The Programming World Greets Me

So, after years and years of my dad trying to convince me to start programming, I've finally decided to start. He's a computer programmer for a living, and sees immense benefit for me to start getting into it. mainly the positive factors being the numerous new opportunities it provides and undiscovered regions it contains.

I'm learning C# so far. The "C# Fundamentals: Development for Absolute Beginners" on Microsoft Virtual Academy is really helping me get there. haha. Easy step-by-step from the ground up videos beautifully set up for the public to watch. I love the internet! XD Hoping to later begin to learn basic application building from there.

This is something I'm really serious about doing though! Haha, unlike before when I said I'd inspiringly learn the piano or violin or something like that. I'm one hard to motivate. xD //shhh. The determination is set because I'm taking a class basically for Intel STS at my school (the class is called Physical Science Research, but we hopefully lead into Intel. lol).

I haven't been blogging much, but maybe I'll start talking about my programming travels. haha.

So far, I've started on the first two videos of the C# Fundamentals (hopefully I'll get done with more tonight though >3<...). AND IT'S SO FRUSTTRATING. LOL. The second video starts to actually begin the coding stuff of C#, by teaching to first work with the Notepad to make "Hello World" pop up. I followed everything the guy said, and it didn't work for some reason. I don't know why, and I became enraged. I'm going to try until it works! My dad tried to make me feel better by saying using Notepad is harder than using an actual program thing (don't know terms yet, so I'll be saying "thing" a lot in the beginning xD...). BUT I DONT CARE. If someone else can do it, I want to as well! lol plus, school computers have Notepad, so I want to be able to figure it out. I have access to a computer during like three periods of the day. haha. Not only am I taking a Physical Science Research course, but a computer science one as well. (and chemistry. why the fawk am I taking three sciences as a sophomore? idk. I'm crazy lol). Anyways, tonight I'm going to try again.

I tried doing it on the Visual Studio (this program thing from Microsoft) as well, but it turned out I got the web edition when I was supposed to get the desktop version. (ehehh ^^;;). so I got frustrated with that too, and didn't make much progress. LOL I thought I was just dumb, and programming didn't like me because I couldn't make it do the simplest thing of saying "Hello World". sigh.

I'm going to figure it out tonight, and post some more ;w;. because I want it to say Hello to meeeee.

Easy to Win. Hard to Keep.

My heart will instantly swoon for any guy for any one of the reasons below:

1. Laughs at my jokes.
2. Compliments me in anything (appearance, wits, ability, etc.)
3. Pretends that he cares when I ramble on (about things like my love for bakery goods).
4. Has nice, warm, big hugs!
5. Can smolder like Flynn Rider from Tangled. XD LOL.
6. Makes me laugh three times in one sentence.
7. Dresses stylishly. B-)
8. Brings me into daring, spontaneous situations (that doesn't kill me and are fun).
9. Spams corny lines at me.
10. Attempts to catch fuzzies on the street. ♥
11. Loves children.
12. Can match my witty, sassy remarks. But still lets me win.
13. Has gorgeous hair ;w;
14. Has green eyes
15. Is positive and outgoing :D

LOL. Nairb has like 10 of the 15 :) ....unsure about number 5. so its 10 or 11. XD. But that's more than 60%, so that's why he's my boyfriend~. (66%, but shhh). hehee.

Buuut, although I fall in love easily, it's really super duper difficult for me to stay in love with someone. particularly boys. LOL I can lovee any guurl forevs. Only reason why I'd stop is if she backstabbed me or took my last cookie. It's hard for me to continuously love a guy for a long time is because one little thing can make me wanna just drop them like nothing. It could be because I got bored~ or something about them totally went against my principles or I found an annoying trait I just can't stand. I can fall for you easy, and I can stand back up easy.

Keeping Emiko goes as follows:

1. Surprise me. Be spontaneous. Become too predictable, and it's an O-U-T.
2. Keep my confidence level up. LOL Make me feel like shit, and I'm out the door.
3. Don't be too much smarter than me. Don't be too much dumber than me.
4. Work like you have to win me over everyday. LOL I like feeling special. xD
5. Be as loyal as I am to you :O
6. Always compete to love me more than I do you.
7. Pay attention. Listen. Remember what I tell you. I feel like I'm talking to bricks if you forget.
8. Talk to me when I'm mad. Talk to me when you think I might be mad (because I probably am).

I'm pretty sure there's more, but I can't think of any.

I've only had 2 (official) relationships so far. Second one is going pretty awesome. Dun wanna say how many Nairb has on the "ways to keep me" list, but he's doing a great job at it. I've learned a few rules along the way though.

•  Cut off date is two months. Plenty of time to get to know someone. Feeling half-assed at two months? Then it's not worth my time.
• Wait at least two weeks before kissing the guy :o because kissing anywhere in between that time, the relationship is totally going to be physical base. I personally want something meaningful. a mix of passion and compassion.
• If he loves saying your name all the time, whenever he can, then he's gonna be special.

This is all in my opinion, of course.
I still don't know much because not many of my friends have experienced relationships. It's all information gathered from my own experience. lol. disclaimer.

Movie Credits

I'm one of those weird people who like reading the ending movie credits. Mostly because I like seeing all the different names people have. Specifically the last names because I don't know many last names. I like watching the credits for a few minutes or so and finding my favorite last name. I like looking for ones that I think are funny or cool. hard to pronounce or figuring out their ethnic origin.

I think I like looking at the names because it helps coming up with characters for stories. I always have trouble with the name part of writing.

I have yet to find a friend who shares this same interest. Haha. I don't know why, but it makes me feel kind of lonely. Because I'll watch a movie with a friend, share my favorite, and watch them just walk away. Plus, the theater is dark and playing the ending music, so it adds to the lonely effect.

It's All About the Mush Today

OH MI GOOODNESS.
TODAY. AUGUST 22, 2013. MARKS SIX MONTHS OF DATING NAIRB. ;w;

like woahh. I'm actually quite proud of myself since I didn't think I was the type to settle down for so long XD. hehe.

I haven't talked much about our relationship lately (which is surprising since I totally kiss-and-tell), but that's because I have Rinny to talk it out with so my blog got outta the loop XD. For six months though, I got to share why I love this boy so much!

It'd be hard to put why I love him in a few words or paragraphs. I love basically almost everything about him! Hehe. "Almost" because I must admit, he does have his flaws. Like he tends to ramble a lot, in ways where he says all the wrong things and sometimes upsets me. he likes to sing in the middle of our conversations. and Nairb falls asleep way too soon during late night conversations.

But as these flaws do frustrate me at times, I can see the brighter side of it as well.
He rambles because he's nervous around me. constantly trying. adorable. great when he actually finds the right words.
He's a really great singer. LOL. I can always continue what I was saying after the entertainment xD. because his voice is so soft and sweet and MUCH better than mine LOL.
And google tells me that people fall asleep in mid conversation in late night talks because they feel so comforted by you that they fall asleep XD. hahaaa.

Nah. that was supposed to sound adoring and everything. but it didn't come off that way, huh?

Anyways, all jokes and flaws aside, there are sosoo many reasons why this relationship has last this long and continues to strive. through thick and thin and all the mess. Because when I'm with him it's like the world disappears. All I want is to hear him talk to me, have his arms around me, and see his smile. We could be sitting in the boys clothing department in Target, and still make it the most romantic place in the world XD. It's all about the feeels.

OH! besides the feels, there's the fact that he's very stubborn. persistent. and tries hard. at everything. I love that about him. I could be upset about something and not willing to share, but he'll get it out of me if it's the last thing he does. lol. Nairb is the kind of guy who will push himself to carry heavy me bridal style down the street and to the movie theaters despite it being quite the rigorous workout. hahaa XD. I think that's amazing. He laughs at all my jokes, challenges my thoughts, and thinks of me as his one and only. Doesn't get overly jealous, but jealous enough. Wants nothing but my happiness, and puts my feelings first (most of the time. all of the time?). The boy even stops in the middle of walking to catch a fuzzy (those little cotton stuff that floats in the air)! It's all the little things. and all the big things. That added up, makes for the most amazing guy ever. Nairb.

If you saw Nairb and I, you'd instantly see how we're a good couple. Haha. And I'm not just saying that from opinion. I've been told so. xD
I can sit here all day naming all the reasons why I've come to love Nairb. all the little moments we've shared that'd make you go "aww" and have your hearts feeling all hopeful and loving.
But I have to go play Tetris with my family. LOL.

Dream Wedding

My friend has been talking about what she wants to do with her life in the future. Not about what she wants to do and those kind of things. Haha. Things like how she's going to raise her kids, and how many she wants. So it got me thinking about that kind of stuff too. Before kids though, first comes marriage of course. And I must say, boy, do I have my dream wedding planned out! LOL.

My wedding dress is going to be white, but with a hint of green somewhere. Not really sure if the green is going to be fringed at the bottom, a ribbon around my waist, or sparkles, but there will be green somewhere. Haha. Dress will probably be strapless, with the rippling ruffles at the bottom. I don't want it to be puffy though. I want an amazingly long train. My veil thickly covers my face, and has the pretty doily pattern things XD. I want my hair half up and half down. I think showing my face too much emphasizes its flaws :P (like the roundness, my giant forehead, etc)
Besides my dress aesthetics though, I want to be wedded at the Disneyland. The ceremony at the Sleeping Beauty Castle Forecourt at Disneyland Park. The reception at the Sleeping Beauty Pavilion. Now, don't think I'm some sleeping beauty fanatic (but my favorite princess is actually Aurora tbh. LOL). It just so happens that out of the things Disney offers, those are what I want ;w;. //don't judge. I've wanted to get married at Disneyland ever since I was a little girl. The idea struck me when I saw a couple do so on the television. It just seemed like the most magical place to have such a magical moment at. I've been to Disneyland a bajillion times, so it's not like I have an unfulfilled Disney complex. haha. I just love Disney.
Bubbles shall escape the skies as I walk down the isle while I carry a bouquet of my favorite flowers, lilies of the valley. My maid of honor.... maybe I'll have 10. Too many amazing friends ;w;. BUT. I was thinking about having a male m.o.h. because I don't think I'll be able to single out a female without feeling guilty for the rest of my female friends T^T. Plus, they're all competitive. I'm not going to pick my sister. LOL. she's going to forget to do everything. So bad to have multiple best friends I guess (orz). I'm going to have about a dozen or two of bridesmaids. haha. I don't know what my bridesmaids will be wearing though o3o..
And this has nothing to do with how Disney owns Star Wars, but I want to cut my cake with a light saber; which is also T.V. inspired. I want the glowy, whooshing sounds and everything. I don't expect it to be an actual laser sword though. Haha, I just want a glowy, whooshing knife? LOL. I haven't worked out all the kinks, but I'm sure there's a way!
I was thinking about including elephants, but I'm kind of unsure now XD. not quite positive of how it'll work. I'm hoping that I don't have to wear heels. Wedding dresses are like 50lbs, and I can barely walk in heels with my normal weight on the tiny pencils. It's totally okay to wear like flats or sneakers, right? Nobody can see my feet under the dress anyway. LOL.

FAQs
1. What if your husband doesn't want this kind of wedding?
WELL THEN. He's going to have a problem. LOL.
I mean, a girl has her dream wedding, and not every girl gets to live it. I'm willing to compromise. But if he's really the one, that perfect guy who I want to spend the rest of my life with, then I think he'd want to get married at Disneyland like I do ;w;. AT THE VERY LEAST, I want to cut my cake with a light saber-like thing. C:
2. Isn't this idea expensive? How will you afford it?.
UM. I'm not planning on getting married until I'm like in my 30s. So hopefully, I'll have a nice job and money :'D. and a husband with a nice job and money. mhm. hopefully.
3. What if he's not a Disney fanatic like you?
You don't have to like Disney to think it's a beautiful place to be married at ;w; it's sooo beautiful. PLUS WHO DOESNT LIKE DISNEY?

P.S.
you know... just thinking...but wouldn't it be kinda funny if I came down the isle swinging from a vine/rope thing from the ceiling like Tarzan? XD and somehow land perfectly in front of the alter. It'd also be cool is the priest was Mickey Mouse. XDD. hahaa.


I'm not crazy :o

Only in New York?

I love riding the subway.
New York has one of the largest, I think.
Some don't like riding public transport, but I love it. Some of my best stories come from the time I spend on the subway.

For instance, today, I saw the beast and the beauty of the subway.

On my way to school, it was majorly crowded on the train this morning. I hadn't had the best morning since I woke up late. Didn't even get to wash my face or brush my hair. Felt kind of gross. But I was looking forward to my trip on the subway because I wanted to read Fifty Shades of Grey. I just started it. When I got to the subway, I was met with a throng of people in every cart. Luckily, I was somehow able to squeeze myself into one of the carts. In the crowd, there was a big, square cart about average four people wide right dead center. Taking up so much space. A black lady (no racism in the word "black" >.< it's just easier to type) was sitting there, stated her possession of the massive cart by placing her hand on the corner. I wasn't bothered by the cart though because people have the bring their stuff one way or another. To my displeasure though, after a couple of stops, the black lady suddenly gets up, throws her bag on the seat, and starts yelling. "What is wrong with you? Don't touch me!" The subway begins to get so crowded that I assume this korean lady accidently touched the black lady on her way onto the train. The two get into an argument. The black lady goes on accusing the Korean lady of touching her, while the Korean lady denies it. Eventually, it heats up into a racist argument. The black lady goes on to call the Korean lady a foreigner, tells her to "Go back to China!", and that she has no manners. The Korean lady is angry, but doesn't know what to say. Her only defense is, "I'm Korea!" Her English isn't so good, but that's how I know she was Korean. The black lady ignores her statement, and continues to insult the Chinese race, thinking it'd insult the Korean lady...
"Get your green card, and go back to China, you foreigner!"
"Chinese people are so rude and impolite. so dirty! [ruining all the toilets]!"
"Talk English! You don't even know nothing about English!"
"Jesus Christ is the true God! Buddha is the false god!"
"My people built up America. You don't belong here. I was born in America. This is my country! Foreigner!"
It was a continuous string of these statements from the black lady. She continued to ramble throughout the whole train ride. The Korean lady just laughed at her, shook her head, and continued her own business. Knowing it was a fight not worth fighting.

Now, I'd like to first state that... it don't tell a Korean person to go back to China. >___> If you're going to insult a person, at least do it right. Also... Buddha isn't necessarily a god.... he's a person worshipped for being able to reach enlightenment. So he can't be a false god, if he isn't thought of as a god in the beginning(?)
I can't believe she'd make fun of the Korean lady's English when, although choppy, she still made somewhat grammatical sense, whereas the black lady was talking in improper English and spoke with so many double negatives ^^;;....
Her people built up America... but Asians built the railroads and make the majority of products used in America >____>. so I think everyone deserves a little credit here? ^^;.
If the Korean lady was seen to be rude (for accidently touching someone and defending herself from verbal attacks), then the black lady was mean! Insulting someone's race (a race in which half the people of the train was) and yelling in the morning. ALSO, she disrupted my reading ;A;. I re-read the same paragraph like eight times because I couldn't concentrate T^T.

Finally, the train reaches my stop, and I'm able to get off.  I transfer onto the next train. This young and light-blonde lady gets onto the train in a tight fit. She explains that she absolutely has to get onto the train as she attempts to kindly  (or as kindly as you can) push people into the train. Her dark mascara contrasting against her pale, white skin. As she's struggling to get her stuff together, I hear this dark colored man (Hispanic, black, or brown. I didn't get a good look at him) say "Hey, I know you from somewhere." The two of them talk. And eventually, I learn that they're both dancers. In their young mid-twenties most likely. You hear them trade stories, knowledge, and experiences. Their passion was thick in the air while they spoke of their attempts to make what they love into their career. You can even see a bit of chemistry going on between them. or at least a blossoming friendship.

And that's why I think New York is a curious, wonderful place. There's so many different kinds of people. You'll see so many different kinds of things each day. I mean I do at least every time I go to school. It's like mini-dramas in each train :o

Review(ish): Internship Movie

Watched the movie the Internship. starring Vince Vaughn and Owen Wilson.
It's starts off with these two salesmen losing their jobs. They find themselves in a summer internship program with Google. The internship program is filled with brilliant young adolescents, all with skills in technology and things of the sort. However, these two men are of a quite older audience, and have trouble connecting with the other interns as there is a clash of old and new. The movie continues to show their struggle, and how they attempt to overcome them.

In my opinion, it was pretty good ^o^.
I mean how much you enjoy the movie probably depends on your sense of humor. I watched it with Narib and Chouchou. For me, there were some parts that I couldn't stop laughing at! But these same parts didn't even crack a smile on Chouchou. Vice versa happened as well. Chouchou would sometimes be rocking in the movie theater seat bursting, and I didn't feel as though the same part was that funny. At those times, I was just laughing at how funny his reaction was XD. It's good to watch it with friends, you kind of get to know them. Nairb and I laughed at the same things.

For the characters, I really liked the female character in the movie. She was so COOL. >w<. All the inters were these very smart kids who had all these crazy skills, but they either had problems or were super snobby. But the girl intern was very relatable for me! She talked about cosplay, anime, fanfiction, made a yaoi-ish reference, and even mentioned hentai. Like I don't read hentai, but I find it incredibly funny that they mentioned it XD. It was just like OMGS~ seeing her. I mean, usually this kind of character in a movie would be a geeky-boy into comic books. This time it was a girl into anime and fanfiction with cool shoes >w<.

The lesson of the movie was pretty straightforward. Everyone has their own skills and things that make them special. Don't give up on a dream, no matter how unlikely it may seem. Try your best and stick to what you believe in. I found 'don't be an asshole" to be a very strongly expressed lesson XD.

Inspired thought into me as it talked about how many kids these days can have the best education and still not be guaranteed a job. I wonder what I'm going to do... :P

Overall, I liked it. The plot was able to surprise me. It seemed predictable at first, but they have a few tricks up their sleeves. And it really causes you to get attached to the characters, and the events in the movie. I enjoyed it :)

(Spoiler) Favorite part is when the Asian guy gets drunk. looked like he was about to go super saiyan XD.

Just Write Happy Things!

 

Carry around a pen and a packet of sticky notes.
When you're bored waiting for the bus, or have nothing better to do, just leave a sticky note where someone can find it. Share a happy quote, or phrase, or anything. Just make it positive!
The idea is knowing that you possibly brightened someone's day.

:)

Sitting on the subway ride home. I love it when I hold his hand. feel him close around my fingers with a slight squeeze. as if he fears of losing me if he doesn't. and then I rest my head on his shoulder. he rests his head on mine. he squeezes my hand again.

It is in this moment that I feel like dying.
because every other moment seems to pale in comparison.
But then I live, anticipating the next moment.

Living in the same city. Still two hours apart. Stuck on my end. Sigh.

I Love His Laugh

I love it when my boyfriend laughs at my jokes. LOL.

I mean, a lot of people laugh at my jokes (because I'm SO funny :P), but I feel so accomplished when I make my boyfriend laugh XD. idky, I'm weird. shh. Plus, I love hearing him laugh and smile. It's like the picture of happiness ;w;. music to my ears. the feels of love. XD. idk.. don't question me!


So I've decided to make that a new requirement for boyfriend worthiness. He has to understand my sense of humor XD. my very cracked up, awful sense of humor. LOL.


AND ALSO. I've been busy with studying and homework and life and nonsense, so I haven't posted anything like LEGIT these days. but I shall get around to it as school is amoslt overrr. YESHH. //tears of joy.
I have a lot to share, since I got them summer plans Cx.

The Skill In This Post. ♥

MY DRAWING SKILS HAVE IMPROVEDD. UMPH. SO HAPPY.

lol. let's just say this improvement is due to the amount of boredom school provides me xD.

The first picture is of random doodles.
Second picture is reference based drawing of Vi from League of Legends.

Dad got new laser printer. Unplugged old printer. Old printer had scanner. Bunch of junk blocking plug to old printer. wasn't able to scan picture of Vi ;A;.

I'm bragging here. But shhhh. I have rights? XD

RE: Operation Change the World~

When I was in middle school, I found this cool idea on how to "change" the world in my own small little way. (original post about it here: http://emikosday.blogspot.com/2012/04/operation-change-world.html ). Basically, I got these little index cards that remind people that "the world isn't as bad as you think. Smile," and I posted it around the place.

It wasn't too successful in middle school though because I started with like 90, and I have like 70 left o3o. That's because my middle school didn't really allow it >___< and I wasn't allowed out to the extent that I could post it around public places D;

HOWEVER. I'm in high school now, and I'm thinking about trying it once more. I see people post this kind of stuff around my high school too, so I know I have the legits ability ^o^.

If you wanna partake in this for your schools, here's the photo that you can save and print out.
I know one of the commenters on the original post wants it, so perhaps others do too? >w<. It's for a good cause~.

A while back, I also created this other thing that my middle school guidance counselor allowed me to post up. I thought it was pretty cool, so I'll share it too ^_____^.

A lot of people took one of the little slips. Mostly females. Haha. But I was passing by the guidance room when I saw someone take it, and it made them smile. That's the purpose of this. To cause a change, no matter how small it may seem!

So I'm thinking about starting up this operation again. C:

Everyday is an Event to Love (Now)

I love calendars. Being a visual learner, it really helps to see what kind of events are coming up, and be able to imagine how close they are to coming. I love checking off each day. On a school week, counting the days until Friday or Saturday. Checking off the days, waiting for something big to happen. Always waiting for any day but today. I like to print out a customized calendar for each month. I have this special place on my wall where I place my calendars. I've had one since September of seventh grade. It became like a day-diary kind of thing.

This tradition though... died since last February. February of 2013. I've been meaning to get back at it, but never really felt as motivated as before. stopped feeling the need to make it. and I've always wondered why.

Today, I figured it out.

It'll sound corny (aka this is a warning), but I think it has to do with Nairb.
February was the month we got together (ps. so we've been together for three months now! yesterday, the 22nd, was the official month-a-versary day ♥).
And... my theory is, maybe I stopped making calendars because I had something more to look forward to then checking off another day on a calendar. I have seeing Nairb to look forward to.

Conceited... ish?

You know, sometimes, I feel pretty conceited.
I'll look in the mirror or at a picture of myself, and be like "Umph. That's one sexy chick. *wink."
But I'm not conceited enough to think I'm the sexiest chick out there.
And when I realize that I'm not the best, I get upset.

LOL. then I look in the mirror again, and I'm like "Umph. That's one sexy chick. *wink." XD.

I started listening to music on the subway again.
Not really a good thing.
Means I have too much on my mind and Im trying to block it out :P

I Fear for My Childrens' Stuff Animals

LOL. So I think my thighs are getting to fat, or my jeans are too old beacuse I found a hole in it the other day! It was a tiny hole though, so I thought "Hey, I can fix this!" I gathered my needle and thread, and began my patch work. And I found out... sewing is A LOT harder than I thought ;A;.

I took me three times before I finally got in a good strong patch up. The first two times, I sewed it up, put it on, and the hole oppened up again T^T. But as the saying goes, third time's the charm :'D. It finally stayed closed. lol. but it looks awful xD. I mean it does the job, so it's okay. but still. I only fear for my children when their favorite stuff animal rips. LOL.

 

I took some pictures of it with my phone though. just to show for fun :'D. Like my creepy needle holder thing? >w<

 

 

So I've decided that when I turn 18, the first thing I'm going to do is....
buy something from an infomercial :3

People like to buy me lunch. I don't know why... O3O

The Reason Why

So a popular question for me these days is "Why do you like your boyfriend?"
(or more like "OMG. You have a boyfriend?! Didn't know that was possible"... XDD)
Being asked so frequently, I've come to do a lot of thinking. And as it has been learned, when I think a lot about something, I blog. LOL.

The reason why I like Nairb really boils down to a simple sentence:
He's a really nice guy who makes me happy.
What's the full meaning behind that? Well, that involves a not-so-simple paragraph.

It's hard to describe why you like someone in general. For me, it was like a feeling that strated small and grew into something bigger; rather than just a WA-BAM-I-like-you kind of thing.

I think the moment my feelings started would be the first day I met him. Now, I don't mean it was "love at first sight". To be honest, I was really mean to him when we first met. Non-stop insulting him (because like... I didn't know he would be my boyfriend after a few months LOL). Usually, after being a bitch, a person would totally dislike you. At some point, the topic of my favorite candy came up (sour gummy worms Cx), and Nairb was like "I shall buy you some, if you'd like." Of course, I was just like "What? Something wrong with you? You're not supposed to give a bully candy." Then, unexpectedly, Nairb looked at me and said, "You see, because you're mean to me, I have to be twice as nice to you." I don't know about you, but that was a total turn on for me. LOL. I mean, all my life, I've always faced annoying people who are always like "If someone's mean to you, punch them in the face. and destroy all their pride. take revenge at all costs." I believe that if someone is being a bitch, you can't be a bitch back. Fighting fire with fire is only going to bring more fire! And so, hearing Nairb say that to me was just... it was like I found someone of my own kind o-o. I don't know. A set of emotions gets triggered when you've found that one person that is (or could be) what you've always wanted (or close to it). That was the beginning at least.

As time went on, I got to know him more and more. I love talking with him. I enjoy the stupid things he says. And he enjoys the stupid things I say. LOL. I feel a connection, a feeling that I don't feel with anyone else. At some point, I couldn't stand being just friends. Now, in my head, that's like a big sign for "THIS IS THE GUY". lol. Thus, it's all in the feels (of a personal connection and hormonal stuff).

But when a person asks "Why do you like him?" They're probably asking for an actual trait or characteristic. It's hard to say this without a love-sick, dasiy smile, but here goes:
A trait I like is his personality. his the glass-is-more-than-half-full personality. I love that he tries hard, tries his best at everything. I love even more how his persistence and stubborness challenges mine. His magical ability to make me laugh no matter what mood I'm in.

There's so much to love about him that it's hard to believe not everyone can see it.

The Little Idiosyncrasies

So I decided to fuck memoirs and trying to find my "niche" for now. LOL.
I'll get around to it...eventually.

I haven't posted in a while (mostly too busy playing League of Legends and doing homework :P)

I'm currently slightly sick right now, feeling better though, and need to finish geometry homework (graphing on line paper ftw! :'D). So for now, I'll share a little piece to catch you up.

Life with mah boyfriend is going wonderfully~. ^o^. I can't wait to see him everday, and I try to see him as much as possible (since we don't have any classes together :c ). I feel like I'm growing slightly clingy, but like.... I can't help it? >__<.
And no, we haven't kissed yet~ :P (everybody always asks us this .___. ). Hopefully, this will change soon >D. LOL. But it's okay too~. I know this one couple who has been dating for like a yearr~, and hasn't kissed yet Cx. It's kinda sweet, but crazy at the same time o3o.
Nairb is really amazing though. He wants to see and accept both the good and bad parts about me. And everyday his actions show me that he'll really love me through thick and thin. But even though I know this, I'm having trouble with showing him the little idiosyncrasies of myself. It's like, with a friend, I can be retarded as hell. It's because I don't give a damn about what they think of me. For Nairb though, I want him to always think I'm..in a sense... perfect, or as close as I can be to perfect.

I'm a very confident person... but only because I know all my good qualities, and I know how to show them off. With being able to always appear as this great person, you get kind of confident. But, that means I hide all my imperfections, the things I'm self conscious of.
Like, I don't wear pony tails in public... because it shows off my face, and makes it look chubby :c. Plus, the back of my neck is very red and stupid looking. Aint nobody wants to see that :P. I think my ears look weird too :T
I never show my feet to the public~ (wearing socks to a friend's house) because I think my feet look weird. My toes are oddly long and thin o3o.
I don't let people look at my hands up close either. I have a lot of imperfections to hide :c

I don't just show you my imperfections just because you tell me you won't judge me. It's like, I know you'll secretly judge me anyway o-o. A few close friends like Luka, Rin, and Choco have been able to see some of my imperfectionss. There comes a point when I can trust a person not to judge, but that comes with a lot of trust.

I don't know when it'll come to the point where I'll trust Nairb enough to show him the bad of me.

OH! By the way, I think I'm growing a cheek fetish xD;. I just can't help, but pinch, rub, carress people's cheeks~. I know how all my friend's cheeks feel. My favorite though is, of course, Nairb's cheeks >w<. Like omgs~. They're just like... idk. they feel magical :O.

A Thought In Progress

So my dad wants me to focus on coming up with an actual "niche" for this blog of mine. He suggested writing stories~. I don't really know what I want my niche to be. I kinda like just wondering in my thoughts~ as I do now.

I can't be that blog talks about book reviews because I don't read.
I can't be a cooking receipe blog because I don't cook... often. LOL. I'm in cooking club, but I've gotten bored of that lately :P.
I can't be that technology and gadgets blog because I don't tinker around very much.
And I don't want to be giving love advice or gossip stories because those usually end badly, or my advice skills suck D;

I don't know what to do.

I could try to write stories, most likely fictional stories. Those are fun. Creative writing is one of my favorites. ...but I can never seem to finish the stories. I'm not one to make promises when I know I may not be able to keep them, so all I can say for now, is that I shall try. I'ma try to write a story (: next time I am to blog.

I don't know if I want to jump into fictional writing yet though. I might ease into such kind of writing. Maybe I'll start out with memoirs. memoirs with exaggerations. memoirs straying from reality. I mean, that's what fiction is, right? Starting with a simple story. The truth with a whole lot of pa-zazz added.

It's a thought in progress, but we'll see. Dad just says to find a specific niche. I'm on the hunt for one now :)

Was sitting on my bathroom sink counter, crying... because I was sad.
Note to self: Get some more fucking confidence~.

That Strage Parent

My dad is quite the odd parent if I do say so myself.

Lately, I haven't been studying because I've found myself too caught up in the excitement of League of Legends. LOL. Sounds kind of lame, but it's a really fun game in my defense XD. It's come to the point where he's put parental control on my internet access so that it gets cut off at midnight.... or 11:59 to be specific. Gosh. I feel like my dad is starting to troll me xD;;.

Anyways, he doesn't just flat out tell me "Hey, you're being a stupid kid. Stop it or you'll be punished like hell."

No, instead the man goes out into the rain to grab a smoke. During his time out, he finds an old regents biology exam book, and brings it home. I hear him walk into the room, and say "Hey, you." Next thing I know, I have a small, wet book being flung at me! Good thing I have reflexes o3o... And to explain himself, my father goes, "This is what you should be doing. This is an example of some kid who's doing the right thing; who has the will to put effort into their life."

It's a strange method, but it really got the point across. I mean, my dad really knows how to hit the right spots for me. He knows I don't like competition or knowing that there's someone better than me. That's why I guess showing me this book, which probably comes from some kid living right next door to me, really makes me wanna go study, so I can at least beat this kid. Haha. As long as I beat someone, IM HAPPY. xD. This kid is pretty smart though, so I gots my work cut out for me ;A;.

No, but like, I don't know why my dad is this upset with me. My overall grade average is 95.5, and rising. I have 90s and above in all my classes (a 100 in Latin class). I'm improving. I'm actually working harder because of the fact that I'm playing games. If my overal grade average drops below 90 even once my dad will take away my allowance. I need that for my cake cravings ;A;.

Harr, BUT. I do admit, I should be studying for regents. It's almost time, scarily enough ;A;. I WILL STARTT. And I mark this officially. (cuz everything is better when it's official Cx). //determined. (watch it only last for like a week though o3o)

Finding Myself in this Hazy Weather

You know, to be honest, I don't like this time of adolescents at all~. Being a teen is baffling.You're too old to be a child, but too young to be an adult. And during this time of confusion, you have to be able to find yourself as well. The worst part of it is that when I was a child, I thought I already knew myself. Now, I'm told that I haven't discovered anything at all? Whenever I think about stuff like this, I come to all sorts of conclusions about myself. Afterwards, I feel pretty accomplished, but only to find out two weeks later that I've changed into a different self. And I have to go through how many years of this nonesense? LOL. Not sure what to do about this, so my only solution is to blog! haha XD.

Okay, so far in my life, I've established that I'm a fun and happy person with a weak sense of will power. LOL. I've also confirmed that I don't really have the face or know-how on being one of those cute-sy Asian girls. Like have any of you realized that Asian girls are really really cute-sy? o3o. I'm asain, and like.... I can't be cute at all. I'm more of a "HAHA. That's adorable. Nice try, kid *pat pat" kind of cute. LOL. Thus, with this kind of mentality, I have become witty and coolsies and perhaps, a little bad ass-ish(?) :'D.

BUT HIGH SCHOOL HAS DESTROYED THE LOGICC about myself.

LOL because lately, I've been trying to act cute ;A;. Like not neccessarily trying, just have been. I think it's because all my guy classmates have like suddenly realized that I'm not some scary smart lady, so they've begun to tease meh D; In the beginning of the year, I was like quiet and proper during class, and everybody had this idea that I'm some super ingenius person who's way above their level. LOL. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? XD Stupid lil' meh was seen to be smart? Haha, then I started doing group work with people, and everybody was like "OMG. Emiko is just like meee." LOL. And somehow that gave invitation for boys to be messing with me ;A; because apparently, I'm really fun to tease.
So my natural instinctual protection sequence is to act cute and be like "Stahpp it~. You're being a meanie pants~." AND IDKY. LOL. Like what the fuck is a meanie pants? XD. It's like "MHMM. That's right. Your pants are mean~!" no. That just doesnt work o3o.

OH! And aside from trying to handle attention in less retarded ways, I've started talking like real ghetto-ish. LOOL. I'm just like "This ain't gonna work no more" or "That guy be cray cray." But a wannabe-cute, witty, comical chic can't be talking ghetto. It doesn't work that way ;A;.

I believe this is what one would call "finding oneself." Eughh. D; Harr.

Lately, I've been upset though~ because all them stupid ass boys be picking on meh D;
Like apparently, I'm not a girl to them, but still a girl. A girl leaning toward the manly side. or something like that LOL. And it's like everyday, I gots at least one guy telling me I'm fat, stupid, or manly. It's like gawsh ;A; people are so harsh. And I'm not even fat D;
It's really stupid. Whenever I say out right, "I'm fat", some guy would be like "You're being a stupid girl~. You're not fat~." Then like five minutes later, that same guy will call me fat. >3<;;
So I'm upset~ because trying to take all of that from like ten guys everyday just sucks~. And I mean like it shouldn't bother me, but it does. Getting bullshit from one or two people is nothing, but from many it's like ughhh. Of course, I understand they're just "teasing" or "messing around", but it still sucks. Like sometimes I just don't know :V. At some point, I will break down xP. Last Thursday, I just went all silent and gloomy because I didn't know what to do anymore. That's really weird for me too because I'm never quiet. Haha XD.
At the end of the day, it was really nice though. Because of uh... idk let's call him Chouchou~ (it means "pet" in French, and he's totes my pet ^^) . He took me "bread shopping" after going on and on about how he didn't like bread. LOL. I mean it's really nice when you're having a bad day, and then your friend acts all stupid, bat-shit funny on you xD. He came and saved my day unintentionally though~. Chouchou is that kind of friend who just makes you go "what the fuck? XD" the entire day because he just says the darnest things. haha.

Chouchou and I went to visit Pari-chan, bought some breadd (he forced me to buy bread because he "didnt want to be the only one buying stuff" xD), and semi-prank called Luka-chan. LOL. It was amazing :P.

OH. And last Friday was my one month anniversary with Nairb ♥♥♥.
The gift he decided to give me was himself. And I was like "OMGG. SO HAPPY~ I'll cherish 'it' forever ;w;". And my gift to him was myself. LOL. I put a gift bow on my face and everything. XD. We're an amazing couple. legits =w=b.

It feels amazing to be caught when you expected to fall...

Bad Girlfriend

I feel like I'm a really bad girlfriend. LOL.

I mean I can be a good one at times, but most of the time, I think I'm pretty bad. Haha. Why does my boyfriend stay with mehh? I don't know. If girls can learn to date douches, then guys can too! XD.

Haha. It's like...he can never win a debate. He's always insulted. I refuse to share him. He's not allowed to insult me. I don't believe in his compliments. LOL. I make him hold onto my stuff. I quite often twist his words. I slap him. I dont allow retaliation. I get jealous easily. I "borrow" his stuff. I complain ...a lot. I pinch his cheeks... a lot. I sometimes expect him to solve my problems. LOL. This is just going downhill so fast XD;;. I practically abuse the poor boy.

Most of the time I'm just joking or teasing, but it must really suck for Nairb... like I was thinking about it today, and I just realized, I'm like really terrible ;A;.

Like the worst thing I've done so far happened today. I was on the subway going home today, and going home with Nairb is like the only time I ever really get to be with him since we don't have classes together, and that's still only 30-40 minutes. Anyways, my other friends was on the subway with us as well. Now here's the "pun". Instead of sitting next to my boyfriend and spending that little half hour with him, I gave him my book bag and went to talk with my friends on the other side of the subway cart. TT________TT. OH MY GOSH. THAT SOUNDS SO BAD. I was like doing homework, about to fall asleep, and this thought suddenly came to me.

I would love to explain myself with many excuses, (as in the process of trying to make myself feel better, I've came up with many) but if I say anything, it will just sound like excuses. OTL.

One of my excuses though is that I'm uncomfortable with verbal affection for guys. OMG. IDKY but I can totally tell a girl that's she's sexy and has a nice ass without any trouble at all. BUT. when it comes to telling my boyfriend the  phrase, "I like you," I can't say it without it sounding weird or something. OTL. Verbal affection to my boyfriend makes me feel so awkward >3<;;.

So in conclusion, I'm terrible. LOL. I'd like to hope I'm not completely bad though. xD;.

I mean, I'm the kind of nice girlfriend who puts cute notes in his locker and whatnot ^_____^.... but that's all I do. That's all I can do. OTL. because it's hard to say things face to face ;A;.

So I'm like sad.... xD;; because.... I suck D;

This is a Long One, Folks~

A couple of thoughts today, so excuse me if things seem a little frazzled.

If you're a long time reader, you'd know how important my friends are to me. They play one of the biggest roles in my life. I'm the kind of friend that'll help them through their problems for hours, kill whoever makes them upset in the littlest bit, and just generally love them when they feel all alone in the world ♥. I can't really explain why, but I just love people, especially my friends and family (eh... but I don't know about my sister... lol jk xD).
Anyways, the other day, I was going onto the subway train to go home. As I was going up the stairs to the train, I saw that it was about to leave, so of course, everyone rushed up the stairs to get on before the doors closed. When we all go into the train, Nairb did a head count, and at the last moment, when the doors closed, we saw that one of my friends didn't make it on Dx. For me, it was just like "Eh, whateverr~" because I'm just not close enough to him to really care XD;; //mean. Nairb, on the other hand, felt differently about it, and was like "I gotta get off the train and meet up with him at the next platform!" Obviously, it kind of upsetted me because I don't get to see Nairb often during school, so the subway ride is like my moment, ya know? Haha, but the strange part is, I wasn't mad or anything. I actually admired him for ditching me for his friend! Aha, plus, I think his face looked really cute when he was debating on staying with me or going. I don't know, he just looked so conflicted XD. Or at least, I think that's what was going on his mind :P. Anyways, I admire his devotion to his friend :O. It's really quite similar to mine. Reminds me of this one time when I got off the train (away from all my friends) to help stupid Aladdin take his sister home because he couldn't. BUT. His stoofid sister ended up finding somebody else, and didn't even bother to come meet me up to apologize to my face. She actually didn't apologize at all :V. That kinda pisses me off because I was planning on having a fun shopping day with BB and my other friend. LOL. But it was for Aladdin, my friend, so there's no helping it. LOOL. Yea, I can't say that with a straight face. "Aladdin, my friend". XD. Idk, it's like he's a close friend now, after all the shit he's  put me through we've been through, but it's just weird to say it. ANYWAYS, back to the topic of me admiring Nairb's devotion to his friends. (I swear, I get so off topic, I bet some of ya will get annoyed xD). I dont know. After yesterday, I think I like him twice as much as before :O. Because, people always say "Oh, pals before gals" or "chicks before dicks"  (whatever the case may be), but you never know if people ever really mean it. I mean, I feel like my friends are one of the most important things to me in the world, but I cant honestly say where I haven't put my boyfriend before them in some cases (but my excuse to that is a boyfriend is technically a friend as well. XDD. LOL So i was very conflicted as to what to do ;A; ). But seeing Nairb dash off the train showed he really cares about the people around him. It's quite beautiful :'). I really don't want to have special treatment placed on to me because I don't see how your girlfriend/boyfriend should have such a signficant difference in your heart compared to your friends.

My time after the subway ride home though was amazingg!! Eui-chan gave me a $10 gift card to an Asian backery nearby where I live, and I was totally craving cake! I must say, Asian cakes are really quite delicious!! I don't remember if I've shared this before, but when it comes to cake, I can be totally shallow. I only like to eat cakes that are pretty xD. I can't really say what I consider "pretty" for cakes, but I get so happy when I see really pretty cakes. I don't know why :O. And once I'm done fawning over this really adorable cake, I have to eat it. It seems kinda cruel and weird, and I can't really explain it. Oh, but anyways, my birthday was like two months ago, and I haven't spend a single bit of my gift card. Plus, I was really craving some cake at that moment! So BB and I went to go to the backer, and ordered some cake ♥♥. However, Asian backeries can be kinda stupid sometimes, so I apparently had to spend the gift card all at once. The thing is the cake there only costs $1 each (the tiny, pretty indvidual slices), or at the most $3. Haha, so BB and I both at like 3 or 4 cake slices. It was crazy! Man, was I stuffed after wards. I was really happy though Cx. Haha, this isn't really too significant, but I mentioned it because I totally want to share the pictures of the cake with youu. xD

It was just the two of us, BB and I, so when we ordered so many cakes, the lady gave us the funniest look. XD. I couldn't help but burst out laughing. But Asian people, my god! Even after thinking it was crazy for ordering so many cakes, she made me buy an extra one just because she didn't want to give me 30 cent change from my stupid gift card thing!! Haha, them asian folks be trying to squeeze as much as they can outta ya. Oh, now personally though, I don't find these cakes to be magnificently pretty, but enough to please me. You should see the cakes at bakeries a little more expensive, like Paris Baguette Cx. UMPH. Them cakes are so cuute that I just want to die a happy death there. LOL.

OH! Now this next part is going to be about Aladdin. OMG. I don't know why (probably because of mother nature's uterus punch this month), but Aladdin has been annoying me so much this week!! It's like, he keeps telling me my blog sounds "phony" and I'm too much of a fangirl. And he's making all these little comments about it that just don't sound too positive. I really want to slap him in the face sometimes. Which reminds me, I kinda did that to Nairb today. slap him in the face. It was actually kinda funny. Luckily, he's a nice person, and wasn't too sore about it ;w;. I totally slapped him for no reason and totally on impulse just for a stupid comment he made. I feel really bad about it xD;;. Anywayss, back to my annoyance of Aladdin. I know if he were to read this, he'd be totally cheering about how I wrote a whole paragraph about him. Totally a lousy guy :V. I feel quite conflicted about Aladdin though. He's actually not a bad person, and I have fun talking to him. Sometimes, it feels like we're going through the same thing, and I can talk to him about it. Other times though, he blows everything out of proportion, and pisses me the hell off. XD. So he's not a bad guy, and I feel like he'll be one of those geeks that'll be all set in life later on. It's just he has so many flaws that irritate me. LOL. I'm totally going to smack him in the face one day though. Just watch xD.

Anyways, all I've been doing really is talking about my friends. What about me?! Haha, so lately, I've been reading this book called, Catcher in the Rye for school. It's about this teenage kid around my age who's afraid of growing up. The book is written in this kid's point of view, and he talks in a lot of slang. When I re-read this blog, I feel like I totally sound like him a little bit (with different kind of wording). But generally, his way of speaking is kind of scatterbrained and sentence structures are kinda all over the place. And it's like he's saying stuff that seems very literal, but under neath it, you can usually find a different meaning. I'm not really saying to look too deep into my writing because I don't think I say much that should be taken with a different meaning, but I just personally feel like it's cool that I sort of sound like the main character from the book. It's like teenagers now don't really differed from like sixty years ago. Haha, sounds kind of lame, but I find it interesting. xD. A lot of my classmates are hating on the book, but I actually kind of like it. You really have to try to understand what the main character's thinking, and about all the things that's going on in his mind. I've kinda grown to really like psychology (might just be that passion I've been looking for!), so I guess for me, all this analyzing is fun xD.

So I've Changed a Lot

IM BACKK.
I haven't posted in forever, but I'm here now, babyy. And I have MUCH to share with you. Really, high school started out kinda boring as I was such a noob. Now thoughh, I have so many friends that it's impossible to say that my life can ever be dull anymore.

I think I've changed quite a bit in high school. Hahaa, as a middle schooler, I was all in denial and like "NO. I refruse to change!" I totally thought I wouldn't have changed, buut I have. Don't worry thoughh. I still be bringing in the ladies and being a pimp, makin' all thee boys jelly for my charm. LOL. Mostly because I've grown fond of corny pick up lines, and learned how to be all sweet, and give out compliments~. Howeverr, I ain't a man charmer anymore. I didn't like all the weird male attention in middle school >__<, so I became a little meaner. LOL Thanks to the advice of my Rinny-chan ♥♥. She was all like "Gurl, you gotta be more coldd to the male species or stahp complaining." I've learned how to be mean. It was really hard, but I achieved :'D. Like I've mastered the Art of Insulting like a pro~. But my natural charm still be workingg, and I got tons of new friends :D. Also, I've looked deeper into myselff lately too. I've realized that I'm not the happy-dandy, kind, and self less pesron I thought I was. AH HA. I'm totally a terrible person who be greedy and shallow and evil. You'll probably see why as I write more. YESH. I plan to write more often. OMG. I'll even use my free periods during school if I have to ♥


OH, and if you notice my speech to be a little weird... just ignore it. I've been influenced. //end of story. xD

Anyways, for my guy/romance life, I went through a roller coaster of TEN guys. Yea, in my mind, I'm a total player. Haha, not my fault that boys in my school beats girls like a 10 to 1. But don't worry people. I've FINALLY settled down, and chose my one and only ♥. LOL. Har, so yup, I've gotten myself a boyfriendd. And everybody be shipping him and me together. Wonder how they'll react when I share the news XD;;. Except BB, she thinks mah new love is ugly, and that I deserve better. AHA. Gotta love her honesty. But it's how I feel, and not her, so... ^_____^ //ignoring her oppinions atm. I bet she's just jelly that I got what I wantedd. UMPH.

Important part: I like himm. I don't care what nobody thinks. The official declaring happened like yesterday, so I can't say much about it yet. LOL. To be honestt, I feel like his second optionn though, which makes me sad D: but... I can't say I'm innocent either, so it's fair. lol. But lets see, I'll call him... Nairb :D. Haha, I "kiss and tell" too much >__<, so I'll just share the basics :D. Lets just say I had to help a friend out. Led to the meeting of him. Some subway rides home. A nice Saturday date. And it ends with a sweet clarification. ^____^

MOVING ON.
Another major thing going on in my life would be my beauts friends Stitch(fem) and Aladdin. Excuse the weird names, LOL, I'm using their Disney decided names (I'm Lilo btw). Ohemgi~. I played cupid for them on Valentine's Day, and they have soo much drama going on. The funny part is Aladdin and I are like frenemies, but we're like each other's wingman. XD. I feel more like his therapist though :V because the boy don't know what he's doing. It's like I have to reassure him about everything all the timme. Makes me so depressed sometimes .___.

OMG BUT HE FOUND MY BLOGG. Out of all the people who had to find my blog, it had to be Aladdin OTL. arghh. LOL I was hopping to keep it a secret in high school xD. Oh well~. Haha, but since he OWES me for being Cupid, he promises to not tell Nairb lool. Nairb is kinda stoofid though. He knows my username Emiko Seiei, and I was like "I use that for everything online." But he's too stoofid to think of using Google. Har harr. Cx Aladdin is so judgemental of my blog though. He be calling me too much of a fangirl. But like I'm just like, "As a friend, I don't care about your feelings~" Haha, that prhase doesn't sound right, but for him and me it does xD. But thee bitch stole that phrase from me by saying it all the time xP.

ALSOO. I've been in the cooking club for awhile at school noww. Don't think I mentioned this before. OMG. My club president though is soo beautifuul~. LOL *cough. I mean, cooking club is really fun, and I'm learning how to NOT burn down a kitchen (and some delish food recipes too). Haha, but my club president really is beautiful. AND she's super nice. Can you imagine that? Beautiful + Kind + Smart + Cooking skills = PERFECT wife. She's amazing :'D. LOL. She was my inspiration to think of the advantages of being a polygamist. I mean, if I was to be a polygamist, I would have one husband and one wife. A wife for all the cooking and house chores I don't want to do. And a husband for all thee fun activites. kufufu~. LOL. ofc, I'm joking, but it's an interesting idea xD.

OH. And I've started playing League of Legends. Mostly because of Nairb, but it really is a fun game. And I've met all his friends from childhood. LOL. Only known them for a monthh, but we're all pretty good friends :D. Haha, he jokes about me stealing them from him xD.

Anyways, yea, that's all the updates for now :D.
So see youu, and have a nice day >w<.

Keep a Bright Mind

HNY 2013 !!

Found this picture, and thought the characters sorta looked like Setsuna and Graham. //shot.

Yayy~!! It's the beginning of another year! \(^o^)/.

 .....well, I suppose for New Year, I should say something like super inspiring and motivational... but to be honest, I really quite suck at doing that. ^ ^;;.

All I can say is.. try to be better than last year! Work to improve yourself :). In my opinion, you don't really need resolutions and plans and whatnot (especially if you're not going to follow through w/ them). As long as you're not going backwards, everything will be fine =w=b.

However, I still have a resolutions/goals that I would like to keep in mind as I'm trying to not go backwards :'D. This year, I hope to learn how to play Bink's Sake on the violin (and possibly piano) over the summer //One Piece FTW~!! And I wanna have an ah-maz-ingg~~ body/figure/look by attempting at exercising/eating right.
Also, mastering the art of walking in heels would be nice too //shot.

LOL. I gave up trying to learn an instrument because I really have no patience for that XD;;. So knowing at least one song on an instrument is sufficient enough =w=b. Plus, it'd be fun to play that song on the subway, and get extra cash >D. lol. Not like I have anything better to do on the subway xD. one-two hour commute ;A;.

Harr, well, that's all I have to share at the moment. Hope you all have a great new year. Let's all go forward and achieve greatness! >w<.