Showing posts with label frustrated. Show all posts
Showing posts with label frustrated. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Fixed?

Erm...okay, well if you've read my previous blog entry, then you would have known that K. confessed his feelings to me. However, I had to semi-reject because I'm not allowed to date. I did also confess my feelings as well, in the email though. And after I awaited his reply afterwards.
He sent his reply, saying that he was okay with not dating me, and that just being able to talk with me would be fine. Er...>.> but that left us at a really odd position, in my opinion. So after reading the contents of his email, I started thinking, "What now?" Like what does two people who like each other, but incapable of being with each other do?
Today, I asked K. what I was to him in order to confirm some things, and his answer to me was, "More then a friend." Now if you look at that positively, that's a big achievement, since I've been sorta obsessing over this guy for awhile now. But I don't know if it's enough for me ^ ^;;. I mean I was kind of hoping for more, but for someone who can't date, you can't ask for much. Beggars can't be choosers, I guess. Right now, we're just two people who like to talk with each other at the moment. I guess you could say I'm kind of happy about these events. I mean the guy I like actually likes me back. I'm able to have more fluent talk with him too. But I'm a little disappointed at the same time. It's like, is that all I get? After spending endless amount of efforts of getting to know him better. Plus, there's all that time I spent after school just to be with him. Sigh~ I thought this world was built on equal trade (xxxholic reference xD). I did that for myself, and I actually didn't expect anything in return. I'm just happy I got this far :). Truthfully, I have no idea what's going to happen between us in the future. >.> I hate it when I can't predict things (remember, I'm a woman who's very cautious and likes being able to accurately predict things). Sigh~ so I guess all I can do is cross my fingers and hope for the best.