OMG MY BIRTHDAY! o.O sAy WhAt?!

I've been soooo~ busy (not really) worrying about Ai-chan and Choco-chan's birthday, that I totally forgot about mine :P. I remember Banana-kun reminded me like a few weeks ago~, but I guess I forgot again xDD.
My birthdays are so unimportant, that it tends to be misplaced in my to-do list~. Some people get excited about my birthday like a month before or so~, and talk about it a bit. However, when the actual day comes, everyone forgets~ :3. Which is good. No need to celebrate lil' old meh becoming a year closer to death XD.

When I was little no one loved meh~, so my birthdays turned out very badly.
My birthdays would turn out like this:

Minus out the whole table flipping thing~. Honestly, I felt like doing that sometimes though xD. My birthday is commonly forgotten when the actual thing comes up. I'm not sure why....>___>. Maybe because it's like almost right after winter vacation, and everyone's still in vacation mode, so they forget? Or maybe people didn't like meh? Or maybe they were busy~? Idk~. But for the reason that my parties always failed, I stopped having birthdays since I was about ...idk 8 years old :3.

Now I celebrate my birthday like this:

Minus the food~. I'm not allowed to eat in my room TT^TT. Which sometimes sucks because eating time sometimes gets in the way of computer time xD.
Usually, my family will eat cake :3 but that's about it. I don't get gifts xDD lol. My dad buys meh stuff, and is all like "Okay, this is you early birthday gift." and I'm like "Okay :'D" but as I agree I'm thinking "damn, but I wanted that cute new bag too. :T."
NOW HOLD ON A SECOND! I know some of you out there might be thinking "Awww, poor Emiko." (*cough cough* Gleek-kun!) Don't~ feel that way :3. I enjoy my peaceful birthdays. Big ass parties are hard to clean up. Now, even though I didn't have big ass parties for my birthday (cuz no one would show up T^T), I did go to other people's parties. I was the kid who'd stay behind and help clean up afterwards. Even though, the person didn't bother even coming to mine xP. So I know about how much trouble parties cause :3.

LOL anyways~ I was reminded that my unimportant birthday was coming up in about ..2 weeks? (lol too lazy to do the math xD). My brother was the one who reminded me (cuz he cares TTwTT). He was like "Daddy, what are we gonna get Emiko for her birthday :D?" my dad was like "Oh yea! It's Emiko's birthday soon." My dad forgot too. sigh. lol xD.

So then I started thinking...what do I want for my birthday? o.O I forgot about it, so I never thought about it. lol so I came up with a list :D. I want lots of things (even though I don't deserve them w/ meh worthless existence :P). I feel like tellin' you people my list :D just because I want to and I can. No one here to stop meh xD.

Luka-chan I want three drawings of my choice from the drawer where you keep most of your drawings.
hee hee x3 I got a look at the drawings in there, and they're EPIC <3 (lol I locked her out of her own room, in order to steal a look xD). so you should give meh some for meh birthday. pwease? :'3
Nyu-san I want at least one of your rare drawing of female(s). I wanna at least look at them. I'm curious as to how well you can draw females x3. or you can give meh a picture of you in a dress >:D. Come on, make meh happy. xD
Rin-chan hmm...I want ear plugs! so I don't have to hear your crazy perverted remarks all the time XD LOL jk...ish. xDD. but seriously, I want.... LOL XD I'm not sure what you can give meh.
Maybe you should give meh audio clip of you singing (cuz I like your voice :D). LOL XD but sing real songs, and not "Happy and you Know it." xDD
Banana-kun webcam. webcam. webcam! xDD or a picture of you sleeping :3 (LOL XD this may sound creepy to those who don't understand~). or an audio clip (preferably of you reading your answer for number 8 on the third interrogation time interview x3).
Katrina-chan I want ...lol..I'm not sure. Haha I KNOW WHAT I WANT!! :D NOBUTA POWER CHUNYUU!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_F7zYlGi_Tc skip to part 1:30. I want you to copy the girl doing the "Nobuta power chunyuu" thing :D :D :D !! Idk why, but I want you to do that! You can either give it to meh in video form (that'd be the best!) or just show meh in person x3. That'd be so kawii~ >w
Gleek-kun I want you to give meh a coupon (or two or three or four) for you to not sing for a whole day. Yesh, I want a coupon for that. I'd be the happiest person on earth if I get that from you!
Jessa-chan ....O_____O Idk what I want from you. LOL You should just get meh sour gummy worms :D :D !!
Pari-chan .....hmm....LOL XD You should write me up a whole long ass email. Yesh! I want a long email from you. It can be about anything(but it has to be exciting/entertaining!). I wanna see you try to write something super long x3. hee hee. this'll be torture for you.
Choco-chan DONT GET ME ANYTHING! DONT YOU DARE GET ME ANYTHING!! I already owe you sooooo much. So you have no need to give me a birthday gift :3. Your smile is good enough :D
Ai-chan O__O; Idk what you can get me. LOL ALL I WANT IS TO SEE YOU SMILE!!! THAT'D BE THE BEST GIFT! BUT IT HAS TO BE A REAL SMILE!! A REALLY REAL SMILE! Idc what causes you to smile, I just want a picture of you smiling a real true and beautiful smile. That'd make me the happiest woman alive :')
...well that's all the people I know...or at least I think so...idk...

EVERYONE SHOULD ALSO GET ME SOME SOUR GUMMY WORMS!!! THAT WOULD MAKE ME SO INCREDIBLY HAPPY~~!! cuz you all know how much I love sour gummy worms x3.

and for my readers out there, no I will not tell you my address so you can send me sour gummy worms. I'm not that desperate for meh fav. candy xD.

Readers I WANT YOU TO SHARE MY BLOG WITH EVERYONE YOU KNOW <3.
haha just blast an email with the link to everyone in your contacts list xDDD. LOL. start a chain letter or something. XD.
haha just kidding~ (or not x3). You people should just comment "happy birthday" on my blog. That's enough to make me happy :')

Har har har that is if you people can remember my birthday x3. This shall be the last post about meh birthday until the day after my birthday~. I'ma tell you people what happened on my birthday the day after because I'll probably be too lazy to write anything on the actual day xD.

Well I gotat go now~. So this is the end.

byes ^w^

My Dad Has His Flaws~

I love my dad a lot. I think he's really cool (for an old guy xD), and I wouldn't ask for any other dad. He's always very laid back and reasonable. I can actually call him an idiot or say "Yo dude, hand me some cookies!" while I'm laying on the couch being all lazy. Unlike some parents who would be all like "How dare you!" LOL But if I ask for cookies when I'm being lazy, he'll say "Get them yourself you lazy bum! You got two working feet!" He uses the words "epic" and "fail" and all those slang terms xD. He's not one to say "fiddle sticks!" or "dippidy do dah" LOL idk what people his age said xDD.
Haha he's super "funny" too though. Today~ I called him to pick me up from school, and I was like "Yo~ come take me home." Guess what his response was. "Hola! Como estas?" He likes to annoy me by wasting my time and pretending to be some random Spanish speaking guy...-____-. He's really lame like that xD. "Muy bien :V. Now take me home." "Por que? Sugio ne bleh bleh bleh." <--lol idr what he said xD. Btw, yesh, my dad is an asian dude who knows (some) spanish xD. Sigh~ he's so lame that when I call him, he'll sometimes say "Hello, this is dominos pizza. May I take your order?" "Yesh, I'll like a large 'take me home' with 'get your butt over here now' toppings, please. With a 'will you hurry it up' for dessert." LOL XD So yea~ my dad and I are pretty lame, but close. I enjoy that.

But he can be a REAL pain in the ass sometimes. He's smart. A total geek. And is somewhat conceited like me xD. He can get so annoying sometimes though because even though he says he doesn't know everything, he sure pretends to talk as if he does.

Today, I was talking to him about my student government things, and he started going off about "Oh, this is so stupid." and "I don't get why you're doing this." or "That is pointless!"
It really annoys me because even though I know he's trying to help, he makes it sound like I'm a total idiot and I fail at what I'm doing. I like knowing what I need to improve and how to do it. But I don't like how he judges everything I do before I even finish what the hell I'm saying. It's like "Shut up, so I can explain why I'm doing this!" If he were to listen to my god damned reasoning than everything would make sense to him. Sigh~ but my dad can be ignorant sometimes :V.

Sigh~ He's all like "No! Listen to me. What you're doing doesn't make sense from a business point of view." and I'm like "That's okay, but what I'm doing is what me and others have decided to do whether you think it's stupid or not :V."

LOL but other than that, my dad is pretty cool~ :3
Just needs to learn how to give advice without seeming like a mean critic.

A break from everything. That's all I want. Am I asking for too much?

I've been working on my two projects since..who knows how long?...since 1 p.m.? Right now it's like 5 p.m. So for four hours? That doesn't sound like a long time xD. But I've been doing random crap involving my projects for that long. Mostly reading a book, and jotting down notes here and there. And you know what sucks? What sucks is that after you take all these damn notes, and actually start working on the project, you realize just how useless the notes you take were. It makes you want to say "Damn....damn. damn. damn!" Sigh~ so now I'm stuck flipping through my book (technically it's a nook), and searching for the right info. Tsk tsk tsk I'm such an idiot. And now since my brain is like fried at the moment, I'm taking a slight break. Just a tiny break. Felt like blogging, ranting about my projects. I tend to do that a lot. People start to get annoyed at me for it after awhile. They start to say things like "Well it's your fault for not doing it sooner!" or "You're such an idiot." or "Will you just shut up already?!" lol so I'm just gonna complain to my heart's content on meh blog :3. I have to create a fake facebook page about a person. I'm supposed to include comments of people they know, a blog entry, and an all about me thing. It's quite annoying. I had to choose a biography or autobiography, and write about the person. I chose the autobiography book called I'm Sorry You Feel That Way: The Astonishing but True Story of a Daughter, Sister, Slut, Wife, Mother, and Friend to Man and Dog by Diana Joseph. It had an interesting title, and the text wasn't boring. Thus, I decided to read and write about it. The only problem is that she's not someone spectacularly famous, so I can't just use information from Wikipedia or something :P. There's no one specific place with all the information for me. It was a really funny book though, and I enjoyed reading it x3. It's just a pain in the ass to write about it :V. It's also a pain when I got my math project due too. Life is annoying in this way.
I'm almost finished with my math project though. I got my report done (yesh x3 !). I just need to finish my display. I did a report on the Seven Bridges of Konigsberg. It's a really cool topic, but annoying to write about. LOL Okay, I minus well just say everything you have to do a school assignment is annoying to write about xP. School in general is annoying :V but it's something ya got to get through before you can move on. Anyways, I still have to finish my model before I am completely done with my darn math project. I'll probably work on it after I'm done blogging.
Sigh~ my brain feels like it's melting lately. I need a break. I really do. Weekends provide some comfort in my busy schedule, but I want more time. I need more time Too bad time is something that is limited :\
It's not just projects or homework. It's everything. I have no more free time. No time to sleep. No time for anime or manga or dramas. No time to laugh and hang out with friends anymore. It just...sucks xP. But I'll make things work I guess. I always find a way, somehow :3. Time is something I can manage (most of the time xD). Except, it would be easier if I wasn't such a procrastinator :P. Bleh. sigh~ I miss being lil'. I didn't have to do so much back then. My sis is lucky. She just sits on her computer all day and watches anime~. She doesn't realize how lucky she is. She doesn't realize how valuable time is yet. She's blissfully ignorant to the problems that will come; which is kind of the best part of being a kid. My sis needs to grow up soon though. She needs to open her eyes. She hasn't realized that her time as a kid is about to end soon. Because she doesn't realize this yet though, her grades are slipping as she continues to watch anime. Her desk is becoming a mess and she's getting sloppier by the day as she reads her manga. Reality is losing her. I worry for her often. I worry for my brothers, and my friends, and my dad. They all have different issues. There's always something to worry about. I'm not saying that I'm perfect. I'm not saying that I don't do things that might make people worry. I just think too much. Thinking causes me to realize things; which causes me to worry about things. It's quite a burden really, but I think it just means I care. (but sometimes I care too much).I don't like thinking sometimes. It causes me to be sad at times. Thoughts can be scary too. All this thinking is useless though. I can think and think and think, but I can never seem to think of a way to fix things. To help improve things. With all this thinking power, I can't do shit. And that's the most annoying part about thinking. It must be just my intelligence level; which annoys me because than I feel stupid. I feel useless. I can give all the advice, philosophical insight, and lectures I want, but it won't do any good. It never does. People call me helpful. Some say I give good advice. But I've never seen it really help anyone yet. Am I just a person who wastes time by telling people things? By sharing my thoughts? Is my advice a waste of air?

Ha! How I came from talking about annoying projects to my uselessness, is beyond me. I switch topics quite frequently I guess :3.
Bleh :P well my mind needs a break from all of this. I'll just continue to busy myself with my projects because thinking about this is just getting me depressed >__<.
*smells food that's being cooked* mmm~~ x3 smells yummyy~~. My dad's cookin' tonight. I love his cooking <33. can't wait 'till dinner. Haha xD well let's just hope I can finish these damn projects before dinner time comes, eh? Wish meh luck~ ;D