Everything is Better Now! Yipee!

I should've updated about this sooner. lol.
BUT WE ARE GOOD NOW. like for a week now. XD
I'm still upset that he didn't come see me on my anniversary. But like, the day has passed, and so will the anger.

However, if he doesn't bring me flowers the next time he comes over to my house, I'ma kill him. LOL.

Anyways, cute conversation of the night:

me: good night. I love you c:
him: I love you more! more than bacon and eggs!
me:
woah.
woah.
woah.
MORE THAN BACON AND EGGS?
him: well maybe not, but pretty much on the same level!
me: GOOD. because I thought you were going insane.
him: XD good night

lol. yea, we're that kind of couple... XD
the only thing we fight over on a daily basis is food.


(pssst. but here's the secret. he totes loves me more than bacon and eggs. LOL)

Huzzah to Crappy Anniversaries *insert sad smile and shoulder shrug

Last night was probably the worst night out of my sixteen years of living. I'm not even being dramatic. Lol I'm a pretty happy person, so I have actually never really had a bad night. I feel like if there were gods, I had just got my ass smited. It was as if the fates set me on that path, and I tried everything to think it was otherwise.

My friend was going to see her boyfriend Friday, but it ended up going pretty badly for her because she was unable to go. She was looking forward to the day for the whole week; her excitement building up and growing. Only for that excitement to collapse all around her into bitter sadness, as he caused for her to not go. She tried to talk to me about it, but I couldn't see the point of being so upset. I think I was kind of harsh even because to be honest, I found it to be irrational. I didn't understand.

Somewhat coincidentally, I was seeing my boyfriend Saturday (today) as I stated earlier it's our anniversary today. However... last night, he tells me "Hey, I didn't start my homework. Can't go tomorrow". Just thinking of it infuriates me!  Who the hell goes on a skii trip for three days, play League of Legends the next few days, and then goes to a late night church party, but has the audacity to casually be like 'oh, i can't go to see you on our anniversary because i have bad organization and planning'. Bam. I was smited. It's like karma for not treating my friend with more sincerity ;A;. I planned for two weeks and got all excited. I feel like a fool. I started to cry the moment he started telling me he couldn't go. I had this bitter feeling he wouldn't before, but I wanted to have faith he would come. I feel like with his 'bad planning' he never really planned on going anyways or at least didn't place as much importance on it. I don't know, I'm sixteen and wild. I couldn't really believe I'd stick with ONE guy for a whole year. I mean especially having a family where my aunt tells me things like "Dat a boy for the school year, dump him in the summer to have some free time, and get a new boyfriend next school year" or my dad who tells me about his many girlfriends in high school. So for me, liking a guy for a whole year straight is a pretty big deal. I think I really love this boy or as close as teenage emotions can get to love! So my excitement crashed around me into bitter sadness as well. smited.

Now I'm watching chick flicks and wandering why I'm so damn loyal to this boy.
boys are stupid. i feel stupid. this is stupid.

It was a really bad night. I kind of wanted to break up with him right then and there. I've been kind of wanting to for a few days now. Thinking my feelings aren't enough to power this relationship. My actions are strong. His are half baked; feeling like he treats as a "close" friend but not a girlfriend.
I wouldn't say we fought. We're mature enough to talk it out. He calls for a break. It was like he didn't even wanted to fight to keep me. Flat out "Let's take a break" using the excuse that he wants best for me and whatnot.

I feel that... the reason this feels tough on me is that it's kind of happened to me before... kind of... in a vague sense. Boy I like rejects me on Valentine's day. LOL. life. I don't know, I'm actually still really good friends with said boy XD. Besides that though, now as it afternoon/evening (when all this BS break stuff happened at like 2 in the morning), he tells me he doesn't want a break. what is wrong with boys? T^T. I told him I wanted a break now >:T
I don't know. Maybe a few days without each other, we can learn to appreciate each other again?
He initially said a week, I changed it to two days with the recent decision of him not wanting it. LOL. two days can work? ;w;. I don't know, I don't want a break but my woman instincts tell me it's needed :c I don't know. I just don't want him to think he can easily just run back to me Dx because then this problem will just happen again.

I feel like I will either get bitter or my "cool" won't last and just love him more x___x;;.

-why do i post these personal things-

Update On... Well, My Life!

Haven't posted in eons. Lots to share. So here I go!

Extra Curricular Life
I've been mostly spending my time with my new blog JTUD (Journey To the Unknown Destination). Please read and go check it out! :D I'm working really hard! lol
I have to say, working with my mentor is really exciting! I get to work at a place called the FlatIron School. It's a really awesome place!  My mentor, Sara J Chipps, is really nice and awesome! (subscribe to her KittieBots!! ) She also introduces me to her coworkers, and they're awesome too. lool. Everything there is really cool. They have funky chairs and white-board tables and giant computers and projectors.
The Subway next door is my savior because I always find myself rushing out the door to get to the place (it's an hour travel time haha). However, I tried going to someplace across the street today. It was super yummy and the service was nice too! ...except, I think the server tried hitting on me LOL. (cuz I'm just so beautiful. Just kidding! XD hahaa...). Then on my way back to the building, this pamphlet distributor guy came up to me, and was like "Do you wanna tour the statue of liberty" and I'm like "No thank you". Then he wouldn't leave me alone LOL Started asking me if I worked around the area, and I really didn't want to explain my whole mentor-apprenticeship thing. It's really none of his business anyway LOL so I just said "Yeaa.....(lets go with that lol)". Then he asked me out to lunch. ((THE SINGLE BE THIRSTY. LOL. I told my single friend that, and he got upset with me XD. idk. I'm sorry)) I kindly declined the pamphlet guy, and ran into my building. hahaa....... is it just me, or is it really uncomfortable to be hit on? Not trying to show off or anything, but idk I'm young and it makes me nervous Dx. Anyways, my Intel project is going really well! Meeting all these different kinds of people and having the experience of these travels are amazing. The freedom ;w;. The hopes of the future. The memories.

Current Love Life
This Saturday (Feb 22) is my one year anniversary with my boyfriend!!
We're just going to hang out at my house and watch movies :)
I really do love him ^____^ or whatever you want to call this warm, fuzzy feeling in me that makes me just wanna run through a field of flowers screaming for joy.
I mean it does get rough between us (I mean it has been a year after all). We just get sick of each other sometimes, but we usually figure it out in the end :)
He's really the best! Deals with all my female moody troubles and loves me despite all flaws. He doesn't try to fix me, and that's what I love the most. (lol... well, he is a super tryhard in the fixing dept. when it comes to League of Legends though.... but boys will be boys XD). I mean there are things I like and don't like, but that's normal in everyone. My biggest problem is always thinking I'm not good enough. I don't know. Despite how confident I am, whenever it comes to opening myself up, I'm scared the one I love won't accept what's inside :c ...yea, deep stuff, but... it's how I feel.
On a more happier note, haha, I'm reallyyy excited to see him Saturday! It's mid-winter break right now, so I haven't seen him in FOREVER (*cough. cue in that one person to say "it's only been 7 days..."). Honestly, I'm just so addicted to the happiness he brings me that even a weekend apart makes me die from missing him. ♥

School Life
LOL. Like I don't even want to talk about this. I'm doing pretty okay, I guess. My only grade in the 80s is AP Human Geography (but that's because I have the crappiest memory in this world), but it's only like an 88-89ish. just need that 0.5 on my 89 to get that 90 ;w; plsplspls.On my midtermss, I think someone replaced my brain for the whole midterms week because all of them were in the 80s. I don't know why, but when it comes to test, my brain shuts off and gets substituted by a dummy. EXCEPT MY ENGLISH WAS A 98. omg. English is just my favorite most loved subject in the world ♥♥♥.

I feel like I'm going to die in Junior year. I'm hoping to take AP Java, AP US history, AP Psychology, and Intel.

Life in General
I feel poor .___.
Spending money to take train to mentor. Spending money to buy clothes (i think i hav an addiction). Spending money to buy birthday gifts. Spending money to buy food. Spending money on cake (i totes hav an addiction). Spending money on things I want in general.
Money is too big of a part in life LOL.

I'm facing fashion bipolar-ness. I can't choose between punky tomboy or cutie-pie girly as my style. I find myself constantly switching between the two. what is identity? what is style? LOL. My ripped jeans and rockin' black vest or my pink glasses and lace-y shirts. Haha #TeenageGirl.

I LEARNED TO CROCHET. it's so amazing. I make hats. I make scarves as gifts. I make couple scarves for my love and I. ♥ It's such a fun hobby. IM SO SAD THOUGH. I found this perfect yarn store. And as I finally found her, turns out, she's going out of business by the end of this February. fate is cruel ;A;. I bought like a pound of yarn for $10. that's amazing.

Easy to Win. Hard to Keep.

My heart will instantly swoon for any guy for any one of the reasons below:

1. Laughs at my jokes.
2. Compliments me in anything (appearance, wits, ability, etc.)
3. Pretends that he cares when I ramble on (about things like my love for bakery goods).
4. Has nice, warm, big hugs!
5. Can smolder like Flynn Rider from Tangled. XD LOL.
6. Makes me laugh three times in one sentence.
7. Dresses stylishly. B-)
8. Brings me into daring, spontaneous situations (that doesn't kill me and are fun).
9. Spams corny lines at me.
10. Attempts to catch fuzzies on the street. ♥
11. Loves children.
12. Can match my witty, sassy remarks. But still lets me win.
13. Has gorgeous hair ;w;
14. Has green eyes
15. Is positive and outgoing :D

LOL. Nairb has like 10 of the 15 :) ....unsure about number 5. so its 10 or 11. XD. But that's more than 60%, so that's why he's my boyfriend~. (66%, but shhh). hehee.

Buuut, although I fall in love easily, it's really super duper difficult for me to stay in love with someone. particularly boys. LOL I can lovee any guurl forevs. Only reason why I'd stop is if she backstabbed me or took my last cookie. It's hard for me to continuously love a guy for a long time is because one little thing can make me wanna just drop them like nothing. It could be because I got bored~ or something about them totally went against my principles or I found an annoying trait I just can't stand. I can fall for you easy, and I can stand back up easy.

Keeping Emiko goes as follows:

1. Surprise me. Be spontaneous. Become too predictable, and it's an O-U-T.
2. Keep my confidence level up. LOL Make me feel like shit, and I'm out the door.
3. Don't be too much smarter than me. Don't be too much dumber than me.
4. Work like you have to win me over everyday. LOL I like feeling special. xD
5. Be as loyal as I am to you :O
6. Always compete to love me more than I do you.
7. Pay attention. Listen. Remember what I tell you. I feel like I'm talking to bricks if you forget.
8. Talk to me when I'm mad. Talk to me when you think I might be mad (because I probably am).

I'm pretty sure there's more, but I can't think of any.

I've only had 2 (official) relationships so far. Second one is going pretty awesome. Dun wanna say how many Nairb has on the "ways to keep me" list, but he's doing a great job at it. I've learned a few rules along the way though.

•  Cut off date is two months. Plenty of time to get to know someone. Feeling half-assed at two months? Then it's not worth my time.
• Wait at least two weeks before kissing the guy :o because kissing anywhere in between that time, the relationship is totally going to be physical base. I personally want something meaningful. a mix of passion and compassion.
• If he loves saying your name all the time, whenever he can, then he's gonna be special.

This is all in my opinion, of course.
I still don't know much because not many of my friends have experienced relationships. It's all information gathered from my own experience. lol. disclaimer.

It's All About the Mush Today

OH MI GOOODNESS.
TODAY. AUGUST 22, 2013. MARKS SIX MONTHS OF DATING NAIRB. ;w;

like woahh. I'm actually quite proud of myself since I didn't think I was the type to settle down for so long XD. hehe.

I haven't talked much about our relationship lately (which is surprising since I totally kiss-and-tell), but that's because I have Rinny to talk it out with so my blog got outta the loop XD. For six months though, I got to share why I love this boy so much!

It'd be hard to put why I love him in a few words or paragraphs. I love basically almost everything about him! Hehe. "Almost" because I must admit, he does have his flaws. Like he tends to ramble a lot, in ways where he says all the wrong things and sometimes upsets me. he likes to sing in the middle of our conversations. and Nairb falls asleep way too soon during late night conversations.

But as these flaws do frustrate me at times, I can see the brighter side of it as well.
He rambles because he's nervous around me. constantly trying. adorable. great when he actually finds the right words.
He's a really great singer. LOL. I can always continue what I was saying after the entertainment xD. because his voice is so soft and sweet and MUCH better than mine LOL.
And google tells me that people fall asleep in mid conversation in late night talks because they feel so comforted by you that they fall asleep XD. hahaaa.

Nah. that was supposed to sound adoring and everything. but it didn't come off that way, huh?

Anyways, all jokes and flaws aside, there are sosoo many reasons why this relationship has last this long and continues to strive. through thick and thin and all the mess. Because when I'm with him it's like the world disappears. All I want is to hear him talk to me, have his arms around me, and see his smile. We could be sitting in the boys clothing department in Target, and still make it the most romantic place in the world XD. It's all about the feeels.

OH! besides the feels, there's the fact that he's very stubborn. persistent. and tries hard. at everything. I love that about him. I could be upset about something and not willing to share, but he'll get it out of me if it's the last thing he does. lol. Nairb is the kind of guy who will push himself to carry heavy me bridal style down the street and to the movie theaters despite it being quite the rigorous workout. hahaa XD. I think that's amazing. He laughs at all my jokes, challenges my thoughts, and thinks of me as his one and only. Doesn't get overly jealous, but jealous enough. Wants nothing but my happiness, and puts my feelings first (most of the time. all of the time?). The boy even stops in the middle of walking to catch a fuzzy (those little cotton stuff that floats in the air)! It's all the little things. and all the big things. That added up, makes for the most amazing guy ever. Nairb.

If you saw Nairb and I, you'd instantly see how we're a good couple. Haha. And I'm not just saying that from opinion. I've been told so. xD
I can sit here all day naming all the reasons why I've come to love Nairb. all the little moments we've shared that'd make you go "aww" and have your hearts feeling all hopeful and loving.
But I have to go play Tetris with my family. LOL.

The Little Idiosyncrasies

So I decided to fuck memoirs and trying to find my "niche" for now. LOL.
I'll get around to it...eventually.

I haven't posted in a while (mostly too busy playing League of Legends and doing homework :P)

I'm currently slightly sick right now, feeling better though, and need to finish geometry homework (graphing on line paper ftw! :'D). So for now, I'll share a little piece to catch you up.

Life with mah boyfriend is going wonderfully~. ^o^. I can't wait to see him everday, and I try to see him as much as possible (since we don't have any classes together :c ). I feel like I'm growing slightly clingy, but like.... I can't help it? >__<.
And no, we haven't kissed yet~ :P (everybody always asks us this .___. ). Hopefully, this will change soon >D. LOL. But it's okay too~. I know this one couple who has been dating for like a yearr~, and hasn't kissed yet Cx. It's kinda sweet, but crazy at the same time o3o.
Nairb is really amazing though. He wants to see and accept both the good and bad parts about me. And everyday his actions show me that he'll really love me through thick and thin. But even though I know this, I'm having trouble with showing him the little idiosyncrasies of myself. It's like, with a friend, I can be retarded as hell. It's because I don't give a damn about what they think of me. For Nairb though, I want him to always think I'm..in a sense... perfect, or as close as I can be to perfect.

I'm a very confident person... but only because I know all my good qualities, and I know how to show them off. With being able to always appear as this great person, you get kind of confident. But, that means I hide all my imperfections, the things I'm self conscious of.
Like, I don't wear pony tails in public... because it shows off my face, and makes it look chubby :c. Plus, the back of my neck is very red and stupid looking. Aint nobody wants to see that :P. I think my ears look weird too :T
I never show my feet to the public~ (wearing socks to a friend's house) because I think my feet look weird. My toes are oddly long and thin o3o.
I don't let people look at my hands up close either. I have a lot of imperfections to hide :c

I don't just show you my imperfections just because you tell me you won't judge me. It's like, I know you'll secretly judge me anyway o-o. A few close friends like Luka, Rin, and Choco have been able to see some of my imperfectionss. There comes a point when I can trust a person not to judge, but that comes with a lot of trust.

I don't know when it'll come to the point where I'll trust Nairb enough to show him the bad of me.

OH! By the way, I think I'm growing a cheek fetish xD;. I just can't help, but pinch, rub, carress people's cheeks~. I know how all my friend's cheeks feel. My favorite though is, of course, Nairb's cheeks >w<. Like omgs~. They're just like... idk. they feel magical :O.

So I've Changed a Lot

IM BACKK.
I haven't posted in forever, but I'm here now, babyy. And I have MUCH to share with you. Really, high school started out kinda boring as I was such a noob. Now thoughh, I have so many friends that it's impossible to say that my life can ever be dull anymore.

I think I've changed quite a bit in high school. Hahaa, as a middle schooler, I was all in denial and like "NO. I refruse to change!" I totally thought I wouldn't have changed, buut I have. Don't worry thoughh. I still be bringing in the ladies and being a pimp, makin' all thee boys jelly for my charm. LOL. Mostly because I've grown fond of corny pick up lines, and learned how to be all sweet, and give out compliments~. Howeverr, I ain't a man charmer anymore. I didn't like all the weird male attention in middle school >__<, so I became a little meaner. LOL Thanks to the advice of my Rinny-chan ♥♥. She was all like "Gurl, you gotta be more coldd to the male species or stahp complaining." I've learned how to be mean. It was really hard, but I achieved :'D. Like I've mastered the Art of Insulting like a pro~. But my natural charm still be workingg, and I got tons of new friends :D. Also, I've looked deeper into myselff lately too. I've realized that I'm not the happy-dandy, kind, and self less pesron I thought I was. AH HA. I'm totally a terrible person who be greedy and shallow and evil. You'll probably see why as I write more. YESH. I plan to write more often. OMG. I'll even use my free periods during school if I have to ♥


OH, and if you notice my speech to be a little weird... just ignore it. I've been influenced. //end of story. xD

Anyways, for my guy/romance life, I went through a roller coaster of TEN guys. Yea, in my mind, I'm a total player. Haha, not my fault that boys in my school beats girls like a 10 to 1. But don't worry people. I've FINALLY settled down, and chose my one and only ♥. LOL. Har, so yup, I've gotten myself a boyfriendd. And everybody be shipping him and me together. Wonder how they'll react when I share the news XD;;. Except BB, she thinks mah new love is ugly, and that I deserve better. AHA. Gotta love her honesty. But it's how I feel, and not her, so... ^_____^ //ignoring her oppinions atm. I bet she's just jelly that I got what I wantedd. UMPH.

Important part: I like himm. I don't care what nobody thinks. The official declaring happened like yesterday, so I can't say much about it yet. LOL. To be honestt, I feel like his second optionn though, which makes me sad D: but... I can't say I'm innocent either, so it's fair. lol. But lets see, I'll call him... Nairb :D. Haha, I "kiss and tell" too much >__<, so I'll just share the basics :D. Lets just say I had to help a friend out. Led to the meeting of him. Some subway rides home. A nice Saturday date. And it ends with a sweet clarification. ^____^

MOVING ON.
Another major thing going on in my life would be my beauts friends Stitch(fem) and Aladdin. Excuse the weird names, LOL, I'm using their Disney decided names (I'm Lilo btw). Ohemgi~. I played cupid for them on Valentine's Day, and they have soo much drama going on. The funny part is Aladdin and I are like frenemies, but we're like each other's wingman. XD. I feel more like his therapist though :V because the boy don't know what he's doing. It's like I have to reassure him about everything all the timme. Makes me so depressed sometimes .___.

OMG BUT HE FOUND MY BLOGG. Out of all the people who had to find my blog, it had to be Aladdin OTL. arghh. LOL I was hopping to keep it a secret in high school xD. Oh well~. Haha, but since he OWES me for being Cupid, he promises to not tell Nairb lool. Nairb is kinda stoofid though. He knows my username Emiko Seiei, and I was like "I use that for everything online." But he's too stoofid to think of using Google. Har harr. Cx Aladdin is so judgemental of my blog though. He be calling me too much of a fangirl. But like I'm just like, "As a friend, I don't care about your feelings~" Haha, that prhase doesn't sound right, but for him and me it does xD. But thee bitch stole that phrase from me by saying it all the time xP.

ALSOO. I've been in the cooking club for awhile at school noww. Don't think I mentioned this before. OMG. My club president though is soo beautifuul~. LOL *cough. I mean, cooking club is really fun, and I'm learning how to NOT burn down a kitchen (and some delish food recipes too). Haha, but my club president really is beautiful. AND she's super nice. Can you imagine that? Beautiful + Kind + Smart + Cooking skills = PERFECT wife. She's amazing :'D. LOL. She was my inspiration to think of the advantages of being a polygamist. I mean, if I was to be a polygamist, I would have one husband and one wife. A wife for all the cooking and house chores I don't want to do. And a husband for all thee fun activites. kufufu~. LOL. ofc, I'm joking, but it's an interesting idea xD.

OH. And I've started playing League of Legends. Mostly because of Nairb, but it really is a fun game. And I've met all his friends from childhood. LOL. Only known them for a monthh, but we're all pretty good friends :D. Haha, he jokes about me stealing them from him xD.

Anyways, yea, that's all the updates for now :D.
So see youu, and have a nice day >w<.

Pinmi News??

I know I haven't blogged for at least two weeks, or at least, I know it's been awhile. Friends have begun to continually ask me "Are you blogging?" or "Have you blogged yet?" I'm sorry I've been gone for awhile. It's high school again :\. Gosh, I'm only taking three simple classes (art, health, and music), so I don't have to deal with them later in the school years. Why is it sucking up so much of my time?! If I'm already being occupied with these three little classes, then what will regular high school be like? It'll probably be pure hell

Sighh. but I don't want to talk about school (or the fact that I got two major tests coming up TT^TT). Let's talk about something else. But what? LOL. I really have no clue xD.

Well... some have been asking for an update on Ronny and I.... I guess I could talk about that? so that less people would ask about it xD;;.

Yesterday, he came over to my house. LOL. yea... big step, eh? ^ ^;.
Don't get too excited. He didn't meet my dad. And no, he didn't rape me or anything. Just saying because some of you make the weirdest guesses sometimes xD. He came over to just watch movies with me :) tralala~.


However, even though he didn't meet my dad, he did meet my three little siblings. LOL. That's how I got to have him over. The deal was that if he came over, my dad got to have a play day of his own. That means, all my little siblings stayed home with me during my date, while he goes out xD. I took the offer. I just wanted a day with Ronny. Haven't seen that boy for an entire week. pure torture


It was quite interesting. My brother, Zoom~ (lame nickname, I know xD), showed him his Pokemon cards and other weird possessions xD. My other brother, Gal, licked him >___>..... which was very disturbing. LOL. It was on the face and ear, I think ....to be honest, I found it kinda funny and mortifying at the same time XD. Not to mention, Gal also tried to take off his socks numerous times. I don't know why, but that boy loves to do that! Last time, when Rin-chan came over, he successfully managed to take off her socks, and shoved it down her shirt. U__U there's something wrong with that lil' boy! Zoom also forced him to play Mario Party 9 (he made an emphasis on the 9 for some reason ^ ^;). And the most hilarious part about the whole thing was that Ronny wanted to be Princess Peach... orz. no comment...


What did my sister do though? Well, she's like 12 (i think...>__>...), so she doesn't do anything weird like take off his socks xD. She just kinda stared at him... and went back to her computer. And I love her for that!! LOL. It would've been weirder if she did something weird T^T. I mean 12 year old + weird activity = nothing good. xD.


Overall though, my brothers seemed to like him :'D. Gal warmed up to him pretty quickly (was lying against his leg. jumping on him. and other things lil' children do to show affection xD). Zoom didn't try to scare him half to death or bore him with animal facts. Zoom is a pretty good brother to tell you the truth. Like, he said if my boyfriend were to ever hurt me or make me cry, he would personally kick his butt (you feel threatened, Ronny? XD). When he told me that, I was like "O__O;; uh, thank you?" LOL. I don't know what a seven year old could do to a teenage boy who was like twice his height... but it's the thought that counts, I suppose xD. And since he seemed to have declared Ronny as a good boyfriend, so that makes me happy :D.
I don't know what my sister thinks of him ^ ^;;. I think she called him ugly... despite how much I would have to disagree with that. But she hasn't like annoyed or teased me about him yet, so I assume that is a good sign xD.

I'm glad things went well ^___^. My siblings were miraculously able to keep the house clean for his visit. I spent my whole Friday afternoon cleaning. LOL. Today, Sunday, it's messy again. xD. A clean environment only has a one-day lifespan in my house.

Him and I watched Paul and Rat Race. Both good movies, in my opinion :D. ...And... that's all I say. XD. Lolool~.

So yea, I wonder what'll happen when he meets my dad. I don't think he ever will (unless we date for like 10 years or something XDD. //obviously exaggerating, but still~). My dad seems to be slightly annoyed by, slightly accepting of the fact that I have a boyfriend ^ ^;;. Not ready to let his first born go, I suppose~. But he's warming up to the idea. LOL. hopefully xD.

ps. I finally got around to replying to the comments on the "I'm Such a Loner" post xD. so you can go check that out if you want...

A Penny for My Thoughts

 

 Haha, so today is Ronny and I's one week anniversary. We didn't celebrate or do anything special. According to Ronny everyday is our anniversary x3. In all honesty, one week is really nothing to celebrate about. It's more of one month or year anniversaries that are nice because I think that is a long enough time to actual celebrate about xD.

Hmm... but I suppose even after one week, I still have thoughts about how I feel and whatnot~. Yea, I don't talk about my feelings very often, do I? xD. //feeding the fans. LOL <3.

note: was just thinking of a couple name for us. LOL. and what I came up with was Pinmi. Sounds like "pin me". LMAO. that's dirty xD. ("Pin" from his nickname of Pineapple. "Mi" from Emiko.) Haha, but if you wanna use Ronny. Than it'd be Ronko. LMAO let's conclude with saying we just don't have good names to combine

Anyways~, we've been dating for an official one week as of now :3. And I hope we continue to date. (this is good sign xD //derp).

Ronny is very good to me though~. All those who keep telling me that they'll kill him if he hurts me doesn't have to worry xD. I mean he really tries his best to make me happy :). And he's willing to do anything for me. That's just like incredible. I'm like crazy as hell, and he has the will to go along with it all. You know how incredible that is?! I mean to find someone who supports whatever I want to do despite how insane it sounds. I love how he cares so much for me too. Always worrying about me, and making sure I'm okay. I love knowing that he'll always be there for me.

I mean my friends are always there for me too, and I rant to them about every lil' issue I have all the time. My friends are just always there to catch me, you know? But with Ronny it's a bit of a different feeling... he's always there for me like my friends are. However, when I'm with Ronny I can just lean on his shoulder and actually think. I don't have to say a word or explain a single thing. He'll just let me be, and hold my hand for reassurance. He's surprisingly comforting xD. Ronny makes me happy :). He's so incredibly sweet too! Always telling me the nicest things... even when I know it's so totally bullsh*t. //it's the thought of trying that counts :'D. LOL.

When we're together though, we don't talk much. Ronny and I mostly talk online xD. (LOL IM-ing ftw <3). At least we have some form of communication though :'D. The only time I really ever remember us talking an actual lengthy conversation is when we're by ourselves. Otherwise, I'm always interrupted by someone ._____. like... I really think there's such a thing as too many friends. LOL. I remember someone telling me that once. It's sometimes hard to talk to me because I'm always like surrounded by people. Dunno why, but I realized I am xD. But that's okay~, friends are good ^___^. And they're just curious. I mean, I bug couples all the time too C: tee hee~.  Anyways, I'm quite fine with how things are though. By the way I described it, you'd think we'd have bad communication... but we don't xD. LOL. I think we understand each other pretty well ^__^b. We're very open with each other :)

I'm a bad girlfriend though ^ ^;;. I like totally enslave him all the time. And tease about his "fluffy"-ness (I shouldn't be talking too! because I'm heavier than him D; like wtfuu~). Even though he's valedictorian, I still call him stupid and a dumbass ^ ^;. Also, I feel like I'm hogging him away from his friends ;A;. He's always around me, and like doesn't get to spend time with his friends because of that D: which must suck for his friends and him. Like ai ya~. I should be better towards him Dx. Hopefully, I'm not all bad though ;A; ?  I don't know for sure though~. I mean it's not like I can give a honest opinion about myself because I can't look at myself from another person's point of view. Sigh~ .___.

All in all though, things are going well though :) or at least, I believe/hope they are xD;;. Everyone says we make a cute couple; which makes me happy ^__^. At first, I thought everyone would reject us as a couple ^ ^;;. Just thought people would~. (people have this strange tendency to not be able to share me xD;;). I admit it is kind of embarrassing when someone asks about us... but it's a nice kind of embarrass-feeling. It makes me feel happy that I can say yes whenever someones asks if he's mine <3.

And since Ronny reads my blog (like the total creep he is xD), I'll just leave this picture for him:

found out: http://alchemyotaku17.deviantart.com/art/This-is-Love-148816474

ps. yea, we both have a thing for rainbows xD.
and like damn, even though it rained today, I forgot to look out the window for the rainbows ;A;.

Happy one week anniversary, good lookin' <3 ;D