Easy to Win. Hard to Keep.

My heart will instantly swoon for any guy for any one of the reasons below:

1. Laughs at my jokes.
2. Compliments me in anything (appearance, wits, ability, etc.)
3. Pretends that he cares when I ramble on (about things like my love for bakery goods).
4. Has nice, warm, big hugs!
5. Can smolder like Flynn Rider from Tangled. XD LOL.
6. Makes me laugh three times in one sentence.
7. Dresses stylishly. B-)
8. Brings me into daring, spontaneous situations (that doesn't kill me and are fun).
9. Spams corny lines at me.
10. Attempts to catch fuzzies on the street. ♥
11. Loves children.
12. Can match my witty, sassy remarks. But still lets me win.
13. Has gorgeous hair ;w;
14. Has green eyes
15. Is positive and outgoing :D

LOL. Nairb has like 10 of the 15 :) ....unsure about number 5. so its 10 or 11. XD. But that's more than 60%, so that's why he's my boyfriend~. (66%, but shhh). hehee.

Buuut, although I fall in love easily, it's really super duper difficult for me to stay in love with someone. particularly boys. LOL I can lovee any guurl forevs. Only reason why I'd stop is if she backstabbed me or took my last cookie. It's hard for me to continuously love a guy for a long time is because one little thing can make me wanna just drop them like nothing. It could be because I got bored~ or something about them totally went against my principles or I found an annoying trait I just can't stand. I can fall for you easy, and I can stand back up easy.

Keeping Emiko goes as follows:

1. Surprise me. Be spontaneous. Become too predictable, and it's an O-U-T.
2. Keep my confidence level up. LOL Make me feel like shit, and I'm out the door.
3. Don't be too much smarter than me. Don't be too much dumber than me.
4. Work like you have to win me over everyday. LOL I like feeling special. xD
5. Be as loyal as I am to you :O
6. Always compete to love me more than I do you.
7. Pay attention. Listen. Remember what I tell you. I feel like I'm talking to bricks if you forget.
8. Talk to me when I'm mad. Talk to me when you think I might be mad (because I probably am).

I'm pretty sure there's more, but I can't think of any.

I've only had 2 (official) relationships so far. Second one is going pretty awesome. Dun wanna say how many Nairb has on the "ways to keep me" list, but he's doing a great job at it. I've learned a few rules along the way though.

•  Cut off date is two months. Plenty of time to get to know someone. Feeling half-assed at two months? Then it's not worth my time.
• Wait at least two weeks before kissing the guy :o because kissing anywhere in between that time, the relationship is totally going to be physical base. I personally want something meaningful. a mix of passion and compassion.
• If he loves saying your name all the time, whenever he can, then he's gonna be special.

This is all in my opinion, of course.
I still don't know much because not many of my friends have experienced relationships. It's all information gathered from my own experience. lol. disclaimer.

Creative Gift Ideas

I made a tiny gift for Ronny today. It was a lot of fun. However, I did run into a small problem in which I'd like to help others with :D. The one problem I had was coming up with an original and cute idea that can be homemade! I don't know about you, but I am just a teenager, and therefore, I cannot go out and buy a bunch of cool stuff for my boyfriend despite how much I want to. However, do not let an empty wallet stop you. What I've found are simple crafts that are pretty original and not too costly! :D.

note: they all have to do with writing a message of sorts, so ....hope you're okay with that XD;.

Idea #1: An Eggtastic Message!
ohparty.net
You've heard of messages in a bottle, but this is something entirely more unique and fun!

This is a really simple idea that is just adorable, in my opinion! x3 You don't need much either; just an egg, paper, pen, bowl and needle. The only item that I can really find causing some trouble is the needle. You might not have one on hand depending on the kind of person you are. The box and paint is really optional, but it's a really nice touch, so try it if you can ;D.
I find this a really neat idea because how often do you get messages in eggs? Unless you're the Easter Bunny, I doubt it's very often. Plus, it's fun to crack open eggs xD. It's not a lot of work, but contains a lot of thought in it. Thus, making it one lovable gift <3.

The only problem I have with this is the egg shell is hard to save once it's broken. Ultimately making it hard for the receiver to keep it for the memory. However, this gift is cool enough to be placed into their heart's memory, so it shouldn't be too much of a worry :)

Idea #2: Seven Days of Love
thedatingdivas.com
(link to the original has template for the love notes if you wanna check it out)

By putting a seven-day pill box, yummy candy, and heartfelt notes together, you can make one kick-ass treat for your loved one! Sounds simple, right? Well, only because it is simple. The final product looks absolutely fantastic though <3. Doesn't matter how much work you put into it. It's the thought that counts ^___^.

I don't know about you, but last time I checked,
(Candy + Love notes) x 7 = an awesome gift that'll make your special someone happy, and their tummy just as so ;D.

I like this one because it's inexpensive, easy to do, and will be a nice treat for the person <3. Shows thought and creativity ;D.

Idea #3: My Heart has Something to Tell You
homemade-gifts-made-easy.com
(link above leads to instructions on how to make the heart. dollar bill is unnecessary. any rectangular piece of paper will do).

Sometimes we can't poke holes in eggs or go to the convenience store to buy pill-boxes. And that's why I like this idea. Paper is like almost always available, and it's easy to fold this heart up in a few minutes. It's pretty and cute C: and not too time consuming.


Now, this heart isn't just a pretty face, it can also be used to express a special message ;D. After you're done making it, you can see that there's a flap on the bottom that you can open up. It's perfect for writing a sweet little message in ^__^.

You can surprise them by slipping it into their pocket, placing it on their desk, sneaking it into their lunchbox, or place it in their left shoe. You could always just give it to them directly as well. Whatever you wish xD.

ps. I made the blue on myself since I couldn't find a picture that fit what I wanted. I made it in a total of two minutes ('cuz I'm pro like that >D). However, the first time I made it, it took me about 10 minutes I think; mostly because I was trying to make it really perfect/nice looking by being careful xD.
pss. I've personally used this one xD. LOL. and Ronny loved it. It also made me feel so happy when I saw him put it in his bag for safe keeping (only to peak at it again later, and smile ^___^).

Idea #4: Sweet Outdoor Puns
radmegan.blogspot.com

This idea is for those nature loving people out there or even indoor people! This gift is cute and funny.

I like it because ..well, puns are fun, and it shows creativity xD. It's different from the norm. I mean, who'd think to give a rock and stick as a gift? I also love how the only thing that's gonna cost anything is the paint for the rocks. ...well, actually, you can even get a plain sharpie marker. I'm sure it's the same xD.

Idea #5: Here's a Gif for You~
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I absolutely love this!! It's really cute, especially if you use your own pictures. And gifs are fun to make too :D.

It's a quick, sweet somethin' somethin' for you to send to that special person. It could be that lovely surprise they receive in their inbox to brighten up their day ;D. This gif is just an example. You can come up with something cheeky of your own x3. No need to get your hands dirty. No need to spend anything (unless you don't have a camera).

ps. if you don't know any good gif websites, then here's the one I usually use: gif maker
I like using this one because it doesn't limit the number of photos you use xD.

I was going to share like two more, but I'm kind of tired right now ^ ^;;. If you feel that none of these ideas fit what you want to express to your loved one, then go check out this epic site I found: http: Creative Ways to Say "I love you". It's full of all these cute little ideas :D. I got most (practically all) of the ideas I shared today from this site. <3.


note: If you're having a hard time writing the message/note part of the gift, then try looking up sweet quotes or listen to romantic songs or something of the sort to get your creative juices flowing. ;D

Distracted

Wah~~!! So much work to do.

I have to do a Spanish power point presentation about Paraguay.
I have to do a science lab report where I have to graph 189 points! Finished 166 as of yesterday....I'll never want to look at dots and lines for a long time >_>
There's also my English homework. I have to get to the library, and find a biography/autobiography book. Except I have no idea why I need it. The teacher wont tell us > <. Also, have to finish my stupid book summaries. Like why the hell can't I just read a book in peace?! I don't like writing about what I read afterwards >3< because I also end up writing long ass summaries when I don't have to. *is incapable of condensing thoughts*

Hehe but I like social studies~ ^ ^. So easy <3
^LOL Never in a million years would I thought that I would ever say that.
I used to hate social studies, but now I love it. My teacher is so hilarious awesome! xD He's the reason why I'm interested in social studies. You know how hard that is to do?!
I love my science teacher too. He's so perverted xDDD ROFL. He likes to call the devil "the horny guy" xDD get because of the devil's horns, but it's thought with perverted intent xD. He made a joke about how he used to pronounce altitude as "al-tit-tude" xDD. And he's said many other things that drip with pervertedness xD. Sigh~ that guy is hilarious.

Har har getting of topic, so normally I would get all this work finished by now, buuut I have recently realized that there is a distraction in my life :P. I would call it a type of distraction that makes me happy. Unfortunately, this distraction happens to be a person; a guy to be more exact (cuz no I'm not lez *cough cough* Banana-kun!). Sadly, I have no chance and his heart is taken by another :P (can I kill her? LOL xD jk jk). Except, even though I know this, I still can't stop chatting with him! It's so strange > <. Why are boys so annoying?! Damn, I blame my stupid girly hormones xP. Haha which reminds me, that was one of my popular quotes at school xD. Sigh good memories good memories :). *cough* Anyways, yup this guy has taken like 3~7 hours away from my life practically everyday xD. Luckily though, I'm not crazy or obsessed (yet).
Hmm..but except, I don't know. I get this happy feeling whenever I talk to him, and I always want to talk to him. I like being around him. He makes me happier than a normal person would. However, even with all these stupid feelings mushing around inside of me, I can't really say I love the person, per say. Just enjoy their company. So I have concluded that this is what people call a "crush", a baby one, but still a crush nonetheless... And I have no idea why I'm ranting/explaining about this xD. It's just good to get all my thoughts out I guess :3. Would've blogged about this earlier since it's been going on for awhile. But wanted to be sure of how I felt before I told you guys because I don't want to to go ranting on about some guy and then randomly stop liking him. That'd be weird :3

Anyways, since a chunk of my time is taken away by this guy everyday, my grades have been slipping. Sigh~ the worst part about falling for someone xD. Hmm...so I have to find a way to keep my grades up and still be able to talk with him. What should I do? LOL my mind is totally drawing a blank here. Haha maybe I'll just study at the same time I'm talking with him. Sounds like a good idea, ne? :3
Hehe multitasking ~ x)

....
sigh I'm so hopeless xD

I Can't Believe What Just Happened

I don't know if I just made the largest mistake of my life or the right one...

Earlier, I was chatting with K., and things were going really well (if you minus out the awkward nervousness I felt the entire time ^ ^;; when I'm talking with him, I always choke on my words.)

Well anyways..things got real awkward

and I think he actually confessed that he liked me.

But it was all too unreal for me to realize what was going on. I ended up saying stupid stuff, that probably hurt his feelings, and he left our chat.

A few minutes later, he sends me an email saying he would like to start over from the beginning.

...but I told him I couldn't just start over,

and I actually told him that I liked him as well.

except...I said nothing would happen between us romantically because I'm not allowed to date. :(

And in the email, I asked if we could just stay friends, but I don't think that's possible.

and ...I'm not sure if he'll ever be want to talk to me again.

He hasn't replied back yet (mostly because I just sent the email)

Our "love" story ended badly...

And...and...

TT^TT I'M SUCH AN IDIOT!!!

I NEVER THOUGHT THINGS WOULD TURN OUT THIS WAY!!! TT^TT

WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!

I MESSED UP!!! TT~TT

I FEEL TERRIBLE!!!!! D':

>~< it seems almost impossible to fix things now.

and I wonder if he's reading this now ^ ^;;. He somehow found my blog, and started reading it >.> ... Which was a terrible turn of events >~<.

So back to what I said in the beginning. Do you think it was wrong and a big mistake to tell K. that I can't be more then friends with him, or do you think it was the right decision to not go behind my dad's back and start dating my crush?

Progress

I have reached a successful point in my attempts with K.
So far I was able to get his cell number. Well, I didn't ask for it he asked me...but I guess that's even better ^ ^. I don't know if I told you about that. I guess I'll just tell you anyways. I was talking to him in the morning before school started, and he pulled out his phone and randomly asked me for my number. ^ ^ the funny thing was I was just about to ask when he asked me. That day made me happy.
Anyways, today was pretty cool! Or at least the time after school was cool xD
I have tutor after school, and he goes too. And so does two other girls. Yeah there are only four of us in this class xD. Anyways, one of them are in his class, and the other one is in the class of SF. They're both very nice, but I think the girl in his class could be an obstacle..or it could just be me being stupid.
Anyways, my tutor didn't come today, so we waited there for like an hour. And the concourse of my school doesn't have air conditioning, so it was really hot. The air was sticky, and humid. I hate the hot weather.
*shakes head* Sorry I'm getting off topic.
I learned quite a bit about K. though.
He's quite a weird person. K. just gets more interesting with each conversation I have with him. His way of thinking is weird, and I have a feeling he's easily persuaded if you show him some kind of evidence even if it's kind of dumb evidence. He's also very techincal, and loves laughing at my funny ways of pronouncing things. Lolz xD but I still love him.
Anyways, the walk home with him was nice. ^ ^
We both had until 4:00 for when our parents were expecting us back, so he decided to go to the school park near my house. I wanted to go too, but I saw that there were people he knew and I didn't. I don't like feeling left out, and too me it'd be awkward > <. So I started to leave. But then I was thinking, "Okay, school is going to end soon. I won't see him as often as I get to now, and probably never. So I should make the most of my time now." With that in thought, I mustered up whatever courage I had surviving in me. I turned around, and started walking back towards the park. On the way, this really rude kid was running and pushed me. In the process, I looked at the floor for some reason... not sure why xD. Anyways, I saw $3 on the floor. I was like "Ooh! Money!" xD lol. I picked it up, and looked around at the people around me. My best guess was either it was there for awhile, or it was from the kid who pushed me. I contemplated on whether I should call the kid, and ask if it was his. But he was quite far ahead of me. Plus, he seemed to be the type to claim it even though it wasn't his. Furthermore, he PUSHED me! So I thought it best to just keep it xD. I also took it as a good omen to go to the park.
I see him, and he's talking with some friends. I go up, trying to act as casual as possible. Then I just put my stuff down, and start talking to him. He starts to play this game called handball with three other guys I know/seen. I sit there watching happily. He sucks at the game, but it was cute ^ ^. A boy, who I will call Jase. (just cause I feel like it, and this is the only time I'll bring him up so it doesn't matter), was sitting somewhere not too far away from me. K. comes and stands somewhere in between us. Jase. looks at me and says "Hey aren't you the girl who gave SF. chocolates?" -________-;; that is a moment I wish never happened. Last Valentine's Day, I gave SF. chocolates. I liked him around that time, and I was like "Why the heck not?" TT~TT Why couldn't I have met K.
at that time!?!? Sigh~ well anyways, I was like "Um...^ ^;; I gave chocolates to everyone." (which is true, but everyone else's chocolates weren't as flashy and decorative) He was like "Ha ha. Liar." I was like " ^ ^" um... huh?" Pretending I didn't hear him. K. then buds in and says "Huh? Chocolate? How come you didn't get me any chocolates? I want some!" xD He loves chocolate. It was cute how he was being nosy and budding in.
When it was time to leave, I left suspiciously at the same time as him. He was like "How come you came here?" I was like "Because I have nothing else better to do, and you're here. So I was like 'why not?'." He just nodded. Then I asked him if he thought we'd still hang out even after he goes away next year. (away as in higher grade. im still not telling ya if its high school or college. who knows maybe i'm talking about middle school xD. you'll never know) He was like "I don't know. Maybe if you make a facebook or aim *smirk*." I don't know why, but that smirk cached me off guard. What the hell does the smirk mean?! > < Yea, I'm very bad at knowing body language. But the thing is I'm not allowed to make a facebook account or aim because my stupid dad! Sigh~ but even though he's stupid I gotta love him. xD
He asked me why I asked the question, and I responded by saying "I just felt like asking." That made him laugh, and he called me weird, but like the good weird xD if there is such a thing.
Oh, and before he left I asked him for his email (but nobody ask for it because I won't give it to you).
So on my way home, I was smiling and giggling like an idiot. I felt like running in circles at top speed. xD

What I mean by progress, is that
we started out as strangers,
and then
we became friends,
eventually
I got his phone number,
and now
I have his email!! :D

In my opinion, emails are easier because you have more time to think, and it's less embarrassing. Lolz, but I'm not going to email him until tomorrow because I heard somewhere that you should call a guy the next day or later. So I guess the same rule applies to emails xD. Plus, I think it makes me seem less weird/desperate if I wait a day or two.

Also, I think I've been a little too obvious with K. I think he's catching on about my feelings for him, or he's at least suspicious. xD

Trust

I feel...like crying. My pride prevents me from shedding a single tear though. Why is it that in life, everything can go so right, but suddenly goes oh so wrong? :'( I just don't understand.
Today, I was humiliated, betrayed, angry, scared, and sad; all at once. I still feel those emotions now.
I used to like a guy who was a complete jerk, and I just don't know what I saw in him. All he has going for him is looks. And it took me awhile to realize that. But I now started liking K. He's basically perfect. I've always pictured myself being with an Asian guy, but K. is Indian, and has opened my eyes.
I've never really talked about the jerk I used to like with you guys, but I think you should know about him a little before I continue with why I felt those horrible feelings today.
I felt like I could trust my friends with the secret of me liking SF. (the jerk I used to like). For the first few days, they were like "ok..." but as time passed and they saw him in the halls everything went down hill. Every time they saw him they were like "Ooooh." or "Emiko! There he is!" :\ you can see how annoying that must have been for me because we pass him in the halls quite often. My so called friends made it so obvious that I liked him! I was just so damn pissed off. I still talked to him though. But as more time passed, and my friends kept up their childish behavior, he started to slowly stop talking to me. It went to the point that he even started insulting me. It made me quite miserable.
So once I started liking K., I just couldn't trust anyone. I didn't tell anyone. And everything was good. People still teased me a bit though because they like starting rumors. But it wasn't anything major.
Then I told my friend P. because I know I can trust her. Plus she trusted me with the secret of her crush, so in return I told her mine. Plus I have the feeling that she thinks that guy she likes, J., likes me. So she was really conservative with me, but when I told her that I liked K., it seemed like she was happy again. I guess she didn't have to worry that I would steal him from her. Not that I would, but some people just think that kind of stuff no matter how much you trust the person. I also told Luka-chan because she's my best friend. I feel like I could trust her. We're close... I also told Jo. because she had killer eyes when I didn't tell.. I got frightened. And eventually about 7 different people now know. How did it start from telling just one person to having basically everyone knowing? TT^TT I'm such an idiot.
Anyways, in gym today, was where all the drama and daje vu  happened.
[warning: I can tell this is going to be a long entry...]
Okay, so K.'s lunch period is right after mine. K. likes to go to gym during his lunch period. And on Mondays I have gym after lunch. So when gym started I was so happy. I wanted to talk to him. Stare at him. Hang out basically. But my stupid friends -__-, what troublesome beings they are. I sat near him, and my friends and I started playing a game. Then I got bored, and decided to walk somewhere else. Everyone of course followed me (I'm not sure why). I couldn't get alone with K. at all though! Which pissed me off. Anyways, I passed by K. and became too shy to say hi, so I just kept walking. But my "friends" started shouting "Hi K.!!" and stopped to talk to him. I became freaked out/worried, and started shouting "What are you doing? Come on let's go over here." And K. was freaked out because like 5 people he didn't know knew him, and started crowding him. I was like "> < Oh my god." I felt like dying right there. I just pulled them away, but stupid Luka!! She stood there with that evil bitchy smile of hers. I stood at the other end of the gym, and started motioning for her to get her fucking ass over to where I was. (I am letting you know that I am getting angrier and angrier with each letter, so I might start..cursing a little.) But she didnt move an inch. I then went over to her, and started to pull her away. But that idiot! She didn't start walking, and she made me drag her. She was making weird noises too -.-;;. It was somewhere between a whine and a dying animal. K. was like "o.O;;" and I was like "ugh -.-" Luka can be such a drama queen, and Jo. finds her adorable for some reason...>.> she's nuts for thinking that witch is "cute." Anyways, after my several attempts to get my crazy "friends" away from K., L. (a stupid loser who is really annoying and perverted, and I for some reason hang out with him. He's also in K.'s class) started to notice and was like "Ooh! I know who you like. It's K.!" J. and L. has this weird determination to find out who I like, so that's why he made a big deal about it.
I was like "No.No.No! >~<" I felt like walls were closing in on me, and there was no where to escape. I was falling into a deep pit of darkness. I sat there watching everything I've worked so hard for fall apart right before my eyes. When I say "worked hard for", I mean I've spent so much time trying to get closer to K. But when my friends started to freak him out, that all went out the drain. I felt this odd squeezing in my heart, and my brain was collapsing on me. I couldn't think.
Finally gym was over.
I never wanted to go through that again. It felt like total de ja vu. It felt like SF. moment all over again!! I did not want that to happen; never ever.  I don't ever want to combine my love life and friend life together ever again. I mostly hang out with K. during after school activities. During after school activities, I'm like in a whole separate world.
I felt humiliated because everyone was making fun of me. K. saw how weird my friends were.  > <
I felt betrayed because of everything. I thought of Luka as my best friend. And even though everyone contributed to my misery (everyone embarrassed me in front of K.) Luka was the one to lead the attack. Everyone has just been cool about everything, until Luka started causing ruckus!! You know how sad it is when you can't trust your own best friend? I really need to rethink my choice of friends.
I felt scared because I don't want K. to stop talking to me like SF. did. I like talking to him...When I'm with K., all my worries just seem to...disappear for those few fleeting moments. I ...he makes me happy.
And I felt sad because I was humiliated, betrayed, and scared but I can't do anything about it. I want so badly to rewind time.
Why did I name this entry trust? I'll answer that.
I'm a nice person, and people tend to take advantage of that. I never get angry and I'm very go with the flow kind of person. I give people way too many second chances. And Luka just killed hers.
When I was younger, like elementary school young, I had developed some...trust issues. I got betrayed way too many times, and it just seems like I haven't learned my lesson yet.
I just hate that I can't find a friend who I can truly trust.
I have a feeling that Luka is out to ruin my life. I remember she was so nice. But now she always looks at me with this look of jealousy, and her tone towards me isn't the same. Plus, whenever I ask for help on a school question, she insults me and then tells me the wrong answer -__-. What a nice friend right? *sarcasm* I can't really name any other examples as to why I feel that Luka is this way towards me, but I just get this feelings radiating from her. You know what I mean?
Sigh~ life just isn't so good for me right now.

Pilates

Pilates (p-i-la-tee-s: my way of pronouncing it. i also don't know how to spell it, so if it's wrong I'm sorry > <) is a method of exercise that improves agility, economy of motion and flexibility. It builds a sleek body and helps increase strength without excess bulk, or so says livestrong.com. I'm not really sure if it works, but my dad said I should give it a try. I, like any other girl, wants to be ...thin. I wouldn't say skinny because if you're too skinny, then you look unhealthy and like a stick. I want to be somewhere in the middle. I am somewhat in the middle, but lately I've been eating one too many snacks ^ ^;;. Anyways, girls are suppose to be thin yet not bulky. That's what pilates help you with. It always people to lose weight and look fit without being bulky/super muscular. I've decided to try out this pilates exercise thing. This morning before I left for school, I tried it. I did a pilates exercise that helps you lose belly fat. During the middle of school, my sides starting hurting like crazy! Every step I took hurt like hell. Sigh~ I'm just so out of shape. I guess that's what I get for being an otaku who stays on my computer all day >.> ... But like they say "No pain. No game." Which I have found true because it happens to me every time I exercise. But the whole pain thing makes me really unmotivated to exercising. I hate exercising, but liposuction is expensive, painful, and it just seems low for some reason.  So I exercise since there's no other choice. Anyways, I looked in my Seventeen magazine for types of pilates exercises because they have that sort of stuff in it. It said "60-second secret to your best body." And I was like "Wow! Only 60 seconds?!" I tried it...>.> I still have excess fat. So it was too good to be true. They probably meant you should repeatedly do the exercise each day for 60 seconds at least. I want to be really pretty and have a nice body because I'm going on this field trip with K. And it's like an amusement park, and it's going to be in June. So since it'll be hot I might wear shorts and a tank top. But I want to look pretty in shorts and a tank top, not some fat person who's trying to faily show off whatever thing they think they got. > < It's May and June is so close. I hope these pilates exercises will work fast!

Today was Awesome ^ ^

The title is self explanatory. My day was awesome!
In the morning, I saw K., and he didn't go to volleyball this morning, and was just sitting on this chair (In my school people can come early and end up waiting until 8:00). I had saw him, and went to go talk to him. He said it was odd, but I ignored that little comment, and continued talking. When my close circle of friends came (I usually come earlier then them) They started peaking at us from behind this board/wall thing that was placed there. I saw them and was like, "Please, excuse me for a moment. ^ ^" And I gave Nyu-san her birthday gift because today was her birthday! Anyways, when I came back to him, he pulled out his phone and casually asked, "What's your phone number?" I was like "O.O OH MY GOD!?! HE'S ASKING FOR MY NUMBER?!?!" But I obviously did not say that or else that'd be embarrassing xD. I can't believe he said it so easily, I have been trying to casually ask for his number for about a week, and I couldn't gather the courage. But I wouldn't say he said that easily because he did look down and a little embarrassed. After, I gave him my phone number, I took a deep breath and said "Okay, so now you have to give me your number." I said it so fast it took him a while to realize what I said xD. He made the number appear on his phone and I had to punch it into my cell. But the sun light was reflecting off of his cell, and I had to move closer to him to see. I was like centimeters away from his face!! It was the greatest morning I've ever had ^ ^. I got his number and had a nice long conversation with him.
But that was just the morning. There's more to this story :)
My friend Ca., likes a guy in a grade higher then us. She finds him super cute, and wants to talk to him, but she doesn't know how since she doesn't see him that often. So I offered my services to her.
Yea, I'm like a professional stalker >.> ....
I have K.'s entire class schedule. I just don't think two hours a day is enough. I want to see him all the time. It's not like I watch and follow him. I just like to see him. Just seeing his face makes me happy. I also say the occasional hi. If he sees me more often, then maybe I'll be on his mind more often ^ ^...just hope it's about good things.
Anywas, Ca. feels the same way I guess...and since she's my friend I was like, "Hey, do you want me to get his schedule for you?" I have some experience in doing that because I figured out half of my old crush's schedule. But lately I have been finding much easier ways of getting the schedule. For K.'s, I just asked J. for it. He made me carry his book bag all the way to the park we were going to, but the schedule was worth it ^ ^.
Okay, so back to the point.
I was very happy because I was able to get the schedule of the guy Ca. likes. It was practically the easiest thing I've ever done in my life. I know the sixth grade vice principal in my school (there's one vp for every grade) since he used to be my social studies teacher. I just went up to him and was like "Hey, Mr. F, can I get the class schedule of ___ class?" I was totally scared that he would ask why, and I wouldn't have an answer for him. But I had to get the schedule for my friend. Mr. F. was like "It's somewhere over there." I looked at the shelf and there was a binders full with the class schedule for all the classes. I was like O.O holy sh*t! I went over and took one of the schedules. They had like 100 copies for each class. He gave it to me, no questions asked. Well, then again, Mr. F is like a very loosey goosey person xD.

This was written with thoughts from
Emiko F. Seiei

I'm SO happy and I thought you should know

WARNING! This entry may be very very long, and it's about my very fail, very futile love life (but i unexpectedly had a successful day, so it might not be so fail after all.) If you are not interested in my successful time in my love life then try reading it anyways, or just read some of my other entries xD.

That smiley up there, is an example of an understatement as to how big I was smiling today after certain events. Btw :) I have succeeded! Okay, for those of you who have read my last entry, you should know what the heck I'm talking about. But for those of you who didn't (you should start following me so I don't have to explain xD), my last entry was about how I don't like how things between me and my futile crush is going. So I was really pumped and was totally ready to start progressing things between us :). I saw him at my after school activities (musical theater). Today in mt (musical theater) we just talked about a trip we're taking. It's some big trip that's a way to celebrate our successful show of Annie Jr. My crush is going on the trip so I'm totally going to push my dad to let me go. The thing is that it's until 7:00 p.m. >.> I've never been out for that long with out my dad. I wonder how it will go. Anyways, my crush needed to go pick up his little sister at the bus stop that's like 2 blocks away from my school. It was funny because he was like "Um...Mr. W I need to go real quick to pick up my sister." And I was like "can I go with you?!" He laughed and was like "..sure...?" and started running. So I followed him ^ ^. He was like "You were serious?!" xD After we got out of the school building he was like "Can you run." ...can't everybody who can walk know how to run? xD Anyways I was like "yea..." and he was like "Can we run?" I, of course, wanted to be on his good side and was like "Ok." so we started running. He runs FAST!!! I couldn't keep up xD. We were waiting at the bus stop, and I wanted to start a conversation going. (remember! I'm trying to progress this stand still friendship) So I ask my most common and unique question that I ask every guy I like "What's your favorite part of the sky?" xD It's a weird question I know. But it can tell you a lot about a person if you think about it. He was like "Huh?" "You know the clouds, the stars, the blueness of it all." "The stars." I like the clouds ^ ^;; and so have all my past crushes, so this was new. I was like "why?" "Because they seem so close, but they're so far away." "So are the clouds. They look close but are far away." "But stars are farther away. Space is just so cool!" See, that question can starts a real nice conversation ^ ^. (Use the question with your crush if you want, tell me if it worked for you!) "Is that why you want to be an astrophysicist?" I asked. "o.o how did you know...?!" Yea, it must seem odd for a person to know something you never told them.lol "Because I went to the arista ceremony." (the arista ceremony was this thing where the people in it said what they wanted to be when they grew up.) He was like "oh yea." Then I stated, "Astrophysics, the branch of astronomy that has to do with the physics of the universe-" and he cut me off there "You actually looked it up!?!" xD...I guess that does seem scary, especially since I memorized the basic definition. I had to think up of an excuse as to why I looked it up xD so my thoughts were: "damn it! think! think think! You can't say it's because you like him and want to be knowledgeable about what he likes!" So I told him, "...Um ..well at the arista ceremony, I heard things like veterinary, doctor, and lawyer. I've never heard of the term astrophysicist before." "Yea, I wanted to be unique. *smiles*" I was totally shouting "Yes! He bought it!" in my head. However, him wanting to be an astrophysicist is only my motivation to searching it up. I was telling the truth about it being different from what the others said. Anyways, as we're waiting at this bus stop, his MOM comes! It's kind of a big thing meeting the parent of the person you like. She gave me a "omg who's that girl with my son" look xD.  K. was like "um..yea.. this is my mom :)" I was like "Hi! :) *acting as friendly as possible*" So then K. was all like "Mooom, can I please go back to musical theater?!" guess he didn't need to pick up his sister since his mom was there. The weird part was that he was leaning on his mom's shoulder, and was not really begging, but..hm.. what do you call it? Well it was cute. He was using like this baby voice ^ ^. It was something I've never seem him do before. Anyways, afterwards we head back to mt, and we see people walking home. It was a group of guys from mt and they were laughing so weirdly O.o. When we got to the auditorium (where mt is held), no one was there. When it's empty you can make echoing sounds. So I lamely shouted "Echo!" xD I'm such a child. We start heading to a nearby elementary park because we could xD And we thought our other friends would be there. On our way, I used my super vision and saw that our friends were ahead of us. What makes my vision so "super" is that they were really really far away. Anyways, we run like hell to catch up with them. My friend, P. (internet safety reasons is preventing me from using my friend's full name), was like "moments." when she saw me. She's basically saying "aww~ you got to spend time with him." Anyways, we walk to the park, do fun stuff, hand out. xD that's the condensed version. We played manhunt. When it was time to hide, I was totally following with him and hiding with him! He noticed too >.> and I couldn't come up with something normal to him that would make him less suspicious. It was 4:00 and I had to leave, but I asked for a time extension ^ ^. I got another hour. K. had to go too, but I was like "Why don't you get a time extension like me?" I wanted to spend as much time with him as possible!! But he didn't bring his phone, so I let him use mine ^ ^. I joked about me having his phone number in my call history xD. Which freaked him out a bit, but it's okay. Did I tell you that K. knows I'm creepy/perverted? Well he knows, but he's unusually okay with it. Probably because I'm creepy/perverted but not to a really super serious nutso extent xD more of a joker kind. Anyways, he used my phone and got to stay until 5 as well ^ ^! Afterwards me and him rejoined our friends and played telephone. It was fun whispering in his ear, and him whispering in mine ^ ^. Ew.. that might sound weird xD but hey I can't say that I didn't enjoy. When it reached 5 o' clock we started walking home together!! K. lives in an apartment building right next to the school! So we walk in the same direction because I live 5 blocks away from the school. Anyways, it was a nice walk~ I asked him questions. I was like "Do you think I'm weird?" "No." This surprised me. I thought he was lying. "Really? Then maybe a creep?" "No not really." I laughed " A pervert?" I totally thought he would say yes. But he said "No, you're actually pretty normal. Just...unique." Gee that's a laugh. What a nice way to say mentally insane. Then he adds "I've definitely never met a girl like you." "Is that good or bad?" xD of course I'd get suspicious if someone said that. "Good." ^ ^ now I was happy. Then we pass by my school, and there were a lot of people there hanging out. "Wow there's a lot of people here." I said. "I won't see many people I know, only the small few that's going to my school." (he's going to a different school next year. I won't tell you if it's college or high school because again of the internet safety rules. No way am I going to let people know how old I am. I'm a year younger then him though, so I won't be able to see him after this year is over TT-TT!! But then again I know where he lives *creepy smile*) What he said was totally off topic, and not what I was talking about xD but I went along with it anyways. "Yea...but hey maybe I'll get into *beeep (sorry I'm censoring the school's name. > < too many hints are no good.)* :) ....if I'm smart enough >.>.. (he's going to one of those "smart" people schools. you know the ones that are really hard to get into. the one he's going to is the second best, which is pretty impressive. Haha ^ ^ I like a nerd...I'm one too but whatever xD)" "No. You're really smart." Just that made me happy :) but he kept going. "You're even smarter then me." Really happy now :) but a little confused. How was I smarter than someone who's older than me? He probably meant smarter then him when he was in my grade. Anyways he kept going ^ ^, "I think by the time you reach my grade (that's when you take the test) you'll know enough to be able to get into *beeep*." (basically the beep was the name of the school ranked first.) I was thinking, "wow! he really thinks that? I feel so happy that he thinks so highly of me ^ ^!" Sadly, he eventually reached his apartment building, and it was time to say farewell. He was heading towards the door when he said "See you later." I waved and said "Bye." In a very fail squeaky/sad baby voice. Then he stopped and said "Don't say bye!" I was like "huh?..." "Bye is a very bad word. It feels like you're leaving." ( I think he meant the leave forever type leave. because leaving as in just leaving the place you're at wouldn't make sense in what he said.) *cries tears of joy* Is he saying he doesn't want me to leave?! Or does he not like the idea of me leaving!?! ...Okay so maybe it's just his matter of opinion on the word and I'm looking to deep in what he was saying, but hey I like to look at the glass half full ;) ~
On my way home, I was smiling like a total idiot from ear to ear. I got weird looks from people, so I tried to make a less toothy smile. But I couldn't! My mouth kept opening so my teeth were showing. I went totally crazy! Giggling like a loopy girl. I was just really happy :) my day was so successful. Maybe, my futile crush isn't so futile after all...       (How much you want to bet that I'll see him at school on Monday, and complain about how it's futile again? xD) .....DAMN!!!! THIS IS LOOOONG!!!! O.O sry about that ^ ^;;

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Sleepy =.=

Today I was so sleepy during class > <
Good thing we were watching a movie or else I would've been in sooo much trouble! TT^TT I go to sleep early, but how come I can never stay awake?!  Sigh~ I haven't really been in the "learning" mood lately. All the chaos and drama in school has been getting to my head lately. I just feel so out of it. Plus, it seems to be getting harder and harder to talk to my friends lately. My futile crush hasn't been working out lately either... I don't get to see him that often anymore, so I'm really sad about that. TT^TT My tutoring classes have ended too, so I only get to see him on Tuesdays and Fridays! ...Sigh~ it's like Tamaki's problem with Haruhi. He only got to spend club time with the person he liked too. (I'm talking about something from ouran high school host club anime). Except I can't barge into his class and take him away like Tamaki would for Haruhi xD. I don't think my status with my crush will change anyways, so I guess there's no point in trying anymore...but I will not give up! It's not progressing because I'm just not trying hard enough! Yeah! I can't wait for Friday tomorrow! Hee hee hee ^ ^ I'm going to try my best :D So wish me luck. Gotta go to bed now so tomorrow can come faster.

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Disappointment

I had that big ELA test today. :) I think I did pretty good on it. I still have to do book 2 tomorrow though >.< which really sucks. Anyways, since today was so tiring and boring, I was totally pumped to go to after school activities. I was going to get to see my crush!! :D I haven't talked to him since...yesterday. But that wasn't enough!!! So when he didn't come I was ....so sad TT^TT I felt like dying! Let me start from the beginning. It came to the end of the school day, and before after school activities I have about 50 minutes. Anyways, I asked J., one of his friends, where the heck was he. And he said "Oh, he left early." TT^TT I SPENT A FRIGGIN' HOUR CIRCLING MY STUPID SCHOOL FOR MY CRUSH AND HE WASN'T THERE!!!! I'm a total idiot > < !! So I felt pretty out of it for the rest of the day. I had no more motivation to go to after school anymore. D: I was very depressed. J. knows that someone in my class likes my crush because my friend and I told him. It's a long story. We made a whole bunch of jokes about different dares he had to do. Which includes eating a leaf or hitting on an elderly person. xD Anyways, he didn't do any of the dares but we kind of annoyed him, so my friend (who likes him) felt bad and told him someone liked my crush (me) but she didn't tell him who. So today when my crush wasn't here, J. was like "Aw. I know you're sad that K.(the first letter of my crush's name) isn't here P.(my friend's 1st letter) *evil smile*." The funny part is, P. and I totally guessed that J. was going to think that P. liked K. because they're both Indians. And then after J. said that me and P. started cracking up and we were like "Ha! We so totally knew you were going to say that! Ha ha" and we lamely high fived each other xD. Then as a comeback he was like "Well, um, that was only my stereotypical guess." P. likes J. and I like K. so it's very weird xD. Anyways, my entertainment from J.'s fail stereotypical comment died a soon death, so I remembered that K. was gone TT^TT. So I started "crying" and complaining that I was going to die. So J. did his weird yet really cute (yes I think he's cute, but I'm not attracted to him. Plus I would never steal my friend's guy ^ ^) evil smile, and he was like "Oh, so you like K." and I was like "owo..*remembers that it has to be kept a secret and does sudden expression change in split second*...-.- how'd you come up with that? I was talking about how I was going to die because of the ELA test." But what I was really thinking was "Few~ nice save..." But he didn't buy it because later on in the day he was like "You like K.~" -.-;; ....damn, so he's smarter than I thought. I mean yeah, he's in the advanced eighth grade class, but he's still kind of dense >.>
Anyways, I hope I get a good grade on the ELA.
But I really hope K. goes to after school tutoring tomorrow. He didn't come today because of the stupid ELA test tomorrow, so he went home early to study. TT^TT see tests only bring bad things. But tomorrow is after school tutoring, so he has to come! Plus we had to pay for it. So he's probably going to come tomorrow! ^ ^ That thought makes me happy. Today's after school was musical theater. Yes, I'm in musical theater even though I suck at singing! I like to act though. Acting is fun. But I don't really see it as a career choice for me. It's just something I like to do. I want to become a robotic engineer ^ ^ ....so me and K. both want to become scientist. Hm..we'd make a rich couple. lol xD
Ah ha~ can't wait until tomorrow! (:

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So Much Work

Waaaahhh!!! TT~TT *sob sob*
I think I failed my math test! It was on quadratic equations and I wasn't able to answer the last question and it's worth 15 points. > < I got stuck and didn't know what to do. My friend was studying with me the day before and after the test she was like "See I told you we should have studied it more." And I was like "We didn't study this! You were telling me about some other super hard thing!" > < It was so frustrating. Anyways, the highest score I can get without those 15 points is 85! A friggin' 85!! That's less than 90! Barely a passing grade!! Damn. Why didn't I borrow that math book with all the practice questions?!?!  > < I got too cocky. I'm really depressed no...>.> sigh~ I wonder what my dad will say. He'll probably give me a really disappointed look and long lesson on how to do quadratic equations. TT^TT why can't I understand stupid quadratics?!
Anyways, tomorrow I have the stupid ELA test. I have to do the ELA test the day after tomorrow too. Book 1 and book 2 are done on separate days. I wonder why. Can't we just get it done and over with in one day? And after that I have another math test on Thursday. Ugh! So much studying. I think I should do some practice stuff for the ELA tomorrow. Maybe after this blog. No, wait I got stupid homework too!!! -.- damn.
And then there's also my science project being due on Monday the 9. I have the state math test on Tuesday and Wednesday as well. I hate testing >.> mostly because you have to study. I'd rather be watching anime or reading manga! I'd actually exercise instead of do a test. And that's saying something because I dislike exercising very very very much.  Oh well, it's just apart of life and so I got to deal with it -__- unfortunately.
Plus on top of all the studying I have to do for school, I also have to study up on stuff for my crush.
The guy I like wants to be an astrophysicist, and I have no idea what that is. My dad said something to me about it, but I'm not sure if he's correct. So I have to go study about that later. I did a little research this morning, according to Wikipedia, astrophysics is the branch of astronomy that has to do with the physics of the universe. Wait that's just based on memory. Let me check if I'm correct. Yup, that's what it says in Wikipedia. Ugh! That's what's so frustrating about me. I have such great memory about the guy I like, but I suck when it comes to normal things. > < I'm weird like that. Also the guy I like is Hindu, so I need to study the Hindu religion as well. I know that I'm Asian and he's Indian, but I think he's awesome. So for those of you who are against it, go talk to someone who cares about your racist opinions :P. Anyways, I don't know how my dad would accept it if anything were to happen in the future between me and my crush (probably not, but still). I think he'd except. Because the other day when we were leaving from the park, we saw two people getting married. The girl was Asian and the guy was Indian. (wow so ironic). Anyways, my aunt (who sadly left today) said "Oh my god, she's marrying an Indian guy." And I suddenly got offensive (which hard to do. Im not really easily offended) and went into defense mode, "What's wrong with marrying an Indian guy?" My aunt was like "Parents aren't usually okay with it." was her answer. Then I turned to my dad and was like "Would you care if the guy I married was not Chinese?" and he looked at me through the review mirror, "As long as he treats you right." Was what he said. That was an unexpected answer. Anyways, I'm happy because then I'd get approval because my crush is a really kind person ^ ^.
Lately, I've been kind of worried about my crush though because he has really big bags underneath his eyes. So I was worried about whether or not he's been sleeping well. :( I get have him ruining his health. Then after school today, I saw him ^ ^ we started walking home together. I started telling him about how I didn't think I did too well on the quadratics test, and somehow that led to the ELA. He was like "You know how I study for the ELA?" and was like "How?" And he pulled out some kind of bottle and was like "With drugs." Obviously it was a joke so I started laughing. ( I thought it was some kind of candy bottle.) But then he was like "No seriously." And he pulled out the bottle again so I could have a better look. (I was so worried. I was like DRUGS? O.O) It was just one of those 5 hour energy things. I let out the breath I didn't know I was holding and relaxed. "Oh." I said. Everything made sense after that. He's probably been taking that so he can study late and still have enough energy for school. ^ ^ that would explain his sleepy expression. I just hope he stops after all the testing. It's still not very good for him > < !

He's a big boy, I guess he can take care of himself. But I still worry! Sigh~ I guess I just have to trust that he's smart enough to know what's good for him or not. I know he smart though ^ ^ because he's going to a good school next year, and his grades are good. Plus he's in the advance class.

Sigh~ now I got to go do homework and study. No time for blogging right now TT^TT

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Time in Art

I wouldn't really say I'm an "artsy" person. I mean I can get creative sometimes..., but I'm no good at drawing or painting or anything of that sort. ^ ^;; my friends are, and I'm really jealous. Anyways, since my friends are really artsy people, I got stuck into spending a lot of my time in art class -.-
We go during lunch period every Monday through Wednesday. The art teacher always asks us to do the extra projects like art contests and stuff too. Sigh~ I'm not really inspiring to be an artist when I grow older, so it feels like I could be doing something else >.> But my art teacher is like one of those really nice people that makes you feel bad or mean for saying no. I don't have enough will power  ^ ^;; to say no to her, so I get stuck into doing a whole bunch of stuff. I mean I'm not a bad drawer (pretty average), but when I see the kind of work I do, and then see Luka-chan's or Nyu-chan's work, I feel so bad about mine TT^TT. It's like "wow!" when you look at theirs. And when you see mine it's like "nice." >3< and nice sounds so lame. That's why when we have to do some kind of art project, I don't pick the same picture as Luka-chan or Nyu-chan to base my drawing off. I don't want to draw the picture, just to see that they can do it better than me. I'm better at tracing pictures than they are >.> but that can't beat natural talent. Luka-chan's drawings are very girly and very well drawn. But when she draws people they're very unnatural, like not human. She hasn't mastered the skill of drawing a person's curves. For example, the leg isn't just a straight line down to the foot. There's a curve for your thighs and then a smaller curve for your bottom leg part (> < I don't know what it's called).  So yea, when I draw people I try to do that..but I still suck xD ah my art talents are so fail. Anyways, I sort of like doing to the extra credit stuff because it means I don't have to do four drawings for every marking period xD I can miss one or two. Our last major art project for my group of extra credit art friends was painting these flat glassy-looking plastic sculptures. It was such a pain in the butt because I suck at painting. And the art teacher doesn't seem to know how badly I fail at art, so she makes me do really difficult things like paint the very detailed shoes. (since they were so detailed it was hard to paint). I also painted on a ceramic tile for some kind of police precinct. I painted a picture of a subway train. That was so hard too. But a miracle happened, and it didn't turn out so bad. Luka-chan's was amazing! She won first place (i didn't even know it was some kind of contest o.o), and got to eat breakfast with the police officers at the precinct. She got to eat at some fancy buffet and miss half of school. So unfair > < ! Oh well. I'm kind of glad I didn't ask to go (I could have had Luka-chan ask if I could come or soemthing xD). Why? Because if I went I wouldn't have gotten to see my crush ^ ^. He's a year older than me. So he does things that I'm not allowed to do because I'm one stinkin' grade lower than him. But since I'm in an advanced class, I got to go to one of the ceremony things of tutoring thing that only excepts smart people with an average higher than 88. Anyways, I got to see him in a really sexy suit-ish like thing and found out what he wanted to be when he grows up. Turns out he wants to be an astrophysicist. My dad told me it's person who has to deal with a lot of math, and is able to calculate how many light years it takes for us to get to Neptune or something like that. I might not be explaining this very well, so I would go google it if I were you xD.
Okay, back to art. I kind of like drawing sometimes. I mean it's not like I absolutely dread it, and hate my friends for dragging me into doing extra unnecessary stuff when they never do that for me...hm not that I think about it, I'm too nice >3< and my friends take advantage of that. Well, I guess they do things for me too sometimes. ^ ^ well either way, it doesn't really matter. They're good people (with a slightly twisted personality) and I like them :P. Anyways, I think drawing is kind of relaxing. It helps me get away from all the drama. It's something to do that's pretty fun. And I just love that feeling you get after finishing an art project (only if it turns out good xD). I always feel proud of myself when I finish a drawing or something. Oh I forgot to mention, usually on Mondays, I skip gym to do extra art stuff too. But since my crush goes to gym class the same time I do, I'm not going to skip gym anymore ^ ^ ~.   Before I would skip gym because I didn't like him before and besides who likes exercising? I bet a lot of people do. It's really healthy for you. Sigh~ but I'm one of those lazy people who likes taking long naps in the afternoon xD. However, since I like a certain guy now, I shall sacrifice the chance of possibly being forced to exercise for him and go to gym class. And that's a big thing because I normally wouldn't do such a thing. Not even for a guy that I liked. But this guy is just so...I don't know how to explain it. He's almost perfect ^ ^. He's got awesome grades (going to a really good school and is in the advance class), he's cute (hot!), I can talk to him very easily and he makes me laugh, and he's the perfect gentleman (opens doors and doesn't let me pay for stuff xD)! Plus he's a good person :) good people are cool. Do you think I'm crazy or selfish for skipping out on doing "fun" extra art stuff with my friends to go spend time with my crush? (btw i only spend like 2 hours with him every other day, but spend a practically a whole school day with my friends.)[so i spend enough time with them right? and deserve time with him, right?] xD sorry for the odd questions of whether it's fine to see my crush or not. I just always say I should put my friends first (and I do!) but I deserve to be a little selfish once in awhile, right? ^~^;; I feel so unsure. stupid guy problems -.- causing me unnecessary trouble and worries. Sigh~ the dramas of my life. lol xD. Drama can be interesting and suck at the same time :P

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Back to School

TT^TT school started today. Sigh~ it's not like I don't like school. It just can be annoying sometimes. It felt like I never left though xD. Nothing changed. The "spring fling" event that was going to happen at my school got postponed because of the stupid rain. I like the rain (it sounds pretty ^ ^) but it can be bothersome sometimes. :( I was kind of looking for to the spring fling. We were probably going to do some boring activities and eat gross BBQ, but I don't have to wear my school uniform (i hate uniforms. it kills our individuality) and I get to miss a few classes. Anyways, on my first day back I got to see Luka again, who is by the way my best friend. I missed her. We haven't been talking a lot over the phone anymore. Hm... oh well. Anyways, over the spring vacation, she discovered what fan service is and became addicted. For those of you who don't know, fan service is (i think) when a character does something that makes you spazz out and go all fan crazy. xD fan service is awesome. But Luka can get a little too obsessed >.> ... Throughout the whole day she was like "I LOVE FAN SERVICE!!!" and I was like "-__-;; um ok...that's like the hundredth time today." xD people who knew what she was talking about looked at her funny. She has told me multiple times that there is funny Grimmjow fan service pictures and that there's very "hot" fan service pictures of Ulquiorra. ^ ^;; she's an odd person, but I love her anyways xD. Oh, I was also happy that I went to school because I got to see my crush ^ ^. Yes, like many other girls, I have a futile crush. Hm... well I don't really think I have a chance, but at least we're friends so I get to talk to him quite often ^ ^. It sucks when you like someone who doesn't know you because it's like "I want to know everything, but I can't ask you because we're strangers." Sigh~ I know that and how it feels to be in that situation because it has happened to me. xD yeah my love life is very messy. Luckily, the guy I like now is a friend (that's easy to talk to) and he's a very smart and nice person (and not like the last guy I liked. that guy was a total jerk).  .... >.> but it's still a hopeless crush that'll probably never grow into anything more. (such depressing thoughts). Anyways, ^ ^ I'm glad I get to see my friends again. My spring vacation was pretty good too. Life is good~ :)

Awww >3< but now that school has started, I'll probably be blogging less. Well I shall try to blog at least every other day. I probably will since testing is coming soon, and the teachers are probably going to give us less homework so we can study ^ ^. I'm pretty smart (...i think so at least o.o) so I don't need to study that much. So no worries. Even though that school started I shall blog, but if there's like large amount of time between each blog entry, I'm stuck doing stupid homework = u = (this is me apologizing ahead of time btw)

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