychology'? x3. Ah ha~ because that's what I pulled on my sister. She got up, and was like "No, I want to go instead!" Later, when she was getting dressed I was still acting. I was like "Aw, why do you want to go? I want to." Guess what she told me? "I want to go because you want to go." LOL So my plan worked. I'm a total genius >:D. I got my lazy sister to work. Oh ho ho~ //so proud. I feel so bad for my dad though. My sister absolutely SUCKS at folding clothes. I can just picture my dad folding all of it himself because my sister would ruin it all XD. My sister is the kind of girl who won't make a good housewife, so hopefully she can find a nice guy who can cook, clean, and is good with kids. If she doesn't, she's sure as hell screwed XD. Anyways, I'm happy to not have to do manual labor today ^____^.

 However, since I'm not doing laundry with my dad, I'm stuck here at home watching my brothers xP. I swear kids just don't stop eating. What's wrong with them? They ate just two hours ago! It's always "I'm hungry." I swear, they're going to get so fat by the the time they grow up =__=. LOL But like the good older sister I am, I cooked them some food. And by 'cook', I mean I microwaved them some instant mac & cheese. LOL That is like the only thing I can make without completely burning down the house xD. I hope the food will keep them quiet for awhile. I don't know why, but little boys can get so rowdy sometimes xP.

Anyways, I don't really have anything inspirational or extravagant to say today. So I'll end here.

Oh, but I'ma give a special shout out to my friend, AL. He just launched his own blog. I demand you people to check it out :D

http://escapeveloxity.blogspot.com/

He's quite funny, and ain't too shabby of a writer ^___^. I'm sure his writing won't disappoint you! :D.

Walking the Streets with No Shame !

I'm a young chap, don't ya agree? :3 ....wait, I think 'chap' is used for males o.O...
*cough. I'm a young gal' here, right? XD So I haven't experienced much as of yet~. Today though, I have experienced hanging out with a friend without parental control. YEA! o(^__^)o !! I hung out with Rin-chan :D. LOL It was funny, when I told her this she said, "Oh ho ho~ so I'm your first, eh? ;D" I started cracking up when she said that XD She's so dirty minded!

So, this fun experience started with me being at the dollar store. Yesh, I had to go there to see if I could find something cheap for my science project. LOL by the way, my dad bought purple, leopard pattern duck tape. It's because he feels that plain duck tape isn't 'exciting' enough... =___= *facepalm. He's an idiot XD. Anyways, Rin-chan called me while I was yappin' to my dad about how weird he was. Rin-chan was like "Heyy~. Do you want to go shopping with me?" Rin-chan is random like this XD She always calls me about the weirdest stuff. One moment it's for homework help, the next is just because she's bored. "...shopping for what?" I asked. "Let's go buy cake!" LOLOL In my head I was like, 'Cake! Oh hell yea!' You must know now that I LOVE sweets. I can eat flan, ice cream, cookies, or just plain sugar by itself. If I had to pick sour or sweet, it'd be sweet hands down. I dunno why, but sweet things are so yummy >w< I can't resist them~. Of course though, I was just like, "So you want me to buy cake with you..." Anyways, long story short, I went with her to go buy cake XD. IT WAS FUN <33. We didn't know which bakery we wanted to go, so my dad just dropped us off at some random place on the street. In New York, there's tons of tiny shops everywhere. I swear, you can walk down two blocks, and pass by at least five different hair salons xD. In our case, there were about three (or three that we saw) bakeries on the street. LOL As we were walking towards one of them, we saw this really cute guy walking on the other side of the street. We were checking him out like total stalkers x3. We saw him walk into a bakery that wasn't the one we were going to, but we were like, 'Lets go there!' Yesh, cute guys have that kind of power over us XD. When we walked in, we got a better look at him. >w< I felt like fangirling. LOL I love going into stores with cute guys in it because they're always following you around or giving you their undivided attention just because you're the customer. I'm a terrible person, and likes to take advantage of that XDDD. However, you people know the kind of luck I have, so he can only speak Korean OTL damn me, and my stupid monolingual quality *shakes angry fist at sky. Ah haa~ but of course without shame, I was totally hitting on him x3. LOL and since I'm only fourteen, hitting on him equals staring and smiling =w=b. yup~, I fail ^3^. But he was cute, so what can I do? >w< I can't help myself. Nothing happened though, just smiled at him. Rin-chan was the lucky ducky who got to actually speak to him since she's Korean xD.

After we got cake, Rin-chan and I were being total two-timers by going to a different bakery to go eat. LOL Why didn't we just stay at the same bakery we got the cake? Well, there was a very good reason! That would be... it's awkward to eat in front of a cute guy. XD LOLOL Fail reason I know, but it's true! I mean, I'd so love to sit there and stare at that cute guy's face while I nibble on cake. It's just that his presence would make me so nervous XD. So yea, that's why we went to a different bakery to go eat bakery-goods. We decided to treat ourselves, and buy one of those mini, pretty cakes in the display windows. You know those cakes that you always want to get, but convince yourselves not to x3. They were only $4 each :D. Usually, they cost super expensive like $10 for a tiny, tiny piece xP. For some reason, Rin-chan felt that she owed me (I have no clue why D<), so she was going to buy it for me. Ah haa~, but like a true Asian >D I payed instead. LOL You know how Asian people always fight for the bill? LOL So we were like shoving money at the cashier lady, only to find out she wasn't the cashier lady XD Yea, we're stupid people sometimes. LOL So when the non-cashier lady pointed to the actual cashier lady, we both scrambled our way over to her. It was so funny, we were totally pushing each other and running. By the way, the distance we were from the cashier lady when we started racing was only five steps XDD. And but of course, I WON <33! LOL It was funny though because I was wearing heals, so I should've been slower than her xD. It was so awkward in the bakery though because there was a bunch of old people there. No young ones. So I felt old XD.

We shopped up and down the street a bit. (losing calories FTW! <3). There was this cute little thrift shop that had really adorable stuff. Everything was like $1! It was so cool because they had these adorable little tea-set type stuff, and I wanted to buy everything in that store >w<. LOL But if I brought that kind of stuff home, my dad would kill me xD.

I had a good time with Rin-chan today. It was hilarious XD. A lot of other weird crap happened today, but they were just one of those 'you had to be there to get it' kind of things. ^____^~. I'll just say we were loud, and probably a total public disturbance. But it was fun :)

I'm happy she was my first x3 .... LOLOL SORRY! XD I just can't say that with a straight face.

dirty minds FTW <3 XD

I'm Just Your Ordinary Fickle Woman Here, Okay?

Okay! So I have something to set straight here. I wasn't able to do it sooner because of all the stupid homework I have, but I shall talk about it now. As you should know, I have a very complicated plan for my career in the future. And I fear some of you have not fully understood what I was explaining. Therefore, I shall explain it further in a way that makes more sense. What I have written before might have been misleading or hard to understand since when I try to blog on weekdays, I usually do it half-assed and rushed, so please forgive me for the crappy quality of weekday blog entries!

Anyways, moving on!

A few days ago (like last week or so), I decided I wanted to start being a writer. However, from watching many movies (all my knowledge comes from movies XD), I know how unstable the job of a writer is. It's possible that I can pour my heart and soul into a writing piece, and still not be successful with it. Therefore, I have decided that I shall be both, a writer and robotics engineer.

Becoming a robotics engineer (or engineer of some sort really) is mostly my dad's dream. But please, do not get the wrong idea of this statement. It may have been my dad's idea at first, but I have come to love this idea. In truth, I honestly love science (Earth's science is really hard and annoying though xP). It's my second favorite topic! (math is first because without math, we are cavemen). I also have the crazy dream of wanting to build a Gundam too. I mean that is probably every Gundam fan's life long dream XD. Thus, being a robotics engineer won't be something terrible for me. I will probably actually enjoy it!

The thing is though, I just feel that... writing is fun too XD.

LOL SO IN CONCLUSION, I AM JUST A FICKLE WOMAN <3.

Ah haa~ with this said, I plan to be a robotics engineer as my career, and a writer as a part-time and/or side-job-ish thing. If I become super successful than I shall invest into one of my ideas for inventions or businesses x3. I actually have quite a few of those! I just can't share them because I haven't copyrighted it yet ^ ^;; ...I mean I don't want anyone stealing my really cool ideas :3.

Yesh, I know this plan is kind of crazy! But still! Do you think I care? I'm the kind of person who does whatever the hell I want. The kind of gal' that wings it for everything she does. I act on whims, and I'm quite irrational. I do things without thinking practically all the time. A person with no plan to life, and no rules to follow. That is me. This is who I am, so you better accept it or pack your bags and leave because I ain't changing for you or anybody else. x3

Oh, and by the way, I do also realize that this means I'm going to have to be skilled in both science/math and writing. But you know what? I don't care ^3^. What's the point in being skilled in one thing, when there's just so much out there in this massively beautiful world? What's wrong with learning everything? It may be a bit out of reach, but it's still possible, right? With a little bit of hard work, I'll be able to do it. I have hope.
I have confidence in myself :)

I'm told I need to find a passion, something I love to do.
Well... I guess my passion is learning.

Please, Dad, Just Let Me Be!

LOL Before I start talking about my incredibly boring fun ^__^ day, I shall state something to you all. If you have a little brother (or perhaps a little sister, depending on what kind of girl she is), NEVER. EVER. buy them fake, plastic bugs that look realistic as hell !! Nothing good will come out of it! The only thing that'll happen, is that one day, you will get the crap scared out of you!
Now, I shall explain this for those of you who have not experienced how scary or surprising fake bugs can be. So this story starts in the bathroom. Yes, the bathroom, the sanctuary of my home, and only place of solitude here. I was doing the innocent (and must I say, very hygienic and recommended x3) act of washing my hands. It was terrible T^T. Washing your hands is supposed to be a very good, and enjoyable experience, but I was met with something horrifyingly ...scary xP.

I mean I was singing a happy tune, and being in a totally good mood. But then I saw this.... >____>

Why that thing was there in my sink in the first place, I have no clue. But yea, I totally freaked out when I saw this. I was just like "Eeeep~. It's a bug!! >______<. Dad! Make it go away." My dad came rushing in when he heard my screaming. But it was just a false alarm ^ ^;;. He was just like "Idiot. It's only one of your brother's fake bugs =_____=." All I could say was, "geez. I didn't know ;_____;." I'm not sure what kind of bug this toy is supposed to look like, but it's pretty creepy. I wouldn't say I'm the kind of girl who screams at the sight of a bug... >____> but when one penetrates the safety of my home, I have this "get the hell out, you creepy-crawly intruders" attitude towards them. I mean they're just so gross O^O. However, when I'm outside, I'm totally cool with it. I mean it's me who's the one in their territory when I'm outside, so it's not right if I squash them or something :3


Anyways, moving on! I'ma talk about tomorrow because...well I feel like it. I can't really describe how I felt about yesterday. It was of great annoyance, and yet fun at the same time. There's a bit of stress mixed into all this as well :P. Stuff happened. I don't know. Somehow, I was brought into a melancholy mood all of a sudden. LOL been having bit of moodswings lately ^ ^;;. So please, anyone I've snapped at yesterday (particularly my sister >__<), please don't take it personally. And no, these moodswings are not caused by PMSing... =3=.

The only nice thing that really happened yesterday, was that I learned how to semi-double-dutch 8D. I mean it's really hard to double dutch >____<;;. I kept jumping in between the ropes, but they kept getting entangled with my feet ;____;. LOL I practically made a fool of myself. I tried so many darn times, and kept failing. I bet a lot of people didn't believe I could actually double dutch D; people have low expectations of meh (yet some have too high of expectations as well <__<). However, towards the end of gym class, I eventually got it! :D LOL I jumped in, and I was able to make five jumps, according to Gleek-kun. Ah haa~ just a little more practice, and I can be better ^____^. Ever since I was little, I've always loved jump roping (not as much nowadays though :P). It was sort of my hobby when I was in elementary school. I can jump really well with solo-jump roping. I can do things like the crisscross jump roping. Or walk and jump rope kind of thing. LOL I can do both crisscross and walking while jump roping 8D.  When you jump rope with the two people holding the rope for you, I can last for awhile (but I'm kind of rusty ^ ^;;). But for some reason, I just wasn't able to get the whole double dutch for some darn reason >3<. But now I've learned :D. oh ho ho~. I love to hula hoop too 8D. I beat the best fifth grader hula hooper in the third grade (^___^)v. LOL but that's a story for another time. hm... sigh, good memories :')

Ah, for high school, my dad wants me to join some kind of sports team. I was just planning on doing sports just as a fun thing. I mean doing sporty-activities are healthy for you... but >____> I'm really lazy, and not that interested in sports. I like sitting her, at my desk, in my own, sweet little world ^_^. My dad was really trying to convince me into joining a sports team. He wanted me to join track. I was like "Noooo~." Not because I look down on track or something, though. It's just that... I really suck at running ;A;. I can't run an entire block without getting tired XD;;. I think it has to do with my breathing habits. I have very irregular breathing (because I used to have asthma). I forgot how to explain it, but bad breathing habits can cause you to do things incorrectly. When I try super, super hard to breathe correctly, I can run for much longer than usual ^___^.

Ah haa~ but joining a sports team wouldn't be that bad. I mean sporty guys are cute x3 LOL so I'd increase my chances of meeting some xDD (jkk~). I mean, they're cute because like, you know…they’re athletically fit and all XD. …but not those bulky jock guys ;A; with their scary-large muscles. I find body-builder types really gross D; ...no offense btw ^ ^;;. I don't think I have a chance of joining any kind of sport team though. I'm average at everything, so nobody would want me XD. I mean, I'm a real fast learner, and I can probably become a lil' better than average in a short period of time... but >____> to fit time for that and all would be so tiring Dx. LOL so I think I'ma just focus on studying (^__^)v. I wonder how I'm going to convince my dad out of forcing me to join a  sport team >____>. Maybe, I'll just screw up the tryouts for them or something, so he'd have no choice but to let me be lazy XD. jk~.

Oh! By the way, I have something sad to tell you people. I wasn't going to say until later... mostly because I was just too lazy busy,  but I'ma share it with chu now because Gleek-kun keeps bothering me about it =____=. YES! That's right, Gleek-kun. You've been bothering me with your nonesense. Anyways, explaining that will take too long, so I'ma just stick to the original topic. The sad thing I have to say is that, my dad totally rejects the idea of me being a writer ;_______; //sobsobcryyy. I told him awhile ago, earlier than I had wanted to. (And no, I did not tell him while I was doing laundry xP). He was surprised, but he tried not to show it. I could tell though because I am his daughter after all. He didn't tell me directly, but I know my dad pretty well, and I can get the hint whenever the subject comes up. Plus, he has said things bluntly like, "I can't believe you're giving up on science already," or "You say you want to become a writer, but you don't do __(insert random thing I have to learn here)___?" So yea =____= he pisses me off sometimes. Just to calm his stupid butt down, I was just like, "Stop with the complaining." And he started to whine, "I'm not complaining!" I just gave him a '=____=' face, and said "Writing is like a plan B option. You know, just in case. I want to keep my options open."

>_________> that was the only thing I could say to shut him up. My dad sometimes underestimates my ability to make my own decisions. I mean I truly do want to become a writer. So far, I've made good progress. But he was expecting some great engineer, scientist, or computer-type thing out of me. It's like I'm sorry, but... ;A;. Sigh. I dunno! I like the idea of becoming a scientist, and I like being the idea of a writer. GAH! I can't pick >_____<. I'll just do both. Yup =3=b that'll be my plan. I'll work hard to do both. It can't be too much work. Can it xP?

A Bit of Rambling Doesn't Hurt.

Today, I'm thinking about doing the laundry again. I mean it's the least I can do as a child of this house. Plus, my sister is too god damn lazy to help my dad, so I'm the only one left up to it  XD. Not sure if I'm going though. My dad wants my sister to learn how to do laundry whether she's lazy or not. I kind of like doing laundry though, and won't mind if I end up going instead. I don't know, it's kind of fun doing laundry with my dad. I have him all to myself for a few hours. While folding clothes, I have time to think. In a way, doing laundry is kind of relaxing, despite it being manual labor. I feel the same way with dishes. I like doing chores oddly enough. LOL I think that's the female part in me XD. Women likes to do chores when they're angry or something. I can understand why now ^3^. So who knows, I might fight to go do laundry instead of my sister XD. Well, dunno if I'm that into doing chores. LOL I mean work is work, and work is tiresome :P. But I guess I won't know if I'm going or not until later. No point in worrying about it now, since dad won't be leaving for the laundromat until an hour or so from now.

I started reading my Gundam 00 manga this morning. So far, I'm spazzing on practically ever page. LOL Which is another reason for why I got volume one. I knew from the anime that Setsuna would probably be in it a lot. At the store, they had the volumes from where Lock-on died. The one where they focus on Tieria. And the one with Ribbons Almark. If I was going to buy manga, I wanted to buy a good one! So I bought the first volume because it's where they do all the introductory stuff. And Setsuna is in it most ^_________^. Oh ho ho~~. I love Setsuna's face. He's just so cute >w<. In this volume, he's supposed to be portrayed as young though, so he doesn't look as sexy as he should be D; but it's alright because he's lovable no matter what ^3^.
Ah haa~ now, I own two manga books 8D. Gundam 00. and D. Grayman. both volume one, season one. LOL D. Grayman is the first manga book I got. I didn't even know what the hell it was at the time. My idiot mom bought it for me because she doesn't know crap about anime. even after I've rambled on and on to her about which ones I like >__<. LOL But I like D. Grayman, so it's okay. Anyways, I love my Gundam manga ^3^. I am so happy~. so very very happy~. ~ \(^o^)\ ~*does a happy dance*~ /(^o^)/ ~ Setsuna is just so awesome >w<. And LOL I LOVE GRAHM AKER TOO! <333 Setsu x Grahm yaoi pairing is so fun 8D. It's my favorite out of this series. LOL I think Lock-on x Setsu is weird. Tieria x Setsu is even weirder >__<. And don't even think about putting Setsuna with Allelujah XP. Ah haa~ but besides Setsu x Graham yoai. I also like Lock-on x Tieria and Allelujah x Hallelujah pairings ^_____^. Setsu x Grahm is just my favorite is all  <3.
By now you should know that I absolutely HATE Setsu x Marina pairings. >O< I HATE IT!
LOL Not because Marina hits on Setsu all the god damn time. Not because Marina is a pedophile since she's like 8 years older than him. And Not for any other reason you think so.
It's because she's so damn stupid =_____=. She's so stupid, I don't even want to waste my time explaining how stupid she is. I really like her assistant lady though 8D. LOL I don't remember her name, but she was Marina's adviser or something. That lady is so badass >w<. LOL I don't blame her for leaving Marina in order to join a rebellion group XD.

See, most people think I don't like Setsu x Marina pairing because she's a female who's paired up with Setsuna or something like that.
BUT! That is not true. I don't hate her because of that. like I said, I hate her because she's a dumbass.
You can know that I do not hate her for such a stupid reason like her being a female paired up with Setsuna because I am totally fine with Setsu x Feldt pairings.
Feldt is so cute >w<. LOL I find her adorable ^___^. And she's not stupid like Marina D<. So Ha! to all those who disbelieve my reason for not liking Setsu x Marina pairings.

LOL Anyways, enough about my Gundam nonsense XD. I shall continue on with this blog entry~.
Me and Rin-chan our going to become collaborators with each other ^______^. Yup, we were talking late one night, and totally came up with this ingenious idea for a book !! :D. So we're thinking about working together to write it. But don't worry! I'm still going to continue writing my original book. I haven't given up on that ^w^. Rin-chan is an incredible writer too :D so this book will come out to be epic x3.

Oh, I just heard that I am going to the laundromat. OKay, so I can't blog anymore.
Gotta run.
Ciasu~!!

To Her House I Go !

I went to Luka-chan's house today :D !! And it was fun as hell ! x3
LOL I think I almost died though!! We're both trying to lose weight (if any of you still remember), so she tries to make me go up stairs or run as much as possible. She totally kills me sometimes XD.

Okay, now where to start? Ah, I'll start with the food she served me :'D.
All the Black Butler fans reading this now will totally understand what I'm about to say ^_________^.
I ate curry .... WITH CHOCOLATE <333. LOL. We were going to get curry buns (because curry buns are badass <3), but we didn't have enough time to D; I'll tell why soon.

Anyways, I shall explain my experience of eating chocolate curry.
I hear (from Luka-chan) that a lot of people think it's disgusting. BUT ! I have a different opinion on this :3.
I admit, the first bite was really weird. Like I had a total "O___O wtf is this?" kinda face. Luka-chan even started laughing because my expression was so weird XD. However, chocolate curry is honestly not that bad. I think I still prefer regular curry, but chocolate curry isn't as gross as most people make it out to be :>. It was an interesting experience. That's all I can really say :3.

After curry eating, we went out shopping <333. LOL Because I'm a girl ^____^. Ah haa I may live in a 'cave' and I don't go out that often, and I suck at all household chores, and I bring shame to the entire female race, and I'm not that girly, and ...yea I lost my point. What was I talking about? Oh yea, I went shopping because it's fun XD. Plus~ I have to get gifts for meh epicly epicc~ friends <333. We went all over the place. I really love the city! There's so many nice stores so close together. We were getting a gift for X-chan <3333 because she's damn epic and deserves a gift!! We went to so many stores, but we couldn't find anything TT^TT. We finally gave up hope, and called her, and interrogated her. We decided to get her something sonic-related because she really loves sonic. It was insane. We went to the nearest anime store (another thing I love about New York. They have anime shopsss <3. LOL Nevada doesn't D; which suckedd). LOL Anyways, since I only had like an hour and half left to spend with Luka-chan, we ran all the way to the Anime store. We didn't know which direction it was, so we tried asking this old lady. We didn't expect her to know what the anime store was so we named a popular thing next to it, and she was like "Oh just go two blocks down this way." And we started running in that direction, but it was the wrong way ;______;. So we asked these two other girls, and we finally got there. I ran for like ten blocks straight! MY LEGS DIED

I would mention what I got for X-chan, but I'm not really sure if she reads my blog or not, so I don't want to spoil it just in case ^w^. OH! I also got something else for another friend x3. I know she reads my blog, so I definitely can't say. But she'll be happy :D. Which makes me happy :'D.

AND OH MY GAWSH !!! GUESS WHAT?!??!?! ///dies before I can say itt.
I AM SO HAPPY!!

I got some cool stuff while at the anime store too! I LITERALLY JUMPED WITH JOY when I bought it! <33. Guess what I got at this store? I mean what anime-type thing could really make me happy? Do you  people know me well enough to guess right? ^_________^

I got

...*pauses for dramatic effect*


I GOT GUNDAM MANGA <333 HELL YEA !!! \(^O^)/

 Ah haa~. I took a picture of the manga !! I got the first volume of the first season <33. And while I took a picture of it, I decided to take a picture of my binder~. LOL Btw that extremely neon pink stuff on it is duck tape. My binder was like falling apart, but I was lazy to get a new binder. My dad was like "Just put duck tape on it." And I was like "Okay." But like I said, I was lazy, so I asked my dad to do it. However, my dad was lazy too, so he had my sister do it. She, of course, grabbed this incredibly eye-soaring pink duck tape xP. But other than that, my binder is epic. You know why? Yup, you guessed it. It's because Setsuna is on it <33333. LOL By the way, I have no artistic talent at all. Therefore, that picture you see on it, was traced by me XD. Yea, I can't draw for life, so I've become pretty good at tracing things :>. I haven't read it yet, but I shall, and it'll be so much fun. ^3^.

I also took a picture of the back of the manga <333. I would've taken pictures of some of the pages inside the manga, but I believe that is illegal due to copyright and all that crap xP.

Anyways, I am happy C:

BUT I WAS SO PISSED OFF!!
When I went to that store, Gundam 00 manga was placed in the 20% off section. LIKE WHAT THE HELL?? D:<
Gundam should be a top seller. ;___________; but it's not as popular as it used to be. Gundam does have a lot of fans though. Just not as new as animes like Bleach and stuff, so... well I don't know why Gundam isn't popular, but it kinda is at the same time. So I dunno~.

Anyways, if I were to die now, I'd die happily <3.

LOL Now, all I have to get is a Kat-Tun product, and I will officially be the happiest person on this lovely Earth ^_____^.

I Love You! ♥

Today, I had a great hair day! :'D
...okay, that's all for today folks. ciao~.

Ah haa~ just kidding ^____^.

LOL I would never write something so short, it just isn't in my nature :3
Today, I am going to talk about how much people love me.
Yup, I am going to be really conceited today.
Why? Because if people don't get to act conceited once in awhile, we would all eventually die was low-self esteem or something sad like that. So please, let me have my conceited moment today. I feel like complimenting myself with no shame today x3. Whether what I'm about to say about myself is true or not, I really don't care. It'll just be fun to say ^___^. and as I talk like a narcissist, I am going to listen to Kat-Tun music ♥ (and you should too!). oh ho ho~.

So like I said, people love me! <333. I love being loved :'D. LOL because I give out my love to all the awesome people in my life, so it's only fair I get loved in return ^____^. Ah haa~ like people say, "love and be loved" and then there's some other stuff that goes along with that quote, but I can't remember what it was (and I am honestly too lazy to go google it xD).
Oh, how do I know people love me? Because I am EMIKO SEIEI, duh! JK XD
You can tell when you are loved when people lie for your sake :'). LOL that is only sort of true! But anyways, it's really because a lot of people apparently missed me when I was absent from school yesterday~.
Rin-chan said that without me at school things just didn't seem right ^____^.
And Choco-chan said that it wasn't as lively without me there :'D. Ah haa~ this is because I am the life to the party! LOL well maybe I don't bring life to the entire party. I admit that it is really a collective effort of everyone in the group that can make hanging out fun. However, without my charm, things don't go so smoothly x3 (not really.. xD;;).
I did get a few people who said they missed me or noticed my absence. It was weird! My school security guard even noticed I was gone. I don't even know the guy! LOL He was like "Oh, look, Emiko is finally back~." and I was just like "Who the hell are you?" but that was what I was thinking. In reality, I smiled awkwardly, and ran away XD. But he said something about how everyone was wondering where I was, and he heard a bunch of people in the office talking about my absence. I was just like "O____O;" because I don't really do anything worth remembering, so I dunno why the office people knew I was gone. They must all be a bunch of lunatic stalkers or something xP. I went to the lady who's in charge of absent letters, and she said the same thing! "You aren't absent often, are ya, Emiko? Everyone was wondering where you were, and was worried. I heard your name buzzing around the office." My math teacher said my classmates couldn't believe I was absent. Yet a lot of them thought I skipped out on school to finish up projects last minute XD.

Even some random substitute knew I was absent yesterday! I can't quite remember what he said, but he asked me about it. ^ ^;;

O____________O It's scary how this kind of thing happens to me.

I have come to two conclusions though.
I either have a super ugly face everyone remembers or my name is so strange that people just remember it more than others. (my real name is quite strange and literally one of a kind.)
or a third conclusion, my school is small? (I dunno. does a school with 800-something students count as small?)

LOL I mean there's no other reason why anyone would remember me >_____>. I'm just a plain nerd who does a bit of volunteer work around the building xP.

I hear I make an impression on people, but I don't see how.
My dad says it's because I have his "cool genes." Yea my dad is a narcissistic person too~ xD.
 I mean I am pretty awesome, but not this awesome.

Yesh, so this small amount of 'popularity' (if you can really call it that) is getting to my head slightly, but don't worry. I won't let it take over :>

Anyways, I'm happy people care about me ^________^. I'm glad I make an impression on people :)
I mean I always wonder what kind of influence I have on others. I would really just like if people remembers me, even in the slightest bit. Being remembered means I made some kind of impact. I love seeing people smile, so I hope when people think of me, they smile :).

Therefore, in conclusion,
I love getting compliments because I get this nice fluttery feeling in my heart.
I love making people smiling.
I love that people love me because I love people.
And most of all, I love you!

^______^ ah haa~ now hearing that you have my love, just makes your day, ne?
If not, just let me believe so XD. Make a young teen happy~.

Bumper Stickers are Sticky

Today was.. um. interesting ^ ^;;
First off, my morning started with me almost getting hit by a car
But before that, I did stay up until 3 a.m. in the morning D;
And after the car thing, I couldn't walk, and almost fell down! My dad said I looked drunk >___<"
OOH! But wayy before staying up until 3 a.m., I went to an open house at Bronx.
And oh gawd, it's like I have ADHD or something since I'm talking randomly~.

LOL So I'm going to start.. from the bronx science open house :'D

I had a lot of fun! The school is huge! And I think I was a total public disturbance there XD.
I went to the auditorium for some speech thing, and they had the coolest auditorium seats! They have little desk things attached to it! LOL I don't have that in my middle school, so it was cool xD. I don't know why I think this.

AND OOH! I GOT A BUMPER STICKER <3

sry ;__; my photography skills are crappy, and so this is a bad picture xP

LOL I don't know why, but that amazed me XD. I like bumper stickers for some reason. They're just so.. sticky ^w^ //mentally stupid aura flows around endlessly~ <-that made no sense xD;;.
Anyways, I went to the open house with Nyu-san and Jessa-chan. It was fun! :D But like I said, I think we, *cough* I mean I, was a public disturbance XD. LOL I realized that I am quite loud. I kept poking fun at the student information stuff, and how wonderfully green the folder carrying all the papers were xD. I also made a big deal about the nicely decorated ceiling that had symmetrically polygonal shapes on it. So yea, as you can see, I was bored XD. And bugging the hell out of Nyu-san. Ah~ and while there, Jessa-chan discovered the possibility of a boy who I knew in sixth grade that might be coming to bronx as well. I hope he doesn't though! That boy sat behind me in math class, and threw crayons at me!! ;___; because boys are mean like that.
LOL At the pretty inspiring speech they gave us, I saw the principal! She was corny xD. She was like "Ugh, I can't see up here. Is it the spot light? Oh wait, no, it's the brilliant glow from all your smiles" Or something like that. LOL It was funny though xD. She tried to explain how close the students are with her with a joke, but nobody laughed. I felt bad for her since she even tried to re-explain the joke ^ ^;;. Anyways, after the speech, we were given a tour of the school. And of course, with my beautiful luck, my tour guide was super cute ^___________^. . . . b-but like I said my luck is "beautiful", and he was gay OTL. I would mention how I know, but that might cause some trouble, so I won't say. LOL BUT THAT SUCKS. Anyways, I have this terrible sickness called smart-ass syndrome. LOL So I was basically asking stupid questions the whole time 8D. It's hard to explain unless you were there, but it was fun ^____^. He was so adorable though :'D... but too bad I can't remember what the hell his name is XD. Yup, I epicly fail~.

LOL looked around at the male freshmans during my tour too. Ah haa~ my luck just keeps getting more and more beautiful xP. I was only able to spot like one or two OTL. Damn. But it was dark, and troublesomely crowded, and hopefully my eyesight sucks or something too. *crosses fingers and dreams* XD lolol.
But what I loved was on the wall of random posters, there was LUFFY! <333 everyone's favorite One Piece character :'D. LOL So my people do exist at this nerdy school <3 (my ppl = anime fans btw :>).

I also got this bad-ass water bottle thing 8D. LOL I love what it says x3. Ah haa~ if you don't get it than too bad :3. My dad got it because he wanted a suvenior to remember the event XD.
And then after all is done and fun, we left for home.
I worked on my homework, and that's why I stayed up until 3 a.m. ;_______;


In the morning though, I felt sick and dysfunctional. Maybe my heart was still getting over the fact that guy was gay. LOLOL JKKK! XDDD He wasn't that cute xD. Anyways, I at least tried to go to school today. I woke up, and got ready. However, I almost died trying to do that. My dad usually drives me to school, but we parked kinda far from the house, so we had to cross some streets. I was barely able to walk in a straight line, nor was I able to focus on my surroundings. Thus, when I was crossing the streets, I was nearly killed :P. Luckily, people don't drive that fast on my street, and was able to stop in time. I was so unfocused and sick that I didn't even notice that a car almost hit me until my dad told me, and I heard a loud honking sound. But I was so out of it that I didn't even react to the honking! Sigh. So my dad forced me to stay home (well maybe not so much as forced.) XD. lol.

I was dropped off back at home, and I slept until noon.
I didn't have homework to do today, so I totally slacked off, and now I'm writing this.

LOL but now it's like midnight, and my dad is nagging me to go to sleep.
So even though I had a bit more to say, I'll save it for later ;)

Good night~ <3

I'm Stupid 8D

"You're stupid" -says my sister

"I know." -I reply

"What? You're not supposed to agree."

"I'd be stupid if I didn't agree."

Do you guys get it? x3. LOL I want you to think about it for awhile~.
It's inspiring ;D ...or I'm just crazy xD

Oh dear, I, being poor, have only my dreams...

Ah ha~ It's my second post today :D. LOL I don't usually post twice, but oh well.
While out doing laundry, I bought this cute notebook :D.
It's green, and adorable. LOL this is so random, but I felt like sharing ^___^.
So uh.. enjoy looking at pictures of it XD.

On the cover, it says this really nice quote :D.
LOL It kinda doesn't make sense, but it sounds nice XD.

I ain't poor though... just middle class-ish :>. Ah haa but don't worry, I know it doesn't mean poor poor. I just like stating random things :3. LOL But I like this quote. It sounds nice. except I don't really know why someone would lay their dreams under someone's feet >__>.

Oooh, while out, I also bought something nice for Rin-chan's birthday ^^ which isn't happening until April... But oh well xD. LOL. I want to give it to her nowww. Sigh, but I have to be patient.
I hate getting a gift early for people because I can never wait to give it to them.
I'm a very impatient person :3. Haha and the person can also never wait for me to give them their gift, so I always feel so tempted to give them their gift early.

Haha but one thing I never do is tell them what their gift is before I give it to them. I have this strong belief in keeping birthday gifts a surprise. I don't know why ^ ^;;. Like I think the whole fun of getting a birthday gift is trying to guess what it is. And I love seeing the person's face when they get their gift :D. But when you tell the person what their gift is before they get it, you can't see their surprised face. I believe spoilers are no fun, so I don't tell spoilers ^^. There's that reason, and because I just like keeping people in suspense, and generally torturing them xD.
I think Rin-chan will like her gift though :) so I can't wait to give it to her. Hmm..I wonder how I'm going to wrap her gift. I always like wrapping the gift because gift wrapping is so pretty ^w^.

I'm Not an Old-Lady Laborer!

LOL Today I tried my hand at doing the laundry at one of those public places XD. I think they're called laundromats or something :P.

Yup, when I was little, I used to live in a house that hand a washer and dryer already. That's why, I've never really been to a public one until now. My grandma usually does the laundry, so even though I've been living here for awhile, I've never had to go. But my grandma went on a trip to Taiwan for a month, so now my dad and I is stuck doing all the household chores and stuff (because my lil' sister is a lazy hobo, and my other two brothers are too young :P). Now don't get the wrong impression of me! I'm not some old-lady laborer or something!! I used to do the laundry when I was little (since I was like seven or something), but when we moved to New York, my grandma started doing that kind of stuff because she doesn't trust me! TT^TT //sob. LOL But seriously, my grandma is the type of person who likes doing things herself because she has this uneasy feeling that something is wrong when it's done by others. So doing laundry again is so weird.
I remember when I was little, I used to like sitting on my washer. LOL It was like a carnival ride 8D shaking and everything. Today, I had to fold clothes and everything. It was kinda fun 8D. My dad referred to folding clothes as an 'art'. I was just like "you're crazy." but I still tried to fold them prettily ^_____^. ...My dad totally pwned my ass though OTL. I CANT FOLD FOR LIFE . Don't worry though! My dad is still more manly than womanly. so don't insult my dad =3=. i'll kill~ ya if ya do).

Oh yea, by the way my grandma went to Taiwan because my great grandpa died. ;_____; it was so sad. Especially since the last time I saw him was...when I was born >___>. By the way, the funeral doesn't last for an entire month. xD lol that's what I thought when my dad told me. It's because she's there, so she minus well spend a mini vacation ..or something like that. I don't quite remember the reasoning my dad told me xD. I could have gone too because I'm special like that :'D. LOL but I didn't want to go to a funeral ^ ^;;. You know how sad it would be if I meet great-grandpa again through a funeral? I think I'd start bawling if I did D': it'd be so sad. I also don't have any fancy white clothes to wear to the funeral ^ ^;; (Chinese people wear white, not black~). Plus, I can't really miss an entire month of school >___>... But going to Taiwan sounds nice :D LOL I'll go next time to Taiwan I guess xD when there isn't a funeral ^ ^;. You know... I've never actually been to a funeral before though. It seems so depressing :'< from what I see on movies and stuff //>__>. Before my grandma left, I saw one of my great-aunts :D. It was so cool seeing her. We looked so alike O___O it freaked me out. LOL well all Asians look alike 8D ha ha jkk~. It has to do with family genes and stuff. I'm not stupid :>. I LOVE MY GREAT AUNT THOUGH !! She gave me $50 :'D. LOL I wanted to hug her, but we're not that close and she left TT^TT. I felt so offended when I out stretched my arms, and she just walked away xD;;. LOL Well, I guess you gotta count the fact that she turned before she saw me open my arms for a hug ^ ^;; //epic fail.

OOH! My book is going great too by the way 8D. LOL I might actually finish it before summer ends! I want to try and finish before school ends because my English teacher said that if anyone writes any extra/non-school assignment thing, he would want to read it. LOL I wanna make my book super long, and bug the crap out of him with making him read it >D because I'm mean like that (i'm a sadist :>). It's not like I don't like my English teacher. I just feel the need to torture him for... oh wow... I really have no reason to torture him D: that's so odd because I usually have reasons for toturing teachers >__>. hm..strange.
LOL Well either way, I'ma just try and finish it. Not really that set on trying to show my teacher because he's kinda scary :<. He has these eyes that kind of bulge out, and so when he's mad, he looks like really mad. He probably doesn't do it on purpose, but that doesn't change the fact that he's scary looking >__>..

where are your hips?

FINALLY! I've found time to blog~! :'D It's been like almost a whole week since the last time I blogged. And I'm terribly sorry for making you guys wait that long!! A lot happened this week, so I wasn't able to blog. Haha, but now I'm probably going to explain everything, so don't be surprised if this post turns out to be long.
The action of this week started on Wednesday and continued on from there. I think I'll start backwards today though (meaning I'll go from Friday to Wednesday).

Okay, so Friday was a pretty kick-ass day. I had a lot of fun, and for some reason, I was in a terribly great mood :D ! It was weird for me to be in such a great mood when I had a math test that day. Ah! But I think I did well on it :) so maybe that's why. Anyways, I had a lot of fun during lunch of Friday. I learned stuff!
Do you know where your hips and waist are? Point to them! Now since I can't really show you whether you're right or not, go google it! xD. You kinda have to google it too because I don't know where my hips and waist are TT^TT //sob sob failss. LOL I don't know why, but I think my hips are where my waist is, and my waist is where my hips are. I mean I know which is which, but for some reason whenever you ask me "Where are your hips?" I'll point to my waist ^ ^;;. Yeaa... I'm stupid >__>. But it was funny because everyone started asking me "Where are your hips?" like every ten minutes, and I still kept getting it wrong xD;;. Then they started testing me on weird things I've never heard of!! It was seriously unfair! Like who the hell knows what a 'collar bone' or 'calf' is? Okay >___> so maybe a lot of people do. But what about the six (or so) major arteries? LOL Okay so yea all my friends were able to name it, so you probably can too >___>. Yea I don't know the human body OTL //fails. ^ ^;; well now I feel stupid XD. You know what else I learned? Babies don't come out from your butt! Did you know that? They come out from where they went in. I DIDNT KNOW THAT! /SHAMEFUL D; I fail like really fail. For my whole entire life, I thought you poop babies out when you go into labor. To find out that's not true was just so shocking :T destroyed all logic I've learned thus far!! ALL LOGIC O^O. And did you know your foot is the same length as your forearm?? During lunch, X-chan told me that, and all of us actually put our foot up, and measured it. It's true! What has the world come to? TT^TT. The waist isn't the hips. Babies aren't pooped out. Your foot is the length of your forearm. The funny bone isn't actually a bone! It was just too much to learn in one day! I think I fried my brain :O !! On Friday, I also fell off my chair in science class XD. LOL Just felt like mentioning more of my fail moments. I was trying to read the homework off the board, so I learned back in my chair. We sit on those stool-type chairs by the way. I accidently leaned back to far, and BAM. I fell right off, with a loud "WAHHH~". Everyone saw, it was hilarious XD. It's always funny when I fall :3 because I have the tendency to make loud, weird noises when I do. Luckily, I didn't hurt my head :D if I did it probably wouldn't have mattered because I killed all living brain cells in it a long time ago xD.

Thursday was fun too I think. We did...we...oh wow O__O I don't know what I did on Thursday. Oh gosh, I'm totally drawing a blank here. I don't know what happened... so I'ma skip Thursday 8D. LOL.

Wednesday was great! Now...I can't really go on talking about Wednesday without mentioning a few things... Luckily, with permission from my dad, I am allowed to tell you 8D. Yup yup. It's about my age :3. Supposedly, I am now old enough to out-smart the creepy stalkers/pedophiles/weirdos on the internet. Okay so how to say this.. gently? I'm a 65 year old lady 8D  !! A superly bad ass 65 year old at that too!. LOLOL JK Yea that was lame xD;
Anyways, you know that test I took awhile back in October? Well that was something called the SHSATs, specialized high school ..something.. test. LOL I don't know what the 'a' stands for xD. It probably stands for something like "assessment" or something. There's these schools in meh city (if you're smart, you'll know which city that is) that are for like the 'best of the best' or something like that :V. It's just a place where they send all the nerdy people to XD. Anyways, I wanted to get into one of these brain-y schools, so I took the test. And guess what?! I GOT INTO... *suspense*.. a really crappy regular school D: and failed the test.
LOL JK <3 ! I actually got into the second best one out of the eight or so ones that exist v(^o^) victory~!
Ah haa and if you're smart enough (or just a new yorker) to know which high school that is, don't even think about trying to stalk me at that school! because it's highly unlikely. There's like 3,000 other kids there >D oh ho ho~. LOL So yea funny story about when I got my test results.
You know when they give you the envelope with all the information in it? And they always tell you to not open it until you get home? Well they did that for us, and since we're all a bunch of goody-goodies we didn't open it. However, since we're all nerds, we found a way to bend around that 'don't open until you're home' rule 8D. We just looked at the back of the envelope, and saw through the paper XD. LOL. When I tried looking back on mine, I saw the "B" and the "R" and the "O". So since I have no confidence in myself whatsoever, I didn't think I could make it into the second best. So I thought I got into Brooklyn Tech. But then I realized "wait! This word is too short to be Brooklyn" So I kept reading. It was Bronx Science. I started freaking out! And kept reading it over and over again. It was crazy.
Ah haa but I epicly failed too. Because last year's cut off score to get into Bronx Science was a score of 520 (out of 800) and I got a score of 521. XD Ah haa, lucky meh.
Unfortunately, Wednesday caused me to be super happy and incredibly sad at the same time!

MY FRIENDS AND I WILL BE SEPARATED

Luka-chan got into the top school. And I already declared my passionately undying hatred for her because she's leaving me TT__________TT. My bestie will be gonneeeeee. I won't see her everyday anymore //sob sob /cries. Who else am I gonna molest everyday?! ....>___> Wait did I just type that? ^____^ yea well ignore that then. She lives like 15 blocks away from my house though, so it's all good 8D. Oh ho ho~. So I'll still be able to stalk her x3 //is starting to sound creepy~. Choco-chan got into a super good school too! A very desired school :D. BUT NOT IN MY SCHOOL
BUT GUESS WHAT?! MY DEAR CRICK IS COMING WITH ME!! YAY~!!! <333 //jumps with joy. I knew we were destined to be together TTwTT //cries tears of joy. The red string of fate forever intertwines our paths <33. I mean if my hubbie didn't come with me, I'd miss her so very much! We're gonna be riding the subway together to the school and back :'D. Me and Crick together forever~ ^////^.
LOL But Jessa-chan is gonna be with us. so it won't be just the two of us D': //sad. Nyu-san is happy about that. She refuses to believe that we share the same red string on our pinkies :<. But that's okay because I still love her ^______^. It's great news that my dear, Crick, is coming to my school. But guess what? There are five people that make me not want to go to this school despite how good it is =3=. Sigh. Good thing there's like 3,000 people there, so very little chance I'll run into them too often. But with my crappy luck, I'll probably be stuck with the same schedule with at least three of them. Yup, I predict that! I'll be tortured with the sight of at least three of them in my schedule somewhere.
But back to the being separated from friends thing. We've been together for three epic years. We've gotten to know each other and grown really close. We're so close, it's like we can talk telepathically. We got our own code language. Oh our code language. That is something I'll miss.
"How long was the taco burning?"
"Apachitears"
TT^TT //sentimental.

You know for our code language, we didn't even have to discuss it. One of us can just start talking in the most obscure way, and instantly understand and reply in the same way. Me and Luka-chan were real good at that.

Basically, we understand each other in a way that can never be duplicated.

I mean where the hell in Bronx will I meet other incredibly crazy as hell people who are obsessed with anime, can openly admit their love for yoai, watch the corset scene from Black Butler even though it's like second-hand porn, be okay with being molested (on the head, cheek, thigh, hand, arm, stomach, and leg), and fight over stuff like what color sweet potatoes are???

I say nowhere. You can't find people like the ones I've come to known now because they are just too damn unique. I love them, and would give up my life to save any of them any day. <3 So I swear, if we all meet again four or so years later from now, and they've turned into some bitchy-ass mongrels, I'll slap the living shit out of them and make sure they never find their left shoes ever again! *cough. sorry for the French. especially since if translated into literal terms it's kinda weird XD.

Hm.. Hopefully~ we won't have to part, and find a way to stay together. It sounds nice... staying together. I wonder what will happen..

Oh, and while I'm blogging, I minus well share some more stuff despite how long this is post is becoming.
You people should watch Psych. Yea, I was watching it this afternoon. That show just never stops entertaining me :'D. LOL This was random, but still, go check it out x3. Some good dramas to watch would be Skip-Beat (taiwanese version), Nobuta wo Produce, and Yankee-kun to Megane-chan. I'm in the process of watching those right now, and I love them x3. Especially Nobuta wo Produce. It was Kazuya Kamenashi in it ♥. I just love him. He's so cool >w< ! Next drama I'm planning on watching is One Pound Gospel... because it has Kazu-kun in it! ...plus I hear it's pretty good xD.