I'm Such a Loner

I haven't blogged in awhile, and I'm terribly sorry for that ;A;. Anyways, I'll just go on talking instead of wasting a bunch of time explaining to you why I was so busy.


There's so much that has happened these past days. I feel so OLD nowadays. And I don't know why, but I've been having this alone-in-a-crowd type of feeling. ;A; //lonerr. I go to my high school so I can take certain classes earlier, and get them outta the way for when the school year actually starts. Basically, it's like starting high school ahead of time XD. I've never had a problem with talking to people. I may seem like a total anti-social freak, but I'm actually quite talkative (believe it or not XD). However, I just can't make friends at Bronx Science~~ xP. I mean I have like a few friends, but when you're in a school with like over a thousand kids, everything is so foreign no matter what. I'm not sure how to explain it. I feel like I'm in a whole new country or something. Even though I've gotten through a week and two days, I still feel all weird and uncomfortable with it. I think it's probably like freshman-syndrome or something. And there is no way I'm actually going to try to befriend everyone. No. I'm not that desperate for friends xD. To be honest, I just want to focus on my studies. Friends are like distracting .___. you know? I mean just my middle school friends are sucking up all my time. High school friends? No way. xP.


I'm sort of stuck though. I should make friends, so that I can like make future connections since Bronx Science will most likely "raise" successful people or whatever. However, I also want to just not have friends, and like just study. ...HAHA XD Me studying? LOL. sounds like a dream :'D. I do want to get serious about this whole "being a smart" person thing though. That's why I feel that separating myself from people will help. That's why I'm stuck. Should I gain connections or study? ;A;... they're both good, but it's one or the other type of thing. Well... I suppose, I can use the first two years to study my ass off, and be like wayy ahead. Then use the last two years to gain connections. LOL. Yea, I think that's my high school plan =w=b.


Oh, on a further note, I'll talk about how Ronny and I are doing. I don't know why this happens. However, whenever there's an awkward moment with my friend and I while we're talking, the first question they can think to ask me is "So.. how are you and pineapple?" It's like "Whyyyy??" First off, that only makes things more awkward. And secondly, it's a weird question to answer without coming off as some love-sick puppy or something! I would respond diligently, but they'll just be like "ew," or "tmi, dude, just tmi". I'll just be sitting there pissed off, thinking "Then why did you ask!?! >O //angry face." So I only answer with, "We're fine." However, people are never satisfied with that answer! They always think "Oh, so things aren't going well, hnn?" And I'm like "uh.. how the fawk did you get the exact opposite of what I just said?" People can be so annoying sometimes. Humans make no sense =__=;;.